145 Apology

回到房间后,躺在柔软的床上,关掉了最后一盏床头灯,林梦坐在黑暗中,发呆地流下了眼泪,终于忍无可忍.她觉得自己十六岁那一年就像进入了一个离奇的梦.她很想挣脱,但她不能!一个错误的步骤,然后是所有错误的步骤!或许,一开始,她就应该更狠一些,拒绝了他爸爸的求婚,没想过出卖身体这种荒谬的事情,这样她就不会碰到荣玲,不会碰到萧逸,也不会一次又一次地把自己置于这样尴尬屈辱的境地.像她这样的人,地位低下,待在这些高大威猛的男人身边,是不合适的,也许正因为如此,她总是被羞辱.她想起了容玲,想到了自己有多喜欢这个男人,为了他,她会毫不犹豫地毁灭自己,但到头来,容玲能记住的只有仇恨.她付出了她所拥有的一切,但她得到了一个男人对她的仇恨,这真是可怜和荒谬.她又想起了萧逸.她很感激这个男人的帮助,并被他的努力所感动.她以为自己就顺其自然地跟着他走,于是努力忘记过去,有了新的开始,但到头来,她还是对这个男人心存疑虑.因为她就像尘埃一样,她所有的努力所得到的一切都像尘埃一样低,不值得人们关注,到了一定时间,只会变得碍眼!她想着自己的存在,却永远无法想象自己是如何走到今天的!一路上,她几乎伤痕累累,但谁也看不懂,她甚至还增添了怨恨!也许从一开始就是一个错误.她应该从一开始就与父亲的死亡安排作斗争.所谓的一个失误,导致永远的遗憾,大概是这样的吧!漆黑的夜色中,清澈的泪水顺着她的下巴滴落.她总是这样偷偷哭泣,她痛苦而悲伤地想,这样的日子什么时候结束呢?!无论是容玲,萧逸,亲情,还是友情,她都不要,不是吗?!就让她悄悄走,什么都没带走就离开这个地方好吗?!她不想再打扰任何人了,那你就不能再让别人打扰她了?!她微微颤抖着,抬起头,无力地靠在床头上.当她闭上眼睛时,泪水流了下来!这无奈的人生什么时候结束?!...门被推开,然后"咔嚓"一声,房间里的灯亮了起来.她已经习惯了夜色的黑暗,突如其来的光芒让她眯起眼睛,用手挡住了.当她用眼角的余光看过去时,她看到了一个高大的男人身影.她立刻躺下,拉开被子盖住自己,然后抓起枕套狠狠地擦了擦脸.她也有尊严.即使她会虚弱地哭泣,她也不想让别人看到她这样,尤其是他.无论她躲得有多快,都比不上萧逸的眼睛.他皱起眉头,心里更是痛苦.他绝对不是想让她哭泣的.他慢慢地走过来,将手里的东西放在床边的桌子上,缓缓坐下.薄薄的被子把她完全包裹住了.他猜想,她大概是在被子底泪了.他无声地叹了口气,垂下眼睛,伸手拍了拍她,然后用嘶哑而干燥的喉咙轻声呼唤她."起来喝点粥!"她不吃东西他怎么放过呢?!所以,他命令厨房做一些容易消化的食物给她吃.幸运的是,因为他之前伤过肚子,而且她的手正在康复中,所以厨房通常会在晚上提供非常有营养的粥和各种汤,而且总是保持温暖.他直接舀了一些给她.看到她的哭泣是他预料之中的,但当他真正看到时,他仍然感到非常心疼.在被子下,她深吸一口气,嘶哑地回答."我不想吃东西..."他不会放纵她,因为这会伤害她的身体.他开始掀起被子,几下就把她从被子里拉了出来.她看起来好尴尬,头发几乎被泪水打湿了.她的小脸上布满了无法擦去的泪水.她的眼睛红红的,眼睑深深地肿胀.He tried his best to ignore the stinging feeling in his heart, took a spoon, scooped porridge from the big bowl into the small bowl, until it was full, and then held it in one hand and brought it to her."Eat!"She lowered her head, did not look at him, just shook her head.His tone became harsh, and he whispered: "Eat!"She moved her lips, and tears welled up in her eyes again. She suppressed the sobs in her throat with difficulty and replied hoarsely. "I really don't want to eat..."His face immediately darkened a little.She suppressed her voice again: "Can you go out? I want to sleep..."The slightly choked tone revealed her fragility at the moment.He flashed his cold eyes, turned his head and stared at the bowl of porridge, took the spoon, scooped a spoonful and swallowed it into his mouth, then put down the bowl, and pinched her thin chin with his big hand accurately, clamping her like a wrench, forcing her to look up. He used a little skill in his hand, and her red lips opened slightly involuntarily.When she tried to lower her head in resistance to hide the embarrassment in her eyes, he grabbed the back of her head with his other hand, then suddenly dived down, and his slightly hot lips suddenly pressed against her slightly cold lips, then opened his mouth, and then his wolf tongue forcefully broke into her mouth, feeding all the sweet hot porridge in his mouth into her mouth.She widened her eyes in surprise, subconsciously resisted, whimpered and screamed, trying to push the porridge out. His tyrannical side was revealed, and he blocked her mouth tightly with his lips, and his strong tongue was beyond words, forcing the porridge deep into her throat. With both hands cooperating and using clever strength, he heard a "gulp", and the porridge that became warm during the entanglement rolled into her throat and into her stomach.He let her go.She looked at him with tears in the corners of her eyes and shame and anger.He retracted his hand that was holding the back of her head, and gently wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes with pity, but his tone was gloomy, cold, and full of threats."I'll give you a choice. Either you drink the porridge yourself obediently, or I will feed you the same way I just did. Answer me now, which way do you want?!"Such a choice is simply an overbearing clause, and it is basically forcing her to eat.She pursed her lips and chose the first way helplessly. She brought the small bowl over with shaking hands, and then took the spoon and put it into her mouth one spoonful at a time. Then, while eating, she couldn't help but let tears fall.Because, I felt too wronged, it was really too wronged!Tears fell from time to time on the bowl of fragrant and tempting bone porridge, and after they faded, a light salty taste remained. She ate with a spoon, not knowing the taste, and didn't need to chew, but swallowing was so difficult.He sat in front of her and watched, and gradually, his face became pale as if showing weakness."You just want me to apologize to you, then okay, I apologize, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have insulted you, and insulted your trust in your friends, it's my fault, I'm sorry. Don't cry, okay?!"As soon as he showed weakness, she "woo" and tears burst out, pouring into the small bowl. The hands holding the bowl and the spoon were shaking non-stop, pitiful to the point of being unable to hold on. The sobs that were barely suppressed in front of him finally broke, and she cried earth-shakingly. The small body trembled, up and down, violently as if she was about to faint, which frightened Xiao Yi. He hurriedly snatched her bowl and spoon, put them on the