111. Decision, 6

(Rose)

The answer to all my questions can be summed up in one word. One name.

Daiûa. The playful demons. The mischievous djinns.

I found that flower-like pattern elsewhere. I wasn't the only one looking into it...

It turns out... A daiûa, or some magic from a daiûa proved to be real at one point. Well, something happened. Something hard to explain, that gave birth to a new faith. A faith in the powers of daiûas.

That's just crazy, isn't it?

Anyway, some people began to look for it with some passion afterward. Then the notes get really weird, though the events depicted do remind me of something I had to live through quite recently.

Curse. Death. Monsters appearing out of nowhere. Dead flesh becoming monsters.

A nightmare... Only it happened probably in Russia, and I'm not sure how long ago.

Things always seem nice at first with daiûas; appealing, interesting and even insightful. But they surely evolve into nightmarish situations we cannot grasp anymore. Because we're unable to handle these things. Because they enjoy to handle us instead.

And there, it begins to make sense.

Daiûas are real.

You and my previous me understood what was the best course of action to take with these unnatural things. We stepped away from them, and they vanished from our life... As if we'd never encountered any, we lived in peace.

Others were not as cautious and it turned badly for them.

And the current me is here because a daiûa thought it would be fun to do so.

Well... Probably. Maybe.

Given what I experienced back then and just read, I think the acts of a daiûa are both the easiest and most logical explanation so far.

It does mean I was brought back through witchcraft in a way though...

No matter how stupid this sounds, it still is the best explanation I have today.

A daiûa was playing with us.

Hopefully, it probably is not the one you encountered...

Maybe there is in our days and age something more efficient than prayers that we can do against these beings?

I will need to think about it.

Now that you're gone... I am free.

But it's not a freedom I have chosen, and it feels only sad to me.

I miss you. I will always miss you no matter what.

No matter how your life ended up. And no matter what I truly am...

But I feel a bit better now that I've learnt what happened to us. I'm feeling soothed, and a little more brave now. After all, we did it!

We broke your curse.

So now... I'm going to face mine.

Knowledge is power. And I've learned a lot now.

I'm going to return to the territory where I appeared.

I'm going to face my daiûa. The being or strength that brought me here... If it's just a beast, I will have my revenge on it. If it's talkative, we will have an interesting discussion.

I told Ann.

I will go back where it started, and meet the being responsible for all that.

Goodbye my love...

You were already gone for so long... I wish I inherited the memories of the life my past self lived by your side.

Because I will always feel sad like I lost you.

Even though you were happy. I surely was too. I...

I loved you. Our blue rose was the happiness in my life.

I will probably never come back home now, no matter what I chose to do with my new life.

So this is goodbye. Goodbye you, whom I loved.

And goodbye Rose, whom I once was...

Goodbye. I will always miss you, and my blue rose, from the past I'm not really from...

I no longer can live for it... But because I haven't failed, I don't really want to die either. I'm just sad I won't see you anymore; not despaired because I would have lost you too soon.

It's an unexpected situation, and I think I'm taking it pretty well.

Ann is ready. I'm taking my backpack. No, I want to learn what happened to me, the current me.

It took time for me to realise that my past life was over.

I would like to know more about the meaning of my current one therefore.

I'm going to meet something I can't fully comprehend.

What will I do next? I don't know. I'll think about it once I know more about what happened to me, and Ann, and the others that died.

Goodbye, blue rose from the previous world.

I will begin to live in the new one.

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