Why I want to be here

So I was just a tool for her, something to take her next step, to have her revenge for what they did to her in the past. Whatever that was. Selene kept her grin while I was inspecting her, trying to figure out her to no success.

"And I suppose I gain something from this," I asked, I wanted to know what I stood for, what I was going to win or lose.

"Of course" Her grin morphed into a softer smile formed on her face "Once we are done, you get the common deal: a wish of your desire I will fulfill," she said with a certain rhythm, like a children's song. "Besides your motivations to help me, of course."

"Well, I still don't have a wish," I said. Any wish? It was hard to ask, to know what to wish towards a goddess.

"Then you just focus on fulfilling your motivations" She changed the way her legs were crossing, putting the other on top now "And what is it that you expect to win from this business relationship? What is your motive to help me?"

"Motive? Do I even need one at this point?"

"Don't tell me you have been just going through the motions, darling?" She looked surprised, placing her right hand over her mouth "Are you sure there is nothing you wish for right now? Something that keeps you going? Or did you truly just throw yourself to die for nothing?"

I took a moment to think about her words. I slowly processed what had happened in the past few days since I got stuck in this new world. I have barely learned a thing and I mostly just did what I was asked for. I was confused and scared, I barely knew what I was supposed to do and I mostly just did what I was asked to do just to survive.

That has been always the case. I was studying medicine before Kalamith took me by accident and threw me into this world. It was a mess, I did not pass any exam. My parents almost threw me in the gutter, after all, they took loans so I could study. And it was not a career I wanted, they just chose it and I said yes.

Then I started to drink (and I miss taking a shot at night), and then my girlfriend broke up with me.

Emotionally distant she said.

I was never there, like I was away.

I was still trying to figure out the meaning behind those words.

"I guess…"

"No, darling" Selene cut me off "No more questions, no more guessing" She looked at me with a more serious tone of voice and expression. I did not notice the moment her smile disappeared "If we are doing it, I need to know who am I dealing with" Then she stretched her hand towards me "So lay it on the table, sugar. What is it that you seek?"

I took a moment to think. But it didn't take me as long as I thought. The answer was obvious.

"My life was a mess before" I answered "My parents were disappointed in me, my girlfriend broke up with me, and I felt like a dumpster, not just trash" I shook my head, I saved my tears, I was feeling sad and nostalgic, and I noticed Selene was listening to me "But… I still had friends, people that did care about me. And that was taken from me because of Kalamith messing up" my breathing became faster. I knew what I wanted, I knew no it "My life was a mess… but it was mine to fix or destroy more, and he took it and mocked me for it… I want to make him pay"

Selene smiled, observing me for a second, inspecting my whole being. And then she got up from her seat and walked towards me, extending her hand towards me.

"We have a deal, darling" she winked.

I took her hand and shook it, sealing our deal. I feel a sudden surge of energy passes through my whole body from its core. A tingling sensation, warm and electrifying, towards my limbs and each hair of my body. It was an odd but welcomed sensation.

"I hope you do your end of the deal," I said.

"Don't worry, sugar, I will… in fact, my gift to you and what I just unlocked should be proof enough. You have full access to the complete System, not the gutted version the Kals designed for the game they are playing" She recovers her hand "Before you depart, I have a warning: time flows differently here than in the world. Things will be different. But just a bit of hope* she leans into my ear and whispers, I just let her as I was getting used to the ways she seemed to enjoy teasing others "All of them are alive. Go find them"

She takes a few steps back. A light engulfs me and starts to make me float. I felt my body becoming lighter, and then the force started to carry me and took me with no issue.

"Just a warning" continued Selene "between justice and revenge there is a very thin strand of hair. Be careful you don't jump over it. Do it for me, darling" She winked at me once more and I was transported back to the New World.

While I was being transported through a white light, a System screen appeared in front of me.

[Level reset achieved through reincarnation!]

[All stats and Levels back to Level 1 Base]

[Levels gained before reset: 3]

[Total Levels accumulated: 3]

[First Reset: +2 base stats]

[First Reset through Reincarnation: +2 base stats points]

[Bonus stats for Level accumulation: +0 base stats points]

[Goddes Blessing! Your reincarnation was blessed! Keep all skill levels and points used!]

[Spend your Base Stats Points in the status screen!]

More Base stats mean more power as I level up. Each time I level up, I gain 10% off what is on my base stat. This time, I was going into this world with a bit more power.