362. T.I, 1

(Rose)

The four of us, with Ana instead of the golden girl, we spent a few days reading that document.

Because we all understood how important it was. It was like finding Newton's notes and equations regarding weight and gravity, if gravity had been forgotten or only recently appeared.

Even if we could not understand more than a few percents of it all, this document was still explaining scientifically how the current world works. How magic and daiûas worked, down to a quantic scale.

It was very far from our daily lives, as it mostly on atoms and subatomic particles.

But a scientist somewhere understood everything, and Mushio was able to make the links to our level or reality. To see how these equations translated and explained everything odd in the world.

I was able to understand some of the descriptions and definitions related to this T.I. energy.

First, it had a name now.

It was mainly detected as a spectrum of wavelengths that can pass through most materials.

And then it was described as a power that can change fundamental characteristics, like the weight of objects.

There it quickly dove into quantum physics way beyond what I could grasp.

Bleue noticed that this thesis had been written recently.

Which meant there was a place on Earth where human research had been able to continue to that point.

It was an incredible surprise, but not the last of them.

Mushio told us he was able to see the effects of T.I, just like Bleue and me previously. The primordial life forms shaped in ribbons, they structure themselves in the primordial ocean that is the ambient T.I. spread in the air and around the world.

They're bodies we see when they reach a high enough concentration of T.I inside of themselves.

Some pieces of old puzzles begin to align themselves with the theories of T.I we are discovering now.

It was still far from all making sense to me. If T.I was just a kind of atom I might have gotten the idea, but it's more complex and smaller than one can see. Intuition isn't enough to explain it.

Mushio tried to teach us a theory about a big explosion in the beginning of time, thinking it would help us understand other aspects of physics. I really didn't get that either.

If there had been such a galactic explosion at the beginning of time, the planets would have been destroyed, not created, I think? I don't understand how this worked and how it related to T.I being this magical power we see today around like no yesterday..

As for what T.I stand for, it didn't make things any more clear.

R - Temps Imaginaire... The complex dimension of time if I read that right. Imaginary Time.

B - Time of Imagination? The complex component of time itself?

R - Well... I don't understand how Energy can be equal to weight, to mass or to speed. So I don't get it for time either. Energy is just power. Electricity doesn't have any mass or speed. T.I neither.

I don't understand enough.

Everything is just natural magic to me. It's beginning to feel very frustrating.

So Mushio began teaching me what imaginary numbers where.

He didn't give up.

After a few days, I did however.

Maybe because of the intellectual complexity of the things we learn becoming stressful, and my curiosity dried.

There was a growingly unpleasant feeling of frustration I couldn't bear anymore.

As if someone was disrespectful to my faith.

Bleue was fine either way surprisingly. She wasn't any more curious or motivated than I was, maybe feeling the same pain hard to define.

B - You don't want to learn more?

R - I will be arrogant with that, but I think I already know enough of how the world works... It's more on a natural and intuitive level the physicist knowledge, but it's enough...

It's enough for me today. It's not a pleasant feeling, because I saw these doors open to me, and I don't feel anymore like going through.

This level of knowledge is a foreign language to me. It's beyond me. I'm giving up.

Mushio doesn't get angry with us even though we gave up on his lessons like mediocre students.

He will keep working on his plans in this place regardless. He probably was disappointed but didn't mention anything.

As for us, that was enough to wreck our minds for now, we will return slowly to our own ambitions.

We will meet again though, soon enough.

We're all new friends and happy to know each other. We just spent enough time together frying our brains for now.

When either them or us discover or create something new, we will meet again. That's the promise we make.

Mushio gave us a new radio to communicate. Like Licht gave to Bleue before.

He will keep studying the world until he can put letters in equations over it. That's how he enjoys it.

Me, it's more as I walk. Him under a microscope. Bleue as she dreams. Ana as she flies. The golden girl, probably as she learns as well.

And some beings-like-her, as they kill and destroy. Hopefully none of this kind are around the area though.

We say goodbye and part way. Bleue, Ana and I are on our way back to the coastal city.

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We didn't quite understand where Mushio found that document. He didn't write it, but found it, and studied it.

Like any other treasure, even though it is only about knowledge, it's not the kind of things you just randomly stumble upon. It was on a computer. It comes from parts of the old world unknown to us.

To quite a large extent, he and us live in two very different worlds.

We knew different things, different culture, different language, different history and even encounters.

The world they came from was very different from ours.

To come from this far and live this long, they must have fought different demons as well. They survived the end of times. Whereas we came long after it was done.

How they see the world is not like us. I can't help feeling a little sad about how different we are, but I have to respect it.

I was too...

Something not nice.

Trying to learn the physics of this world that Mushio was eager to share his knowledge of.

The open doors to this key knowledge fascinated me at first but terrified me as well I realised later.

Because somewhere, knowing the truth might kill all the magic and surprise I fear.

The truth is I don't really want to know...

I live in a world now inhabited by demons of all sorts and kind. I enjoy this world full of surprises and things I cannot predict or fully comprehend.

Like magicians spoiling the fun by explaining the tricks, I fear Mushio could ruin that happiness for me.

Knowing everything in advance, it would spoil everything for me.

So I'm glad there's now a name for that energy, and a science behind it, but I awkwardly prefer to remain ignorant.

That still stings a part of me. But I chose to keep thinking of T.I as magic.

Because that's what the world has become to me. And that's how I feel I can live with most joy in it.

Bleue didn't say anything about it. I think she's a little conflicted as well.

I can understand Mushio finding his joy in understanding the laws and rules, the tricks behind the wonders. He is a man of science.

I never was. I never will be. I don't want to understand.

I want to dream, and I want to fight.

There is chaos in life as my unexpected friend said, and we both like it.

That was so true, I could not have said it better myself.

I relate more to her the demon than to him the human.

This friendly man is nearly my polar opposite. There is order in nature, and he enjoys revealing it.

We will never be able to work together for the same goal. Our religions are just incompatible with each other.

But thank goodness we are friendly and curious.

So even though I won't make a sorcerer meeting demons out of him; and he won't make a natural philosopher out of me, we will be friends for a long time.

He enjoyed meeting us and never gave a wrong look at all the weird things surrounding us. He was really open minded. We also enjoyed meeting them and all the logical knowledge they live upon.

Neither of us will dig much deeper, but that's surely fine for now/

We're free to choose our way.

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