Chapter Four

Beichen's pov

Waking up, I feel a dull ache in my head, the events from last night flashing through my mind on replay. Part of me not sure whether or not Roujin actually asked for a divorce. She wouldn't leave me right? She can't leave me, she is the closest thing to the one person i can't get out of my head and I can't lose her like I lost Xixi. Xixi was the girl who had saved me when my father tried to kill me, instead of me getting hurt she saved me. She was like an angel in disguise and the fact that i know that Roujin is just her substitute is what sends me into a fit of rage every time she doesn't do what i know Xixi would do. The three months i had spent with her after the incident we had got close and i promised to return for her but after taking over the family I couldn't find her. Then i met Roujin, for a moment i thought it was Xixi but i quickly learned that she wasn't her. I had looked into whether she was a twin but no matter how hard I try I can't get any information about any other sister existing, over the past two years i have tried to shape Roujin into the spitfire that was Xixi and since she came back out of hospital it is like she has gone from the girl who was working against me to the only girl that ever protected me. My Xixi.

I get out of bed making my way to the kitchen where Roujin is sitting eating her breakfast, her head lifting when she sees me. The smile on her face seeming somewhat forced and causing me to panic,.

"There is some hangover soup for you. Next time you go out try not to drink so much that you pass out as soon as you get home"

 I look at her and then to Aunt Lu giving me a disapproving look. What the hell did i do last night?

"I passed out?"

"Yes, and then you were having some dream promising me that you would divorce me"

I instantly rush to her, the fear of losing the closest thing to Xixi that I can get gripping me like a vice. I take her hands into mine and kiss them tenderly. Do I love her, honestly I have some love for her but something inside me is telling me that she knows Xixi and the past few days it is feeling like she is Xixi. I can't let her go without knowing the truth. I can't lose her no matter what the cost. 

"I had a dream that you weren't Roujin? It was like you were Xixi"

"Xixi?" The look on her face is of pure confusion, Roujin knows the story of Xixi, I had told her plenty of times. Especially in my fit of rage. Was that video last night real? Is Roujin actually in a hospital bed? If so then who is this in front of me?.

"Remember the girl who saved me before I met you"

She simply nods and pushes my hand away, a cold expression falling over her beautiful features. 

"Hurry up and find her then so that you can let me go. I am going to be busy all day so don't wait up"

"Where are you going?"

She stands up and takes her phone off the table, i notice that her attire is different to anything i have ever seen her in. Before she wore colours now she is wearing black just like she did last night. Honestly the outfits she wore since she came out of hospital and burned all the ones in the wardrobe suit her a lot better. It is like she is as dark and as twisted as I am. Even as I watch her walk to the door I can't help but feel like she is more perfect for me now that she has done in a long time. Like she is the missing puzzle piece I have been waiting for. 

There is definitely something different about her and for the first time since i have known her I am finding myself wanting to know more about Roujin.

I quickly rush to the door, catching Sejin by surprise as he is about to open it and come in. He chases after me as i head to my car and quickly get in the back, Sejin quickly arriving and getting into the drivers side. 

"Is everything okay?"

I simply nod, not wanting to let to much known. Over the past two years Sejin had become somewhat obsessed with Roujin and it filled me with a possessive nature. Not because it was Roujin but because in my mind he was trying to take Xixi away from me. I look down to my wedding ring finger where the initials XI are, to anyone else they look like roman numeral numbers for eleven but I know the true meaning behind them. 

It is crazy how one woman could have made my stone cold heart thaw but the moment I saw those emerald green eyes it was like for the first time in my life everything made sense. Like it had all finally clicked into place. When she took me to the secret location to heal I honestly didn't want to leave, I could of quite happily lived out the rest of my life with her there, the money and power meaning nothing to me. My mother always said that it would take a special kind of woman to steal my heart, she just thought it was Roujin. I know it is fucked up that I am basically living out a fantasy life with Roujin because i can't get the one I actually want, and believe me I tried to get her, but Roujin is no angel. I know her family have an ulterior motive in making sure we got married and for her parents divorce is not an option. They have also been going on lately about children, the one thing I pretend I want with her but the truth is until I find out if she is related to Xi i will say and do what ever it takes to keep her close to my chest. 

Last night though when Roujin gripped my throat, it felt somewhat familiar, her touch didn't burn my skin like it had done many times before. It is hard to explain without sounding like a raving lunatic and to many around me, that is just what I am. But have you ever felt like those around you are plotting against you? and i don't mean just out of paranoia I mean you can genuinely feel it in the pit of your stomach. There is something big going on and I know that Luna, Sejin and Roujin are the biggest players in my demise. 

I just wish for once I felt like I had one person on my side. 

