Chapter 10

Kyle's POV

My life has become so chaotic. I don't know what to do. I am at my wit's end. This secret I am harboring will be the absolute end of me. How much longer can I go on like this before things go out of control? It's only a matter of time before everything comes out in the open. I know I should do something about it before anyone finds out, but I lack the courage to do so. Even for my love, I am such a coward.

I stood outside the cabin where I hid someone important to me. Ever since I found her, I placed her in that abandoned cabin to hide her. She was in a dire state and about to die, and I couldn't just abandon her because she is my mate. The problem with this whole situation is that my mate is a rogue. I found out about her gruesome past from her once she was able to speak. When she was young, she was abandoned in the woods and was taken in by a group of wild rogues as a female worker. The leader of the group was a cruel man who went around terrorizing packs to expand his group. She was trained by him so that she could take over for him. At first, she thought it didn't matter who she hurt as long as she would survive, but as she grew up, all the bloodshed and terror got to her and she wanted out. She didn't want to be responsible for the misfortune of others any longer, and she desired a normal life.

That was not easy because the leader of the group would surely not allow it. She had no choice but to try and fight her way out of that life even if she had to die for it. And that's what she did. She barely escaped but once she crossed our pack border she was in the clear for a little while. She was lucky I was the one who stumbled upon her when I was on duty.

Saving her was a risk because rogues are frowned upon in the werewolf realm. I had no choice because I had to protect her as her mate and I would make sure that nothing ever happened to her. When Blake found a picture of her in my room, I panicked thinking it was the end of the line, but thankfully, I was able to divert his attention from it. I felt so bad for having to hide the truth from my best friend, but there is nothing I can do right now. He is facing troubles of his own. I feel bad for him because of Rea. Right now, his situation is more complicated than mine. The picture she gave to me so that it could keep me company, and I gave her one of mine.

Our relationship was risky, but until I find a solution, I won't give up on us. I will introduce her to the pack, and we will be able to start our lives afresh. I will erase her dreadful past with a peaceful and wonderful future. Everything bad she went through would feel like nothing. That is what I promised myself.

It's been months since the day we met and she has been recovering. Her wounds were serious, and she had been administered a lot of wolfsbane. It was incredible that she was able to survive all that. She is really a strong woman and I admire her for that.

" Morgan, are you there?" I called out when I didn't see her on the bed. I know she hates lying in bed without doing anything, but for her full recovery, I insisted that she has bed rest. The cabin was full of complete paintings and some that were in progress. She once told me that she liked painting, but she never had the chance to try it. I took the liberty to buy the supplies for her to try out when she is bored and once to entertain herself. Surprisingly, she was good at it. I couldn't believe her skills.

I looked around the cabin, but it looked like no one was there. I smelled the air and her scent was still strong. She must have gone out not long ago. I started to panic because we were still on pack grounds. She shouldn't be wandering off on her own when it's not safe. I ran outside to look for her. Oh no! We have not marked each other yet, so her scent will not be too strong. It won't be easy to track in which direction she is headed.

I was about to run up the in the direction of the road when she appeared holding firewood. I ran up to her to take the firewood from her.

" Oh, you here. I thought you wouldn't come back today after you ran off earlier. Is everything okay now?" she asks, looking at me with concern. I was upset, so I didn't answer her and walked back into the cabin to put down the firewood.

She followed suit and kept asking what was wrong. I was scared, thinking that she was in some kind of danger. I didn't know what to say after seeing her safe and sound. I took the wood and put it in the fireplace and started the fire. I watched as the flames ignited and consumed the wood. I was thinking of how I wouldn't be able to protect her if I didn't live with her full-time. I am always on edge, worried about how she might be doing.

I felt her arms wrap around me from behind and laid her head on my back.

" Alright. I am sorry. I know I shouldn't have gone out without saying anything to you, but I was getting cold. I needed the firewood, so I figured it wouldn't be a problem to go out and fetch it myself. I am better now, and I can move around or carry stuff with ease. There is no need for you to worry that much."

I turned around with her arms still around me and looked at her. Her face was gaining color and no longer pale like before. She was indeed better, but that was not the issue.

" I understand, but you know that stepping outside, even for a second, is risky. I told you I would come back no matter what. You should have waited for me. What if-"

She placed her finger on my lips to shut me up.

" You worry too much. Even if someone finds me here, they won't be able to harm me. I am not afraid of myself but for them. I can protect myself now that I regain my health and to do that I might have to harm someone. I don't want to hurt anyone. That's why I was thinking about it a lot during the past few days."

I looked at her in confusion, but I still couldn't say anything to her because of her finger. She removed it and took my hand, leading us to go sit down on the bed.

" Thinking? What were you thinking about?" I asked, genuinely curious.

She broke off eye contact and played with her fingers. I placed my finger under her chin to make her look at me.

" Tell me now," I demanded. " The suspense is killing me already."

" Um... I was thinking that maybe it was time I left this place and went somewhere else."

" What? Where would you go and how? Your ex-master will be looking for you and what about me?" I shot out nervously.

She placed her cold hand on my face and smiled, easing some of my worries.

" It's what I have to do to keep myself safe. I don't want you to get in trouble with your pack for harboring a rogue. As for where I will go, I don't know right now. My ex-master won't be able to find me. I know how he operates, so I will make sure that I am careful and one step ahead of him. You and I will meet again, but I don't know when. I just need to sort out my past first before I can invest myself in the future.