The silence around her felt deafening. The moment she stepped inside, she let out a shaky breath and collapsed onto the bed, burying her face in the pillow as the sobs wracked her body.
Shen Jiu rushed back to her hostel, barely able to see through the flood of tears clouding her vision. The moment she reached her single room, she threw the door open and collapsed onto the bed, her body trembling with sobs.The silence of the room only amplified the ache in her heart, the unbearable weight pressing down on her chest. She buried her face in the pillow, her hands gripping the sheets as if they could somehow hold her together. But nothing could—she was breaking apart, piece by piece.As she cried, memories of the past came crashing over her like a relentless tide. The beginning of her story with Tianyi had been nothing short of a whirlwind—unexpected, almost surreal. He had written her love letters every single day, always in anonymous form, pouring his heart out in words she hadn't known how to respond to.She had never once suspected it was him. And then, on her birthday, after receiving the 27th letter, she had finally decided to acknowledge the unknown admirer. She left a response on her desk, a simple reply without much thought—just curiosity, maybe even a sense of obligation after receiving so many letters.And that's when she found out. Zheng Tianyi The confident, charming, ever-so-popular Zheng Tianyi had been the one behind those letters. It had caught her completely off guard. She hadn't been in love, not then, not ever. Love had never been a serious topic for her, never something she had given much thought to.But when she saw the anticipation in his eyes, the sincerity in his words, she had felt the need to repay his love—to at least try.She had never loved him the way he had loved her. She had wanted to, maybe.
She had tried. But love had always felt distant, unfamiliar, like something she was supposed to feel but never truly did. And yet, despite everything, despite the fact that she had never fully given her heart to him, the pain of his betrayal still tore through her like a storm."I messed up so bad," she whispered, her voice cracking between sobs. She cried for an hour straight, cursing herself—not for losing him, but for ever thinking that things could work, for ever stepping into something she had never truly understood.Maybe this was inevitable. Maybe this was the price of trying to return a love she had never really felt.