I am scared

I always tried to steal glances at you

I always wished that,

Maybe, just this one you will look at me too,

Maybe, just this once you will smile at me

with warmth

But, now I'm scared,

Scared to look at you,

Because I know,

I know, you will ignore me once again,

"It's alright, I am used to it",

I said to myself, only to burst into tears the next moment,

So, what if I'm used to it,

Just because I'm used to being ignored,

Doesn't mean I'm used to the pain,

That follows

Do you think, I don't feel hurt,

Just because I'm always smiling,

Or,

Do you don't care,

At all?

Now, I'm scared of you,

I'm Scared of your silhouette,

I'm Scared of your smile,

Which is not sincere,

I'm Scared of your eyes,

Scared, that your gaze will be filled with hate,

Rather than warmth

Scared, that I would be the exception,

To your never-ending kindness,

I'm scared,

But you don't seem to care

At all...