Chapter 79

Blake's POV

She's gone. She left. It's been 2 days of pure torture, frustration, confusion and anger. I don't know what to do with myself. I felt so angry that she was treading a dangerous path all by herself. She wants to carry this burden without me. Why would she feel the need to do so? I am the one who is supposed to protect her. Does she have such little me?

When I saw that she had left, I called her, but she didn't pick up. I headed straight to her house. Her grandmother was as clueless as I was. When we both headed upstairs to check if she was in her room, she was long gone. I was too late. I found the letter she left on her table that confirmed everything. She didn't say much, but it felt like she was somehow saying her goodbyes.

The pain I felt was unbearable. I felt worthless and incapable as her mate. I left her house after reassuring her grandparents that I would find her. I went straight back home and 2 days went by since then. I tried to sense her through the mark, but I couldn't sense anything. Since she has no friends or confidants, I have no one to ask about her whereabouts. I was at a dead end. The only way to get to Brielle is to find that damn woman that elder Tim sketched. But how do I find her? I don't know her and I don't even know where on this green earth I will find her.

I just can't wait anymore. I sent my man to get out and try to get her a head start on the search. I will need some help if I want to get to her and the only person I can think of right now is her father. She mentioned that the woman in the sketch is her father's mistress. If I am right, she would go there as well. It took a while for me to come to that conclusion as I was thinking. I decided to leave first thing in the morning.

From the study, with a drink in my hand, I looked out the windows at the beautiful moon. I was wondering if the moon goddess was looking down at me. Everything is in her control, yet she lets us go through this endless suffering. When I think of it, I kind of understand. If I dared, I think she would have brought Brielle and I together because of our love. She must have wanted to give us hopeless lovers another chance, but all comes with a price. We can't escape suffering to be in love. We just have to live, love and fight through it. And that is what I am going to do. I won't sulk or feel wronged.

I am not weak. I am an Alpha and I will do everything in my power to keep everything I hold dear to me safe. Just as I was enjoying the beautiful serenity of the moon, someone knocked on the door.

" Come in," I hollered without turning my back on the view.

" A penny for your thoughts, my friend."

I recognized that voice. I turned to see my best friend.

" Kyle, is that you?"

" What? Did you forget me so soon?"

A smile on my face after such a long time. Just when I thought I was alone in my plight, he came over to me like a knight in armor. I was overcome with emotion and joy from his arrival and walked up to him. We met in the middle and engulfed each other in a hug.

A sense of relief washed over me. I didn't think about it, but I really needed a friend. I kept things to myself because there was no one whom I could trust enough to share my secrets and sorrows with. He is the only one I have been able to open up to since we were kids.

" You don't know how much I have missed you, Kyle. You were gone too long. I am glad to see you"

We pulled apart, and I took the time to assess him. He was different. I sensed it from the moment I saw him. His looks and aura. I could see a glow in him. Whatever it was, he looked good.

" It's good to see you man."

" Likewise, Alpha."

He smiled at me. The last I saw him was at Mia's funeral. It seems we always come together in times of despair rather than in happy times. There is one thing or another happening.

I went over to the table and picked up a bottle of whiskey and poured it in another glass.

" It's been a while. What brings you here today? Did you leave your mate by herself again?"

" I came to see you and the family. I have some news to share, although I feel that it might not be the time for it."

" Nonsense. You've been there for me in times of need. It's always about me. For once, I would like to know more about you. Tell me the news."

Kyle is really thoughtful. He has always been like that. For a while, I took that for granted and I didn't realize how much he suffered alone. He always lent me his ear to vent and listen to me, but I never did that a lot for him.

" Well, Morgan and I," he paused and took a sip of his drink," We are expecting."

I was confused for a second, but then it hit me. Expecting?

" What?" I hit him on the shoulder in excitement.

"Congratulations Kyle. That is the greatest news I have heard in a while!"

" I can't believe it, man. I am going to be a father!" he exclaimed and we, bro hugged again.

" This is huge Kyle. I'm so happy for you. Where is Morgan right now?"

" At the moment, she is with my mom. Ever since I told her about Morgan, she has been all over her fussing over her grandchild."

" I can just imagine." Both of us laughed.

The tension and stress I was feeling left me for a while. I was able to put my problems at the back of my mind for some time. I couldn't dampen the joy of Kyle's news with my sob story. At least for now, one of us has to be happy.

" How far along is Morgan?" I asked, taking a sip of my drink.

" She is in her fourth month. To be honest, we found out last month that she was expecting. Two months went by, and we didn't notice until I heard a faint heartbeat when I was laying my head on her stomach. I couldn't believe it. After we confirmed she was pregnant, we believed we should wait a whole while before sharing the news."

When he spoke about the pregnancy, I could see a gleam of joy and anticipation in his eyes. He was so happy. To me, he seemed ready to be a father. I couldn't help, but I felt a tinge of jealousy for a moment. I wish we could share this joy together if only things were not so fucked up.

I wonder where Brielle could be right now. I pray to the Moon Goddess that she is alright wherever she is, and she stays safe. When I get to her, I will have to punish her for always making me go to her.

For the rest of the night, Kyle and I had drinks and caught up on each other's lives. I didn't dare mention my situation with Brielle. I will tell him when it's time for me to leave.