Ch-10 Confession

When everything is going too well, just take it as the sign something big is going to happen.

One month has passed on the blink of an eye. A lot of things happened during those days. First fight in the very first week itself, I'm the one to be blamed though as I started the fight for a stupid reason. We almost stopped talking during the day as his college started at my school, so we only got time at night. Call was almost a common thing as he used to do that once he was done with work, or he was alone in his office.

One month felt like a year, one common question we both asked everyday to each other was 'When are we going to meet? ' The question we both had no answer to so we just replied with 'Soon' but we both knew the reality, it was going to take years but were we willing to go so far? Can we even survive so far?

 I got to know his love language was touch too. And he roasts people whom he considers close. I got to know a lot of things about him, he is into bikes as he is a biker himself, he named his cat after the character from the 'FRIENDS'. He smokes once in a while when he is stressed. Although I made him promise to quit smoking.

My feelings for him came clearer and clearer it wasn't just a mere attraction it was something more. Maybe because I am in a relationship with him so my brain felt like it won't be fair to not love him back. I thought that too, but then I went back to reading old chats, I used to get jealous when he used to flirt with other girls. I did not listen to Aman and sent him my email ID just to listen to him sing. Furthermore, I stayed late at night just to make sure Zayd wasn't out there crying thinking about things or overthinking.

Not only that, but I realized I never loved Aman but Zayd. I thought I loved him, but it was just a fear, I only realized all of this in just this one month after entering this relationship. The way Zayd treated me made me realize what really I was missing, what really love is. Love is a pure feeling, which is done without any ill motives or intentions. He never made me feel ashamed for even once on who I really am. He accepted me as a whole.

What more can you ask for, a guy who really cares about you. I just found him, but he is far away from me.

What's more romantic than confessing your feelings to your boyfriend on the 1st month of your relationship. We are not the type to celebrate these things, but I still want to make it special with my confession to him.

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Zayd's POV:

I feel guilty that once I got her, my life started to take a turn. Classes started and the part time job, I couldn't even make time for her in days, where I know she keeps waiting for my texts. I still try to call her when I get some time but that just ain't enough. I want more of her, spending more time with her but right now it ain't just possible. But still Misti is understanding although I know she is the type who needs a lot of attention but she doesn't ask much. She waits for me patiently which hurts as I keep her waiting all day only to talk with her just for two hours at night.

Today is our one month anniversary, well we both are not into those month anniversary things but she said she has something important to tell me. She sounded serious so I don't know why I am kind of nervous.

 What if she doesn't want to stay in this relationship? What if she found someone better?

Misti : "Can I call right now?"

Zayd : "Yeah"

Misti is calling...

"Hello", she spoke as soon as I picked up, her voice so sweet sounding like a lullaby in my ears.

"Hey..sup"

"Nothing much", I could feel nervousness in her voice, as if she was preparing herself mentally for something.

There was an awkward pause between us before she spoke again.

"So...we made it through the first one month"

"Yeah we did-"

"Okay so I need to confess something", she said in one go.