Chapter 28

I wasn't stupid enough not to know what she meant by "excitement".

She didn't say it directly, which showed she was thinking about me.

For a moment, I thought about taking advantage of that.

But I stopped myself. "No, I don't think I should. If I always ask Soo-jung for help, she'll get tired of being kind.

I cleared my throat and thought about what I was going to say.

She waited for me to finish, and didn't say anything about what I was about to do.

"The last time you were here, you cuddled with Goldie for a while."

"Yes."

"The logic was that I wouldn't react to them if I wasn't adopted, the same way I reacted to Crystal."

"Yes."

"But male instincts, right? I didn't really feel anything at first."

"Mmm."

"I kept holding her... It was night, your skin was warm and your heart was beating so loudly...."

"Mmm, hmm."

"You know what they call 'horny'? Well, I did it."

"Ugh!"

That was the end of the confession.

But there was more to the story, which led to Geum-Bi's room.

Suffice to say that Soo-jung asked if I was horny.

I hope so, because I'm already feeling suspicious and embarrassed about the whole thing.

I kept my head down and even looked away from her.

When I had finished, she didn't say anything, she just put her hand on my thigh, which was still beating quickly.

Is it fast or normal? I don't think it's slow...

It would be impossible for a doctor of Chinese medicine or a psychologist to read your mind from your pulse.

It would have been better to take her hand.I gently put the tips of my fingers on it, but I couldn't reach it, so I lowered them.

"Earth."

"Yes, sister."

"Did anything else happen to Goldie after that?"

"...!"

Soo-jung was usually kind, but when she was determined, she was more determined than anyone else.

She used to scold Geumbi or Hwayeon, and now she was pushing me with that voice.

"There you are."

"No, sister, it was... what?"

"Yes, you did, and I didn't know anything about it, and you let her sleep next to you."

"Oh, sis, my thighs, they hurt... Ouch."

I wonder if she's angry.

Soo-jung squeezed my thigh with his hand, and I made a face at the pressure point that was irritating the sore muscle.

But no matter how much my face curves, it's only for her.

I looked at her face... it had no emotion and looked dull, which made me feel even angrier inside.

Maybe I should scold her, like Geumbi's sister... Gulp.The pain and pressure are driving me crazy."

I'd be laughed at if I asked her to do anything, right?

But it's better than having my legs cut off like that... Just as I was thinking that... her grip loosened and her body came towards me.

"Huh? What's that?"

"Earth."

"Mmm... yes."

"So, how was last night?"

"Huh? What, what?"

"Well, you slept with Goldie snuggled up next to you last night... were you as horny?"

"No, of course not! Listen, sister. What I said before was only by accident, because we were cuddling. I don't normally think about it - ew!"

As I tried to stop myself from asking more questions, Suzy, who was leaning close to me, attacked.

I lost my balance and fell backwards onto the bed, looking up at her.

"Sue, Soo-jung... what are you doing?"

"It's a test. Didn't you do it with Geumbi?"

"No, we were just cuddling on the sofa, facing each other - what?!"

"When you lie down like that, it's the same as cuddling, isn't it?"

"Uhhh, the college area is similar... but that's...

Soo-jung rolled on top of me, his stomach and chest pressed against my arm.

I could feel his cheeks, shoulders, collarbones and breasts against my upper body.

Underneath, his belly, pelvis and intertwined legs made me stand on tiptoe.

"Stay calm. I'm sure she's doing this to make sure, so don't panic."

If I lose my head here, it'll be the end of the world.

I curled my toes, fingertips and lips, trying to calm my racing heart.

But despite all this, I can't control what's happening inside my body.

"Terra, your heart is beating really fast."

"Oh, Qi, it's just your mood."

"No, it's not. I can hear him so well that I can count his pulse."

"Yes, it's beating, so please don't count it, please."

Soo-Jung put his ear to my left breast and listened.

I hesitated, then raised my hands in surrender.

"I lost, I lost, I admit it. Sometimes I get excited, even against Geum-Bi, and sometimes against Crystal.That's enough, please come down."

"Sometimes? Really sometimes?"

"More often lately."

"Lately? So you're saying that you often get aroused before we even sleep together?"

"No, ahh... Come down and tell me, how long will you be awake?!"

It seemed impossible to get off in front of Suzu's sister.

I felt like I was being stripped from the inside out as she pushed in, and I struggled and shook her.

"Ugh... I don't know what you're thinking, but I'm not the kind of guy who starts fantasising about you."

"Really? What were you thinking?"

"We're a family, right? We've lived in the same house for over 20 years, we've been close since we were kids, we've been a bit weird as adults... but you know that, right?"

"I used to think I did, but lately I'm not sure anymore."

"Sister?!"

"Hmph, ok, ok, I was joking about that last one, hehe."