table, and immediately stretched out his long arm, sat forward, pulled her small body into his arms, and patted her back clumsily and gently with his big hand, and wiped the tears on her face in a panic with his other hand, coaxing her anxiously."Be good, don't cry, don't cry, I was wrong, don't cry, don't cry...""Be good, I apologize, don't cry... Hey, your crying makes my heart ache...""Be good... don't cry... Hey... I... I'm just a bit straightforward, and I said nonsense when I was confused at that time, don't take it to heart... Be good, don't cry... Don't cry..."He coaxed her clumsily, and his eyebrows were almost gathered into two peaks. But the woman in his arms was like water, and her eyes were like two faucets, water was flowing out. The more he wiped his tears, the worse he felt.He sniffed, his eyes turned red, and he almost cried with sadness. He liked this girl so much, and he wanted to hold her in his heart and give her the best to make her smile. How could he bear to hurt her like this? ! When he was flustered and angry, he said such words without thinking, and he didn't feel anything. Later, he realized that he had said too much, but he only felt guilty and was upset for a while. But now seeing her crying like this, he realized that he was such a bastard!If this girl didn't owe him and made a promise, how could she commit herself to him? !He couldn't convince her with all his temptations before! He knew that people like her, if they really fell in love with a man, they would not be afraid of being torn to pieces for that man. Although she looked weak, she was proud and would never do such a mean thing. How could he doubt her? !He sighed, but knew it was too late to say anything!His previous actions must have hurt her.But fortunately, she still knew how to cry. She could cry to him, which meant that everything could still be saved. This was better than her suppressing all her emotions and smiling at him with a distant mask.He cursed himself in his heart and hugged her tighter. His painful eyes, covered by half-closed eyelids, flickered several times, and he sighed softly and slowly spoke out his thoughts."Mengmeng, don't blame me too much. It's not easy for me either. When I knew that Jiang Yancheng was targeting me, I was scared. I didn't hide my affairs from you. You should know how serious it is. I don't know how much Jiang Yancheng knows, but it is a fact that I was targeted by Jiang Yancheng.You don't know that when we were barbecued in the yard, there were people sent by Jiang Yancheng watching outside. If Kaijian hadn't been alert and found that person in time today, I'm afraid I would have died miserably!I was angry and asked you to break up with Jiang Polang, and then check whether there were any eavesdropping devices left in this villa. This behavior is not targeting you, nor does it mean that I don't trust you, nor is it just for my own safety. You know some of my good brothers, and you should know My good brothers have some trustworthy brothers under their command. If I am defeated, or if I leak some things in the group due to my personal negligence and are stolen by Jiang Yancheng, then it will not only be my life that will be lost, but also the lives of thousands of brothers.Those brothers have all been through the knife edge, and now their lives are a little better. It is not easy for them to get to this point. You know that I am working on whitewashing, and I also want these good brothers to live a stable life in the future. No matter which of them enters the bureau, I will feel bad!So, you have to understand me!Don't be afraid of ten thousand, just be afraid of one!I have to be responsible for you, but I have to be more responsible for my brothers. I can't let our brothers have any accidents. So, sometimes I have to let you suffer. Because you are wronged, you are just you. It's a personal matter. We can sit together and adjust it properly in the future, and I can compensate you properly. But if my brothers are wronged, it will involve a large number of people, some of whom may never come back, and I will never have the chance to compensate them again.Mengmeng, do you understand what I said? !Although I am the leader of the Silver Wolf Group, I am in a high position and above ten thousand people, but you must know that when I go out, I represent these ten thousand people, and my words and deeds determine the future of these ten thousand people. Now is a sensitive period, and I can't make any mistakes. I would rather doubt everything than let the danger exist.So, I have to check this villa. This is also to reassure my brothers. If I listen to you and say that I believe in Jiang Polang, then What will the brothers think? ! They will only think that I am useless as a big brother. After being intoxicated by a woman's love potion, I don't care about the lives of the people below. They will think that someone like me is not suitable to be their big brother. In that case, they will