Chapter 7

Blake's POV

I woke up with a massive headache. I was outside in the woods and naked. I didn't bother looking for clothes because I shredded them when I shifted. It takes a lot for a werewolf to get drunk, so I guess I drank more than a lot. I don't even remember. I don't even remember how I ended up sleeping in the woods.

I walked to the pack house and went straight to my room. No one was awake, so I didn't attract any attention with my birthday suit. I threw myself on the bed and decided to sleep for a few more minutes. I was not feeling the day. So much happened in a short period, ruining everything. Now how will I face Rea? What about my sister? What an odd turn of events. My girlfriend turned out to be my sister's mate, and I was almost convinced that she was my mate. This is so embarrassing. Everyone will gossip about this and make fun of me. But that's not really what is important here. What of the dilemma am I stuck in?

I groaned into my bedsheets in frustration. Why would the Moon Goddess forsake me like this? Why did she put me in a situation like this with my sister? I thought of staying back today and not going to school. After a few minutes of contemplation, I decided I needed the distraction. Today, football tryouts begin today and that is a good way to distract me from all this mess.

I got up from bed and went to take a shower. The hot water made everything feel so much better. I finished washing up and quickly got ready for school. I rarely went to school, but being the Alpha's son, the school understood that I had duties to take care of. Any time I am needed to get back in the pack, the school can take a back seat.

Since this is my last year of high school, I want to enjoy it a little bit if I can. I grabbed my backpack and walked out of my room. I hurried down the hallway to avoid everyone, but when I got downstairs, everyone was there having breakfast. I couldn't avoid them after all. The Beta family was there. My parents, Mia and Rea, sat as far away from each other as possible. I could sense the tension in the air. Everyone must have found out what happened last night.

" Shit," I muttered under my breath. I mustered a fake smile before greeting everyone.

"Blake, join us for breakfast before you go," said my mother. I sighed and took a seat next to Kyle, who kept picking at his food and stealing glances at me. He had something to say, but I don't want to talk right now. Breakfast was awkward as Mia looked at Rea with longing in her eyes, but Rea ignored her. She never once looked in her direction.

Something was wrong with me. All the feelings and passion I had for Rea seemed to have vanished in an instant. It's like everything that happened between us never happened. It was not normal. Maybe it's because of my twin, Mia. I know having lingering feelings for her mate would hurt her and I just can't do that to her.

Our parents struck a conversion on their own, but we kids were all lost in our thoughts. Finally, the awkward breakfast came to an end. Once I was done eating, I stood up to leave on my own.

" Wait, Blake. What's the hurry?" my mom asked, stopping me in my tracks.

" Yes, son. You have acting strange. Last night was a big night for you, but you are not at all reflecting any excitement. You just became the Alpha of the pack. Do you know what that means?" my father asked.

He is right. I forgot all about the ceremony and being Alpha. I was not feeling the joy I should feel at all because of everything going on.

" I'm sorry everyone. I've just not been feeling my best. I need time to clear my head, and I'll be back to my normal self."

My father was about to say something else, but my mother nudged him so he couldn't.

" It's okay Blake. Go ahead and have a good day," she says sweetly said like she understood my dilemma. I smiled at her in relief for helping me catch a break and be able to escape. I went to my jeep and got inside. I took deep breaths to calm my nerves. I was suddenly suffocated. I laid my head on the stirring wheel and thoughts just kept playing in my head.

At a certain point, I envisioned the kind of future I wanted with Rea. I guess I underestimated the hand of fate. I thought I could have it all. It was like this. I would become the Alpha of the Blue Moon pack and then, regardless of whether she was my mate or not, I would choose her as my mate, and she would choose me as well. We would both be the Alpha and Luna of our pack and have pups as soon as possible.

It was all a dream. It was fake and not something that was meant to happen in the first place. I hope that Rea can think of it that way as well and move on with her mate. I shall not be the reason my sister is unhappy. As far as I am concerned, it's over between Rea and l, and soon I will have to talk with Rea so we can clear out the air between us. I don't like this awkward tension between us when we have to see each other for the rest of our lives.

As I was about to drive out, Kyle tapped on my window. I rolled out the window.

" Hey Alpha. I know you probably want to be by yourself, but can you give me a ride to school? I will pretend like I am not here, huh?" he asks, almost giving me puppy-dog eyes, ew. But I do need some company at the moment or else I feel like I could go mad by overthinking.

" Just get in and get rid of that sickening expression on your face." He laughs at me before getting into the passenger seat, and we drive off to school. Blue Ridge High school is a combined school of humans, werewolves, witches, fairies, and other supernatural kinds except for vampires. That wouldn't end well, being mortal enemies and all. Only a few selected humans know of us and the rest are clueless. The principal and the majority of the teachers are werewolves. It's hard to hide our identity, but if a human finds out, we can have a witch erase the part they shouldn't have seen.

I parked my jeep at my designated spot and got off with Kyle following. As promised, he pretended like he wasn't there, and it was getting on my nerves. I don't like anyone walking around eggshells because it just makes me more anxious.

" You don't have to be so quiet, Kyle. Just don't bring up anything unnecessary," I said as we walked down the hall. By the way, we are late, but it's not like anyone will question us. I am the new Alpha after all and Kyle is officially my Beta.

" Senior year huh? I think I am ready to get this over and done with. School is such a drag." I scoff at his attempt to strike up a conversation that has nothing to do with my problem.

" Says the person who is hardly ever at school. What's the drag about it?"