I was very nervous and almost fell over as I explained my situation to Soo-Jung.

Luckily, it worked a bit, and she laughed and showed a little understanding at the end.

If the last part is a joke, that means everything before it is serious... Ew.

Still, she could lose a lot by saying this.

Now that he'd admitted that he'd been getting a bit carried away with his two older sisters lately, all that remained was to wait for Suzy's mood.

"Whoa."

"Earth."

"Mmm, sis."

"Do you want to look this way?"

"Uhhh... Sis."

With a long sigh, I looked away, my eyes shaking.

She smiled for a moment, but then her face, which never showed any emotion, was turned towards me again.

"I don't know much about the male body, but I understand it a bit. I know what kind of girl you are, Terra, and we've been together for years."

"Sis..."

"I'm sure you didn't do it on purpose, and I'm sure it's been hard for you."

"Mmm... you're right."

"But as your sister, I can't just let it happen."

"Yes... I know. I understand how you feel."

Even though they didn't see themselves as the opposite sex, it was normal for boys and girls to sleep in different rooms when they reached puberty.

This wasn't because they didn't trust each other, but because they respected each other.

I suppose it's the same with this," I said, "I don't criticise it, but I can't let it go."

I waited for Soo-Jung's decision, slumping my shoulders.

Maybe I wouldn't share a bed with my sisters anymore, or at least I'd sleep in the living room a bit more.

I had a good idea of my future:

But Soo-Jung was more anxious than I thought she would be.

"I've been thinking about sleeping away from you, like before."

"Yes."

"But... I can't do that now.I was talking to Goldie yesterday, and I realised that I can't give up on this."

"Oh? You realised?"

"I'm sorry. It's hard enough for you, and I'm being selfish."

"No, I told you I'm fine, and I'm fine with it."

"But not in a physical sense."

"That's because... again, I'm not in control."

Crystal blushed and looked at my bum, and I hid my own blush.

"I'm asking you to calm down, even just for one night, now that you're sleeping with Geumbi."

"It's none of your business; she just reacts the way she does."

"I know. I've heard that men can be quite well-behaved in the morning."

"Well, would you mind not being too graphic about it, because I'm a bit embarrassed."

I covered my eyes; I was more embarrassed than anything else, and ashamed too.

I thought it would be better not to look, but that only made her voice more audible.

So the next words that sounded were not misheard.

"If you can't change this situation... Earth, if you're in trouble, I'll help you."

"Huh? What?"

"I can't afford it, but I'm fine, Terra, so if you need me... I'll help you."

"What? ...?!"

I pulled my hand away from my vision and opened my eyes wide.

In front of me was Crystal, sitting on the bed with her legs crossed and her hands clasped in front of her, her lips puckered in a bright red blush.

"I don't know much about it, but I'm sure this will help. I can't move around much, but I'm sure this will help. I've been quite popular with the boys, haven't I?"

"Eh, no, sister, do you know what you're talking about? ... no, crazy...!"

Although Suzy spat out the words, she stared at me proudly and shouted all sorts of things.

Her eyes were glazed over and the colour drained from the back of her neck to her earlobes, which was clearly not normal.

What's wrong with you, Geumbi, and now Soo-jung? Do you look like that, like sisters?

To be fair, there were differences in the details.

Geumbi said that she would "take care of it" when she was in trouble, and Soo-jung said that she could "take care of it herself" and sleep. But either way, it was a shocking comment.

They're both adopted, I know that much.

I wanted to call her straight away to find out the truth.

But my mum was busy at work, and the hospital would be busy too, so I couldn't bother her in the morning.

"Move, Terra... Is it possible that I'm not enough?"

"Hmph?!"

As I stammered in embarrassment, Soo-jung approached once more, clearly nervous.

I tried to stop her, because I didn't want to be stuck with her.

"Aaah, well, wait... Let me wash up, and then we'll talk about it!"

She ran to the bathroom, waving her arms around.

On the way out, I bumped into Geum-Bi, but she blushed and moved away, probably because of yesterday's kiss.

I switched on the shower and stood under the cold water.

My skin, which had felt warm to the touch, was still hot.

"Me? Can I do this? Can I do this? You crazy sister, you know what that means...!

I squirted shampoo on my hands and scratched my head.

I squeezed out the shampoo, half of it dripping onto the bathroom floor.

Pop, pop, pop. I watched the white stuff run down my groin.

I tried not to think about it, but I could see the image of Soo-jung's body, who had been in the room with me earlier.

She was wearing just a sleeveless white T-shirt and no bra.

'Head down, up, this way, ugh'.

I really wasn't going to do that.

My right hand went to my bum and squeezed.

All the sweat from the gym was worth it.

I bit my lip, and a mouthful of snot went everywhere, covering the shampoo on the tiles.