Paint Swatch

Sarah

"What do you think it is?" Rebecca chirps. "A boy or a girl?"

I look at her and smile brightly. I haven't given it much thought because I know no matter what gender, I will love this baby with my whole heart.

"I don't know," I say. "I think… maybe a boy. But then sometimes I get this strong feeling it's a girl."

"Well, I can't wait until you find out. I want to start buying little onesies and socks! Oh! And hats! Don't even get me started on the hats," Rebecca rambles on.

I laugh, the sound light and airy, filled with a joy I didn't think I'd feel again. "Well, I was thinking of keeping it a surprise."

Rebecca gasps. "A surprise? Are you serious, Sarah?"

I nod, still smiling. "There's something kind of beautiful about not knowing. About meeting them for the first time and just… knowing."

She raises her eyebrows. "But how will you know what color to paint your nursery?"