make trouble, will not obey discipline, and will accelerate the demise of the Silver Wolf Group.Mengmeng, you stand in my position and think about it for me, okay?I am responsible for the lives of too many people. There are many actions that may seem simple in your eyes, but they are actually very complicated and sometimes helpless.I was wrong to yell at you like that before. I apologize. I was in a bad mood at that time, because you probably know what kind of person Jiang Yancheng is. It's not a good feeling to be targeted by him. It's almost like being pointed at by a gun. The next moment, it's life or death, it's too hard to predict. So I lost control of my emotions, so I said something without thinking. But you have to know that it was definitely not my intention. I hurt you and made you cry, and I am more sad than you.Do you understand what I said? ! "Lin Meng's crying was weaker now. She was not a perverse, arrogant and unreasonable person. As long as others talked to her in a reasonable way, she would listen carefully. If she felt it was right, she would obey. If Xiao Yi had said this to her at the beginning, she would not be so angry, nor would she be so sad later!She reached out and slowly touched the tears in her eyes, choking and murmured."I understand..."Although she understood, the heart that was hurt and bleeding could not heal quickly.Xiao Yi felt a little relieved, reached out to help her wipe her tears, and coaxed her softly."Then don't cry, I feel bad when you cry! "She hummed softly, and wiped her tear-soaked face with her slender white hands. She had cried so hard before that she couldn't control her violent emotions all at once. Although she tried her best to stop her tears from falling, she still hiccuped, her shoulders rose and fell, and her face trembled. Seeing her wiping the tears from her face with her hands, she looked so pitiful and cute with her eyebrows lowered and eyes lowered!Xiao Yi couldn't bear it more, and his heart was so soft and sour. He felt that this woman was his calamity and he deserved to fall into her hands!The two of them acted together , slowly, her tears stopped. But her little face was flushed, all soaked by tears. Seeing this, Xiao Yi stood up and found her a towel soaked in hot water, and helped her touch her face. After wiping her face carefully, he pulled her two little hands and wiped them clean.He saw that she was a little calmer, but her nose might be blocked, and it twitched from time to time, like a little pig, which looked a little cute. His eyebrows softened, turned his head to look at the porridge on the side, and coaxed softly."Eat some more porridge, don't starve."This time she didn't refuse, but nodded gently with a red nose.Because of this tossing, the porridge in the small bowl was a little cold. Xiao Yi tested the temperature, took a bite himself, and shook his head."It's cold, I'll ask Sister Hua to heat it up again! "He took the porridge out, and after a while, he came back with a bowl of steaming porridge. Lin Meng's mood also slowly settled down.He served her the porridge, and she took it and ate it slowly, eating two small bowls in a row, and then shook her head, indicating that she couldn't eat anymore. He ate the remaining porridge in the bowl, but it was only now that he had time to eat.She looked at it and slowly lowered her eyes.After that, Sister Hua came up and brought a few hot eggs, soaked in hot water.Xiao Yi asked Lin Meng to lie down, peeled the egg shell himself, took the round and tender egg, and carefully rolled it over Lin Meng's eyelids, which was to reduce the swelling of her eyes. Otherwise, her eyes would definitely be more swollen when she woke up tomorrow morning!Lin Meng closed her eyes, feeling the warm eggs rolling over her eyelids little by little. Some words rolled in her heart, and she had an urge to speak.The room was quiet, with only the two of them left.At this time, he seemed very patient and gentle. He rolled the eggs so attentively and slowly, as if those urgent things were no longer a big deal. It seemed that others holding bombers to destroy the house could not affect him.Lin Meng held it in for a while, but couldn't hold it in any longer."Xiao Yi, I was also wrong about this!"She was wrong for not standing in his position and thinking for him.But her age and experience were there, and some things were beyond her imagination.Although she said she was wrong, she stopped there.Because she couldn't continue.She knew very well what her identity was.Xiao Yi asked her to call Jiang Polang, with a slightly tentative tone. She shook her head and refused. He did not force her. Perhaps this was what he wanted.Lin Meng felt that she was young and this was a disadvantage. So, she didn't want to think about anything. She just wanted to be a lazy bug. She didn't participate in anything and just be his caged bird, isolated from the outside world, until the day when Xiao Yi let her go and let her fly out of the cage.