" I don't know. Isn't it how everyone feels about school?" He shrugged like he had just said the smartest thing ever. I laughed and shook my head.

" Here is my stop. " I said, gesturing to Chemistry class. I entered the classroom and it went quiet. The teacher stopped his lesson and nodded his head in respect. Others went quiet out of respect for their Alpha and the humans were scared of the rich bad boy of the school. I was about to take my seat, but my eyes landed on Rea. She got here before me. For a second, her eyes lit up the way they used to when she saw me. She soon realized that it was not the same anymore. Her face quickly changed and was now downcast.

I decide to ignore her and sit in the middle row to put some distance between us. That is what is best for us all. I know I might have taken a 180 turn from the person I was yesterday, but it is necessary. We have to let go of what was or what could have been. She has found her mate and I should too. Wherever she is or whoever she is.

The teacher continued with his lesson and I had to concentrate, but it was difficult. I could feel that Rea was staring at me, and it was making me uncomfortable. Class ended, and I bolted out of my seat to rush to the next class. Getting away from Rea was a priority because I didn't want to end up making a mistake. The rest of the classes went by in a blur. Finally, the bell rang signaling lunchtime.

I was thinking of going home for the day. As the other students were all walking in the direction of the cafeteria, I was headed in the other direction going out of school. Then I heard someone calling out for me behind me. I stopped and turned to see Robin Harper. He is one of my buddies here and a warlock. Seeing how serious he looked, he must have something important to say to me.

" What is it, Robin?" I asked, watching him catch a breath.

" I-I saw something earlier," he says breathlessly. I raised my brows at him curiously. He can see things. Some moments of the future but not much, so it ends up not making sense sometimes.

" Well, tell me what you saw then," I urged impatiently.

" I think I saw your mate," he says, dropping a bombshell on me.

" What? How is that possible? What did you see exactly?" I demanded.

Before he could explain himself, the most intoxicating scent hit my senses like a storm. A combination of lillies and vanilla.

" You can feel it now, right?" Robin asks, catching on to what was going on. I don't answer him and, as if I am in a trance, I let the smell of mats carry to her. I walked down the hall in the direction of the cafeteria. My eyes wandered around looking for their target.

I ignored everyone's stares and whispers and kept looking for her. I walked through the cafeteria until I came in front of a girl. I had yet to see her face as her head was facing down while she was eating. I stood there like a creep, unable to say a thing to her, but I was certain that she was the one. Her scent awakened Ryker, my wolf who was fighting for control, to come to the surface. I was fighting to remain in control because this was not the place to wolf out. Our mate is human too, so that would definitely be traumatic for her.

She seemed to have noticed my presence, and she raised her head to look at me. I was taken aback by her beauty. Not erotic beauty, but pure and angelic beauty. By the expression on her face, I could tell that she was attracted to me as well. The scene had already attracted a lot of attention from the others. I wanted to take her out of there, but I remembered my limits. I shouldn't have even approached her like that. I let my instincts take over.

Before any of us could say anything to each other, Rea stood beside me looking upset. Oh no. What is she doing here? She glared at my mate, adding to the confusion I created. I was about to drag her away, but she beat me to it.

" Blake, we need to talk," she says, and she grabs my arm, pulling me away. This was disrespectful to me as her Alpha, but for the sake of our past and the circumstances right now, I decided to let it slide. She dragged me to an empty class and closed the door.

" What was that?" she asks, looking deranged. It was like she was ready to pounce. I had never seen this side of her before.

"It's none of your business, Rea. I am your Alpha, so I do not owe you any explanations," I bit back firmly. Pain flashed through her eyes. I felt bad for her, but this has to be done. Whatever is left of our relationship has to be put to an end.

" What's wrong with you? Why are you doing this?" she walked closer to me. Close enough to be a breath away from each other. This proximity used to make me feel a lot, but now it just makes me uncomfortable. She raises her hand to touch my face. It felt so cold against my cheek. I felt the urge to push her away from me as if she burnt me.

" You promised that, as our mates, we would choose each other." A lone tear escaped her eye. I looked at her, not knowing what to say to her. I did make that promise, and now I am breaking it. That makes me a bad person and I think that it will be necessary to make her hate me and move on. So be it.

" Don't you know, promises are made to be broken. Just consider this as one of those broken promises that meant nothing in the end. I didn't know better then. It was in the heat of the moment, so it couldn't be taken seriously. I don't know about you, but I won't leave my mate for you. It's just not worth it."

She gasped and staggered backward, opening space between us.

" H-How could -"

" Think whatever you want about me. I have one last thing to say about this," I said, cutting her off. " This," I said, gesturing between the two bosses," It's all over. I mean it was good while it lasted, but it is time to face reality, don't you think? I mean, who are we to go against the will of the Moon Goddess? To even think that we could, was an absurdity. So please, from today onwards, let's not talk about this. Let's leave the past in the past."

Tears flowed freely out of her eyes and her knees buckled, and she fell to the ground. I was cruel with my words and to someone who once promised to choose her. I couldn't stand to see her like that. I was not that stone-hearted. I use my legs to walk past her and out of the classroom. I leaned against the door in remorse, hearing her sob in despair.

" I am sorry," I whispered to no one and walked away. I proceeded with the plan to leave school early. I couldn't stand to be around here anymore. It had to be done. We were never meant to be, to begin with. I will shoulder all the blame for this. It was my fault for harboring such hope and making her be hopeful. I hope she gets over me and accepts her mate.