I sat on the edge of the rooftop, my feet dangling over the side as I gazed at the night sky. The stars had always been a comfort, a constant in a world that seemed to change faster than I could keep up. But tonight, the familiar glitter of the stars felt different, somehow... distant.
I hadn't been able to stop thinking about everything that had happened between me and Chou. The promises we'd made, the moments we'd shared, the things we'd said and the things we hadn't said. Everything felt like it was leading up to something. But what?
"Lost in thought?"
The sound of her voice was like a warm breeze, pulling me out of my spiraling thoughts. I turned to find Chou standing behind me, her eyes soft but filled with an intensity that made my heart skip a beat.
"Just... thinking," I said, my voice barely above a whisper. I didn't know why I said it like that. Maybe I just didn't want her to know how much I was struggling with this. With us.
"About?"
Chou took a few steps toward me, her expression unreadable but kind, as always.
I hesitated. I didn't want to admit how unsure I felt, how tangled my emotions were. But with Chou, it was hard to keep up the walls. She had a way of breaking through them without even trying.
"About us," I said finally, my words hanging in the air between us.
Her gaze softened, but she didn't say anything right away. She just stepped closer, her presence calming but still powerful. She was always like that. Always able to make me feel both grounded and completely lost at the same time.
"I get it," she said quietly, sitting down next to me without hesitation. "It's a lot. But you don't have to have everything figured out right now."
I exhaled a shaky breath, feeling the tension in my shoulders release just a little. "I'm scared, Chou," I confessed, my voice barely above a whisper. "What if we screw this up? What if—"
She cut me off gently, her fingers brushing mine in a way that felt like an anchor. "You're not alone in this," she said firmly, her voice unwavering. "And neither am I."
I let out a shaky laugh, shaking my head. "It's easier said than done, you know."
"I know," she said, her voice full of understanding. "But that's why we're in this together. Whatever happens, we'll figure it out. Together."
Her words wrapped around me like a soft blanket, and I felt the weight in my chest loosen just a little. It wasn't going to be easy. Nothing ever was. But for the first time in a long time, I felt like maybe we could handle it. Together.
Chou leaned back slightly, her gaze flicking up to the stars. "The stars are beautiful tonight," she said, her voice soft, almost like she was thinking aloud.
I nodded, following her gaze. "Yeah... they are."
We sat in silence for a moment, both of us staring up at the stars, but for the first time in ages, it didn't feel like the silence was suffocating. It felt... peaceful. Like we were both just letting everything be for a while.
I shifted my gaze from the stars to her, my heart skipping a beat as I realized just how close we were. How much she meant to me. I wanted to tell her. I wanted to say it out loud, to make it real. But I didn't have the words.
"Chou..." I started, my voice catching slightly. She turned to look at me, her eyes searching mine, as if waiting for me to say something, anything.
But I couldn't find the right words. So, instead, I did something that felt both terrifying and completely right. I reached for her hand. It was the simplest thing, but in that moment, it felt like the most important thing I could do.
She didn't hesitate. She didn't pull away. Her hand slipped into mine, warm and steady, and just like that, I felt the world shift in a way that felt like home.
"Thank you," I whispered, not sure if I meant it for everything she had been to me, or for just this moment. But it felt like it was for both.
"You don't have to thank me," she replied, squeezing my hand. "I'm here, always."
And in that moment, with her hand in mine, I felt something stir deep inside me. Maybe it was the stars. Or maybe it was her, and the way she always made me feel like I wasn't alone.
But whatever it was, I knew one thing for sure: We weren't just friends anymore. We weren't just allies.
We were something more.
And I had no idea what that meant for the future. But as long as Chou was by my side, I was ready to face it.
Together.