On the eve of the wedding, I found a spreadsheet on Lucas' computer.
It was full of information about all the girls he had dated.
My message was: [Good character, suitable for marriage. ]
As for my first love, I said: [You are a bird, destined to soar proudly in the distant sky. ]
He said he would never marry her.
Because being his wife meant cooking three meals a day, raising children, and serving his parents.
He couldn't bear to see her do this.
I didn't yell or make a riot.
Instead, I returned to the TV station and applied to become a war correspondent in Africa again.
If it weren't for Lucas' face that looked like my first love, I wouldn't be with him.
And now, I'm going back to Africa to find the person I lost.
1
"You want to go back to being a war correspondent?!"
A sudden exclamation erupted in the TV station that morning.
I handed over my transfer request form.
"Yes, I want to be stationed in the Democratic Republic of Congo again."
"Ivor..." The station director was speechless for a moment.
"You were great as a war correspondent, everyone saw that three years ago, but you're about to get married now! You're still on your wedding leave!
"Going to such a dangerous place, would your husband agree?"
I fell silent for a moment.
"The wedding's off."
"What??"
Under the director's shocked gaze, I said firmly.
"Yeah, I'm not going through with the wedding."
Yesterday, Lucas went to buy wedding favors, and I sent him the category list from Fintan's computer.
I opened the spreadsheet called "Wedding Plan".
But I discovered it was his dating record.
Six girls, each with detailed information on height, appearance, and other details.
My entry was on the first page.
[Name: Vivienne.
[Family situation: No parents, simple social relationships.
[Personality: Good wife and mother type, content and obedient, no ambition.
[Notes: Can do housework, able to bear children.]
Finally, he highlighted a few words.
[Suitable for marriage.]
My heart sank instantly.After a brief pause, I continued flipping through the pages.
The other girls had similar evaluations.
[Extravagant and wasteful, not considered.]
[Lazy lifestyle habits, not considered.]
[Has a younger brother, not considered.]
But the last chart.
Except for the name and photo, it was completely blank.
Only one line of notes read:
[You are a bird, fly proudly towards distant horizons.]
Her name was Britta.