It Hurts

WARNING: VIEWER DISCRETION IS ADVISED. THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS HARRASSMENT, ASSUALT, THOUGHTS OF SUICIDE, MURDER. NO, THIS STORY DOES NOT PROMOTE SUICIDE OR MURDERING PEOPLE. EVERYONE DESERVES TO LIVE A GOOD AND HAPPY LIFE. AND LIFE IS TOO PRECIOUS TO LET GO OFF. HURTING AND HARMING PEOPLE IS WRONG.

I'm not even shocked. I know what I did. I mean, it was all anger issues but I did go too far into killing..sigh..but now I feel bad that all these people are judging and looking at me so.. angrily.. And I guess, low-key I didn't expect him to just suddenly say that either. Am I happy? No. Am I sad? Also no. Do I care that they want to kill me? Not particularly but.. I am afraid. The judgement. Those people are gonna look at me and be so.. disappointed. I was supposed to be a leader and now I fucked it up by becoming the greatest criminal of all times just because I got angry. Oh, their looks..I don't wanna deal with it. I'm tired!! I already have to deal with the fact that this shithead took my place out of nowhere, virtually dethroned me and now these people want to kill me because I did what I should've. I don't think I'll last longer..my patience is low as fuck now.. I mean these guys already know I can't die and now they're pulling all this bull. Does it even make sense to throw me into a pit for no reason? I will definitely win, guaranteed. Why do they want to throw me there? Why? Why?! Why?!! Aaaaargh! Calm down. Deep breaths. Be cool or you might just explode. I can choose to not kill others but if I don't control myself, I MIGHT JUST DIE BECAUSE OF THE PRESSURE. DON'T FALL, don't fall, don't fall...

Hye-Rin takes a deep breaths and sighs heavily. A dull and unwavering glare which showed no surprise to such meaningless things was so clearly written over her face that she didn't to say anything to express her unamusement more. "Is this trolling? I'm sorry, I just don't see the point in anything. You know that I can't be killed. That's like, my whole thing. I'm not saying you're weak, I'm saying I'm already paying a price by having to suffer through a load full of shit called life and you're giving me false hope by saying that i can die. I can't. You can't kill me. And if you wanted to, you'd have let me rot in Death's Tower. But you didn't. You exposed me to the world which you want me to leave. You say you wanna throw me in the pit, then why say you want me dead? You have no one capable of killing me on any of your respective clans, paths, whatever nonsense this is. So just tell me and I'll accept it gracefully..."

"But how is it that I can die?" A glum smile shone on her face, soft gaze. A slight chuckle in a silent room. It was absolutely empty.

Shi spoke up doubtfully, "We have faith in our-" "They'll die." Hye-Rin turned at Shi, smiling gently "If you can't kill me, you think they can? Darling, don't be delusional."

This was awkward. Bold words yet no plans. Only the coldness that wrapped the room tightly. No cure for a pain which only exists in the mind and heart of a being. The being being a "cold hearted" murderer, who doesn't remember the past, all a blur in the midst of black and red lights, clinking chains..Scars which only ever show when the pain of a feeling from a memory forced and long forgotten .. The hurt continues to grow.

It hurts. I feel pain. I feel so relieved at the notion that one day I will pass away but sometimes I feel like asking when is it going to be, as if I've been suffering for so long that the only way to get rid of the pain is to be rid of myself. I can't even remember, and what I remember isn't real, rather fragments and memory which were never mine, which seem like a dream. It's not my past. I wonder if I can be trusted, to narrate even these things because everything feels so out of shape and distorted and unreal and I feel so lost that I feel like I'm about to take my last breath and drown. And no one understands. No one remembers MY PAINS. CALM DOWN, Calm Down, Calm down, calm down..

"I don't care. If nobody here can kill you, how about I do it? It's a fair trade for all the lives of the people of my path that you killed. It's only fair I kill you. In fact you should be merciful I didn't order execution on half of the people of your nation. It would be more fair, but..I'm so generous.." Ren, the Grand Knight of the Aerial Knights spoke up, a smirk over his lips. As he said just now, it's true. Very few Aerial Knights now exist since...they were useless. This is like survival of the fittest. Aerial Knights weren't doing their duties. They weren't great.

"Useless people like you and your people deserve to not exist. You're all useless. At least something productive." Hye-Rin spoke nonchalantly.

"You bitch!" Slap!

"It hurts."

Ominous aura spread across the room. The last straw was gone long ago. Hye-Rin opened her eyes, her gaze sharp and filled with rage. Everyone in the room got to their positions, ready to leap and stop her from destroying it all. But it was too late. You can't beat light when it comes to speed, same for Hye-Rin.

Swish, splash, thunder, shrieks, silence. It tooks a few seconds to process and realize what had gone down as they saw Hye-Rin, her face all cracked, her eyes splurging out blood, glowing white chains draped over her body which covered the entire room. Chains of the Eternally Divine Reinforcements, restricting the person from destabilizing the equilibrium of the world.

Ren was dead. Some people of the Aerial Knights were killed, only a male and female being of that path left. Before she could kill the two, the E.D. Reinforcements had stopped her from complete extinction of the path itself. If no one of the path exists, the whole path cannot exist and no one can join or take that path again.

Disturbing and distorted groans came from a distorted Hye-Rin, as she screamed in pain. "It hurts ~! Aaah~!" A wavering wailing from a dead heart.

Suddenly, a wave was felt across the room. The wave so strong that it could kill any common being in one go. The reinforcements started to break and Hye-rin's scars started to come up, glowing bright blue on her body. Blue blooded started to drip and harden, breaking the links of the chain. Hye-Rin became less distorted and started to walk towards Yun-suk. Waves kept coming, everyone in the room on the verge of death, until Hye-Rin looked into Yun-suk's eyes longingly and spoke gently, "Only you can kill me.. isn't that right Yun-suk? You know, right?" A fond smile appeared on both their faces.

"Ya, I know. I wanted to-"

"That means I can kill you too."

"Yes. You can."

"But we can't right now, and we can only after The Shuffle, right?"

"Yes."

"Let's go together then, in the Shuffle."

"You want to die there?"

"No, change the rules a little."

"Why?"

"More fun that way. "

"Okay, how should I change it then, darling?"

"Top 5 come back alive."

"Alright."

"And we'll go together. And we should take it to the Top 5."

"Okay."

"You're agreeing quickly."

"One more wave will kill me." Hye-Rin chuckled heartily.

"Alright."

"Then...let's go?"

"Yep." The E.D. reinforcements went away, and Hye-Rin pushed herself and Yun-suk out of the window and they fell towards the centre of the stadium, for the Shuffle.