He had relied too much on others—he realized that now.
He needed to learn to stand on his own.
He couldn't afford to be picky about work anymore.
No matter how hard it was, he should've been willing to try.
If he had just shown some enthusiasm about finding a job, Ignatius would've supported him.
But being by Ignatius's side was unbearable now.
There was no way to go back to how things had been before.
After offering himself so clumsily and being rejected, only to realize he was in love, he felt like an utter fool.
Staying by Ignatius's side out of habit or convenience would only make him feel more pathetic.
He had to let go.
Ignatius was someone far out of his reach.
He was aiming too high and dreaming too big.
He didn't have any charm, any qualities that would make him worthy for him.
Thinking about it only made the pain worse.
He told himself to let it go.