Chapter 50

Brielle's POV

I fell unconscious again. I was no longer in charge of my body. Something forced me to stay down. My consciousness was in a dark pit. I looked around but it was just pitch black.

" Hello! Is anyone there?" I called out. As if because of the sound of my voice, a bright light emitted in the darkness almost blinded me. I covered my face as I cowered. After a few seconds, the light went out again. I lowered my arms, and it wasn't so dark anymore and in front of me was that version of me that I had been seeing in my dreams. She stood right before me and could now see her clearly. It was like seeing a reflection of myself. I was awestruck and I had no words.

She was looking at me as well, without saying anything. As I didn't know what to do, I started waving my hand in front of her face like a fool. She giggled, which startled me, and I quickly withdrew my hand.

That laugh sounded familiar. It was the way I giggled. It was like having a twin. I relaxed a bit even though I was still a bit on edge. She stopped giggling and smiled at me. She was different from the person I kept seeing in my dreams. All that misery was gone. It's still weird how I still refer to us as a separate entity. I can't believe that she is me. It's so strange and unsettling. There have been so many revelations in my life in such a short time, it's overwhelming.

" Uh, um, hey?" It sounded so awkward. I don't know what to even say to myself. This is crazy. I know that talking to yourself is crazy, but this is on another level.

" Hello to you, me" she replied.

" So, why am I here? Do you need to tell me something?" I asked her, I mean me.

" No. There is nothing that I want to tell you other than to stop resisting."

I was confused as to what she was talking about, and she seemed to keep up with it.

"I meant stop resisting your memories. Open your mind and you will remember who we are. Embrace your past. It is painful and tragic, but it is...," She paused, lowering her gaze sadly.

" You can't run from it. It's the past you need to overcome to be able to move on in life."

How strange could things get? It's one thing after another. Who knew moving to this town would land me on a rollercoaster? If you told me last year that my life would change this much, I probably would have laughed in your face. I never wanted in life other than to be happy and secure in my future. I didn't even have hope for love after what my parents went through. Look at me now. It turns out this isn't my first life and Blake and I are literally soulmates that transcended time. How crazy is that?

Reincarnation was just a myth to me. Everything that has been happening around me doesn't happen to normal people. It's overwhelming, and I don't even know what to do. One thing I know is that certain things were better off left in the past. Now that I am here, it seems like this is something I can't avoid or run from. I will have to confront the tragic past. I was not ready, but it was what had to be done.

I nodded my head at myself.

"Okay. I will do as you say. I won't resist anymore." I assured her and she smiled.

" Thank you for reuniting with my River. I am so glad I found my way back to him. I thought it would be impossible, but anything is possible. Fate brought us back together again, and I am grateful."

So that was what it was, huh? The inexplicable pull I felt towards Blake. I tried to fight it off but in the end I lost, and I found myself falling in love with him. I felt connected to him and I guess that is what a soul mate is. She began walking towards me and I didn't move and just watched her advance closer. Before I could say anything to her, she pulled me in an embrace. Shocked, I froze until the bright light that shone in the beginning shined again. I didn't know what was going on but i suddenly felt like the air was knocked out of my lungs. That effect lasted for a few seconds and I fell down, gasping for air.

I was yet again surrounded by darkness, but I was alone this time. I was me. I was different. It felt like the other me merged with me, and now I am complete. I always felt that there was a void in me that was just empty and now, it feels filled. I am complete. The missing puzzle in my life is now complete.

I remembered everything that happened in the past, and like I said, I was not going to resist the past, no matter how bad or painful it is. Everything faded away, and I heard the beeping sound from the distance. My body was in pain but not too much.

Slowly, I peeled my eyes open and tried to adjust to the surround. Light shone in an unfamiliar room. My throat was patched, so I couldn't say a word.

" Look, she is awake. Oh! Thank God!" I heard the unmistakable voice of my mother as she approached me.

Soon everyone was gathered around me with the same expression on their faces. It was my mother, father and grandparents. One person is missing. My mind is a bit foggy, but I clearly remember that Blake found me at that place before everything went black. He must have been the one to bring me to the hospital, but where is he now? He was the one I wanted to see the most. We are both changed but still the same. I am still Amaya and he is River.

My heart pained as I remembered our tragic past. It was not supposed to end that way. It was all my fault. I was greedy and selfish and that ended up destroying us. I blamed myself for his death and I couldn't live without him, so I decided to end it all. I knew that what I did was bad, and the Goddess would punish me, but still, with all my heart, I hoped to be reunited with River so that I could apologize to him and fix things.

Now I see that the goddess is mercyful towards me and gave me another chance to be with the one I loved. I love him and even though he doesn't remember everything, he still remembers that he loved me. Just like before, he made the first move. He fell first, but I fell harder for him. That hasn't changed at all.

Thinking about that, I couldn't even hear that anyone was talking to me. I had zoned out. I groaned and tried to sit up. My mother immediately helped me to sit and propped the pillow behind me for support.

" Are you okay dear? Should I call the doctor?" She asked me and I shook my head.

" Where is Blake?" I asked. I wanted to see him so badly I couldn't wait. I restrained myself from getting out of bed and going to look for him myself.

"Blake? Oh, you mean that boy who brought you here? He left. He said he would come to see you later."

I felt dejected when I heard that. Out of everyone, I thought he was as eager as I am to see him. He didn't wait and just left like that? That is so unlike him. Still, I was not going to wait for him to come and see me. I was going to go to him this time.