Chapter 39

Blake

I left the house early to meet Brielle, knowing that she usually gets to school on time. I was surprised to see that she had not arrived. I asked around, thinking that she might be sitting somewhere alone, but I couldn't track her scent. She had not arrived. I was bummed, to say the least, but I was more worried. I called her, but her phone took me straight to voice mail. I couldn't help but feel uneasy. I decided to wait for some time for her, but it got late. I couldn't stand the wait. I went to my car and decided to go to her house. Hopefully, she hadn't left her place.

I arrived at her house and I found her waiting outside. I felt a sense of relief seeing her in front of me. She was safe and sound. I realized that I had become too protective of her. As I should. Our relationship is changing, and I think she will accept me as her mate and when that happens, a lot of things will change. Everyone will find out that she is my mate, and then she will become a target for anyone out to get me. She will be thrust into a new and unfamiliar world, and I am afraid it might be too much to handle for a human.

That is why I don't want to rush her into it. I want her to know what to expect and for her to be alright with it. I got out of the car and walked towards her.

" Here you are. I was worried when I didn't see you at school earlier. I thought something happened to you," I said.

She looked out of it, like something was on her mind, bothering her. I could sense it. I stood in front of her, and she didn't react to my presence. I was confused and looked around to see if something had caught her attention. There was nothing out of the ordinary.

" Hey. Are you okay?" I asked, and she seemed to snap out of the trance she was in. She noticed that I was now close to her.

She smiled and tried to change the topic, but I could see that she was thinking about something.

" Yeah. In okay. I'm just so glad to see you here. Let's go or we'll be late." She averted her gaze and went to the passenger seat of the car and got inside. She left me standing outside. She was trying to avoid me.

I sighed and followed her to the car. I didn't ask her anything even though I wanted to know what she was thinking about. I could tell that she was not going to tell me about it easily, so I shouldn't push. But then, I couldn't help overthinking myself. Was I the problem? Did I do something or did I say something that she didn't like, and she couldn't tell me? Is she having doubts about our relationship? Is she thinking about a way to reject me and our bond? The silence was driving me crazy as I tried to think of a reason that had her thinking so much, and none were better.

I stole a glance at her. She didn't even notice. I held it in and let her have her space to think things through. I was so scared that what I was thinking would come true. I truly wish that I was wrong and everything I was thinking was nothing but my fear. But if she were thinking about rejecting me... Would I be able to bear it?

I can't even think of how badly that would hurt me, but still, I can't be selfish, can I? I will just have to let her go. Just the thought brought me immense pain. I felt like my heart was being ripped apart. I can't imagine my life without her going forward. I... I love her. I don't know when it will happen, but I love her. I love everything about her. If a year ago, anyone told me that my mate would be human, and I would fall madly in love with her, I would swear they were crazy. I could never have imagined it.

I hope and pray to the moon goddess that she will not forsake me like that. We arrived at school still in silence. I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't hold back anymore. I don't think that I will be able to function with all these bad thoughts running through my head. I parked the car but locked the doors. At that moment, the school bell rang and everyone went inside.

Brielle was about to get out as well, but the door didn't open. She tried more and failed again. She turned to me and said," Blake, the door is locked." She was confused.

" I know. I locked the door." I told her.

" What? Blake, stop playing. Why would you lock the door? The bell rang. It's time to go to class."

" We are not going anywhere until we talk," I said, looking her in the eyes to show her that I was dead serious.

" Blake, we can't. We have to attend classes. Can't we do this another time? I hate skipping classes."

If I don't do this right now, I won't get the strength to do it later. I should just nip it in the bud right now.

" Brielle, are you thinking about rejecting me?"

Silence. Pin drop silence. Brielle and I just stared at each other for what felt like an eternity. The most agonizing moment in my life. I wish I could close my eyes and this would be nothing but a nightmare. But this was it. The moment of truth. Her answer could make or break me. I felt like telling her not to answer the question, but I needed to know, or I would lose my sanity. I gulped my heart, beating like a drum at every second that went by. I felt like it would burst out of my chest.

After what felt like forever, Brielle said," What?" She looked even more confused.

" I don't know. You have been acting strangely and could barely look at me. I... thought that maybe you didn't want to be with me. I thought that you were going to reject me and that is why you are so lost in your thoughts," I said.

Her silence and lack of reaction put me on edge. I feel I would bust but what she did surprised me. She burst out laughing. I was even more confused. How can she be laughing right now when I feel like dying? She kept laughing so hard that tears came out of her eyes. I became embarrassed and scratched the back of my head as Brielle laughed her head off at my expense. I am so stupid. I have done it now. I really shot myself in the foot. Judging by how she is laughing at me, it must mean what I was thinking was wrong. Still, it's a great relief that everything I was thinking was just in my head.

Even so, I need to hear it from her. I have to get a from her today no matter what. This wait is torture.