As we near Fu group I spot a blacked out buggatti with a private number plate, one that isn't common around here. I get out of the car giving the Buggatti one last look before heading into the building, the receptionist instantly walking to me and handing me a note. I open it as I walk towards the elevators the instructions simple. 

 Beichen, I am waiting in your office. Get rid of your assistant and come here alone. I have somethings I need to discuss with you.

When I see the stamp at the bottom of a golden phoenix I feel a pang in my heart, one that I haven't felt for a long time. Could it be her? Has my Xixi finally found me?.

I quickly get into the elevator as Sejin is about to enter, I stop him causing him to frown. 

"I need you to go and get the financial reports from Mai. There is an issue that I need to address" 

"It might take a while"

"It is okay take as long as you need just make sure you get me the reports."

 Sejin nods instantly rushing off to the finance department that is on the first floor. As the doors to the elevators close I try not to get my hopes built up, nearly six years of not seeing her and i am ready to cave. If it is her i will do anything she asks? damn i will even give up the business and live a life of poverty as long as i got her.There is nothing I wouldn't do for her and ensuring that I have her for the rest of my life. 

The elevator stops on my floor and as soon as the doors open I am marching out of there and towards my office like a man possessed. The workers all looking slightly perplexed but too scared to say anything. I open the dark oak doors to my office, bracing myself and when I see the man that was with Roujin last night at the club my heart completely shatters into tiny fragments. It is like I am losing her all over again, like she is always there but just out of reach. He turns to face me and I notice that he has a darkness in his eyes like none other that I have seen before, like he is ready to battle and if death was his outcome he would welcome it with open arms. 

I close the door giving myself an extra moment to gather my thoughts and to conceal the disappointment that arouse realising she wasn't here.

"I know you was expecting it to be Xixi but she can't know I am here"

At the mention of her name I turn and face him, his eyes showing a hint of sympathy. I walk to my desk and take a seat behind it and look to him. 

"You are from Golden Phoenix?"

"Yes although the last time we met I wasn't covered in tattoos and was less muscular"

"Ayan" it comes out a whisper as I look at the six foot guy who was once the resemblance of a bean pole. He had only been at the temple a year before I had been saved by Xixi, she had told me that he was being held prisoner by his stepmother so that she could get the inheritance and had left him malnourished and in a bad way. Looking at him now you wouldn't think that they were the same person but the devilish smirk on his face along with his honey brown eyes still show the twenty one year old fragile boy that had once been someone who he could talk to about Xixi. 

"Listen I can't stay long because if Xixi finds out I was here she would kill me. I have no other option and don't trust anyone else with what I am about to say"

"How is she? I have tried looking for her but can't find her"

"She is living in your house" He grins widely and I look at him with confusion, what does he mean that she is living in my house? Was Roujin actually my Xixi? Had I hurt the one woman I swore blind I would never lay a hand on?.

"I can see where your head is going and no she isn't Roujin. Well not before the last incident that put Roujin in hospital" He shows me his phone and there on the screen are the same images that were in my dreams. Roujin led in a hospital bed not moving and looking like she is sleeping. 

"Who is at my house?"

"Xixi. She is Roujin's twin sister. Her parents called her telling them about what happened and she is here for revenge. Beichen what I am about to tell you isn't going to be easy so you need to listen and not lose your cool." I nod and hand him his phone back preparing myself for what he is about to tell me.

"After you left the temple, Xixi had received a message saying that you were in trouble which caused her to instantly leave and none of us knowing where she was for two weeks. When we finally found her she was in a bad way and you were the devil that was due to marry her sister. For the past five years she has been making a name for herself but also keeping an eye on her sister but the more us boys looked into it the more things didn't add up. Like how she ended up at the temple in the first place? if you ask her it was her idea but there are bits of her memory that seem forced like they were planted there. I don't know who is behind it and i know it sounds crazy as hell but you are my last hope in helping her regain what ever memories she has blocked. Xixi is like a sister to me and I know that you are the only one who will truly help her."

"I knew there was something different about her ever since she came back from the hospital. Roujin was always like a mouse and then she suddenly changed."

"Yeah you may not want to try any of that crap you pulled with Roujin on Xixi she will kill you and not bat an eye. I think that is what her parents are banking on"

"I think they are up to something too. I also think Sejin and Luna are in on it too along with Roujin."

Ayan thinks for a moment before standing up. He hands me a card with his contact details on which i instantly put into my suit pocket. 

"Keep in touch and remember don't let on that you know she isn't Roujin. That girl can choke a man out in seconds."

I smirk remembering last night, she definitely would have no issues in doing that. I give Ayan a nod of agreement before he leaves the office. I instantly lean back in my chair a smile on my face, Xixi i am not letting you go ever again. 

My angel has finally returned home to me where she belongs.