chapter 8 :: I can’t take it anymore

Conrad

The continuous pictures that keep appearing on Liam's Instagram page tell me she is into him.

The kissing, the cuddling, the spa date everything she thinks I can't give her.

I want to let her go, but that weekend just won't leave my head, no matter how I try. And these days, sex is just not as exciting as it used to be.

I am only hard when she is around. It's a mess, I'm a mess.

Why can't I forget about Edie when she could easily act like I don't exist?

I'm in my office when another picture of her in a swimsuit with Liam at Aman Hotel appears. That's their current location.

I try to work, but it's in my head. Maybe they are together having fun like we did.

The thought leaves a bitter taste in my mouth. I stand up, pick up my keys, and head for the elevator.

I'm in my car, calling her line, but she doesn't pick up her phone.

I walk into the hotel and go straight to the pool area, where I see Tia and Joey in the pool, Liam on his phone, and Edie taking a nap by the poolside.

"What are we celebrating?" I ask Joey, feeling flushed.

" Edie just got her first paycheck, and she is going to spend it on us" Joey tells me, smiling, as I trail over to Liam.

He is now at the bar when I walk up to him." what's With the constant photo uploads, one might think you two are dating?" I come out jealous, but I don't care.

" Yeah, because that's the idea, Conrad. Edie is trying to get me back with Heather,he tells me. I instantly feel light, grinning at myself.

Of course she is, I'm happy she is still single.

I hope and wish she still is, Edie.

Edie is awake, she dives into the pool. Maybe I should apologize. For what exactly? For leaving her out on the street. She is angry about that or the fact that I promised this was just fun ?. Maybe that would work .

Edie strolls towards Liam and me, she leans on the table.

"Can I get a glass of rum?" She asks, ignoring us, I mean me, completely.

She talks to Liam, but it's not for long as she makes her way to the ladies.

I'm waiting outside the ladies when she comes out. She sees me standing by the door but ignores me.

"Edie, can we talk?" She stops and turns to me. We are standing face to face with each other.

" I'm sorry for how I acted that Saturday. Leaving you out on the street was insensitive" I choose to apologise for that. She nods.

"Yeah, Conrad, you were so insensitive, but I guess that's who you are. I feel she's hurt by what I did.

Wow, that's a low blow, but I guess I deserve it, I say. She is about to walk away.

"Edie, wait, please. I will tell you, just please give me a minute to explain to you why I left " she paused for a few seconds, then walks back.

Come with me,she tells me.

We both walk into the elevator. She is holding her bag tightly.

"I'm listening, Conrad,her eyes are impassive.

It bothered me when you joked about me sleeping with that girl at the restaurant and you kept joking about it and when you asked if I was sleeping with Sara my Sister-in-law " I say, running my hands through my hair.

"Why didn't you just tell me it bothered you?" She has a point, but I have never been in a relationship in my life.

" I don't know how to talk about my feelings,Because I've never done this before, Edie" I say, gesturing with my hand back and forth between us.

Never done what, Conrad? She walks closer towards me.

This right here, I say again.

Apologizing? I close my eyes, the word is at the back of my throat, and I'm too embarrassed to say it.

" I've never been in a relationship, Edie. I don't know how to act" ,she stares at me from the side of her eyes.

" I didn't know this was a relationship?" she asks, and I walk closer to Edie.

"Edie, since that night I haven't been able to get you out of my mind. I find myself acting jealous. Can you believe I came here to ask Liam if you two are dating?" She is quiet, her hands pressed against her lips, blowing air into her hands.

"Edie, say something, please, anything" she doesn't. Instead, she walks out of the elevator the minute the door opens.

" Did she just turn me down?" I walk out of the elevator, and she is standing by the door. My heart is beating in a frantic tempo.

I'm not used to getting dumped or what this was.

I'm the one who usually does the toying and the heartbreak.I'm about to cry.

"Are you coming or what?" I can't help but exhale she pulls me into her room.

" it's nothing like your suite"she tells me. I grin cocking my head to one side .of course she is teasing me we walk in and Edie takes her foot flops off one feet after another she dumps her towel on the bed .

" not bad, I like it " I tell her and she pulls me to her corner. I caress her face, I have wanted to do this since that night together.

I kiss her lips passionately. My hand cups her cheeks in my hand, the other hand tracing invisible lines on her back. My breath is heavy, feathering her skin.

Edie, your scent drives me crazy, she flushes. Her eyes close tightly, like she is afraid. Her heartbeat matches mine.

I don't know what is happening, but whatever it is, am liking it.

Edie wraps her hands around my neck. I bring my lips to her mouth. I want to remember the day a kiss meant more than just having sex and jerking off on just another woman in my bed. I want to remember the day my life stood still because she didn't reply to my messages.

I want her, I want all of her. I kiss her with a closed-mouth kiss that means more than just kissing, it means everything.

I take her leg, wrap it around my waist. I take the other leg and repeat the same motion.

Edie, you are all I want,I tell her. She flushes with those hazel eyes, her lips curl.

My tongue tentatively stroke her lips she gives in to my tongue. My tongue fills her up slowly, we kiss and it starts to get intense. I restrain her with my hip.

She moans into my mouth, her breath mixed with rum and strawberry.

It's enough to make me hard. I was before, but now even much more out of control.

I trail kisses down the nape of her neck. She tilts her head to one side, giving me access. She wants me just like I want her.

My hands trace down her thigh to the hem of her dress. My hand slides into her underwear. She is wet.

Oh, Edie, you are so wet, I carry her in my arms to the bed. She is undoing my buttons in a hurry. I am too.

I kick off my shoes, and she unzips my pants. She pulls my pants down and my boxers too. Her eyes are staring at my erection lovingly.

"Can I?" she asks. I flush.

Go ahead. She takes all of me in her hands, she licks her lips a few times, then she climbs down the bed as she pushes me on the bed. I'm seated at the edge of the bed.

Edie goes on her knees and kisses my erection in her hand, sending electric shivers down my spine.

"You are so big, Conrad," her lips wrap around me. I throw my head back with a groan. Her mouth begins to work up and down my erection, she is like a child with a candy stick or an ice cream cone. I close my eyes, knowing the most beautiful girl in the world is loving my body just as much as I love hers.

She bites the tip of my erection, making me squirm. I groan.

"Edie, you are going to make me come in your mouth," I inform her with a smile. She bites me again.

I groan, maybe it wasn't a mistake after all.

She begins to suck on my erection faster and faster. My muscles tense up, my legs still. I try to pull out of her mouth, but she doesn't let me. I come, my entire body in turmoil.

"Fuck, Edie" My lips draw out her name, her lips around me until it's over. She stands up, wiping her mouth clean.

After a few seconds, I open my eyes, feeling self-aware, very naked. I don't say anything, nor do I know what to say, but nothing comes to mind.

She climbs on my lap and plants a kiss on my lips. I am afraid for the first time, it's nothing I'm used to.