Chapter 78

Rain POV

Since the day I met him, my heart never stayed at ease, every single time I saw him I have those mixed feelings that I don't know what are they exactly.

Hatred? If yes, why I got upset when he proved to JiYun he wasn't Fourth by touching the fragment?. Love? If it is, then why I would try to get rid of him to win against Hades? So maybe it is the yearning for the old days. Those feelings are just mine that I kept hiding for the past 5 years, how I hate that he died because of me, how I hate that I knew too late that he was sharing with me the same feelings that I was trying so hard to show to him…

and that last kiss he gave me before he left for good…

It felt unfinished…

I felt like I have been left uncompleted and I wanted desperately to fill the empty whole I have been left with, that's why I kept working non-stop, but it never got filled it was just getting bigger and darker, yet I never imagined that inside this whole a beast was sealed hovering for his desire to be triggered.

And he did it that day…

He broke the chains of the monster inside of me…

To the point I couldn't keep it controlled…

I saw him falling asleep in the car, so I didn't want to bother him till we reach our destination, and when we did I woke him up to see him thanking me and leaving inside that bowling area. The driver took off but not much my eyes landed on a pharmacy

"Stop"

I ordered the driver because I thought 'what if he doesn't have any medication at home' because somehow that 'doctor' doesn't look like he even care about his own health in many ways, so I went and bought some fever medication and ordered the driver to go back.

When I arrived, walking to that door I was thinking if I should ring the bell or phone-call him, yet I was surprised that the door was open, I looked left and right because first I should make sure if anything suspicious going on, but surely nothing was, I wasn't even away for that long so if it is a thief he would be in there and I would catch him no doubt.

That is why I aloud myself to go inside to meet the darkness of that area, the place was closed, no window is open but luckily I found the light switch that turned the place to a morning immediately, I took a look around but no one was there, I searched the place till I reach the backstage which I found empty but there was stairs going up leading to another darkness. I went up to reach a door having slightly some lights, not knowing if I should knock first or just go in, but if it is a thief the better option was to go in silently, I pushed the door open and it was smoothly silent not making any noises, I looked inside to find a huge open studio house, and no one was there except that doctor who was throwing his body on a sofa in there even if the bed wasn't faraway. but my thoughts were that 'he was sick to the point not caring to close the doors behind him!'

I frowned thinking what if someone actually came in if i didn't come back, I walk to him wanting to scold him even if he is sick, but seeing how his cheeks were red while he was sleeping with bothered expression I found myself calling him gently leaning on one knee in front of that sofa

"Lex! Wake up, at lease take some medication"

He didn't answer at first but when I repeated the sentence he opened his eyes looking at me tiredly, saying words making me think twice of my existence

"Is this a dream" he smiled tiredly "then I should keep dreaming forever"

I tried to ignore what he said and speak rationally "take these, then sleep" I showed him the medication, and he did pushed himself up, the stupid me thought he was going to take the medication, but he went to a sitting position looking eye to eye at me since we both were on the same level, he smiled with his eyes almost closed speaking weirdly again

"Maybe I should never wake up"

At that moment I knew he must have hallucinations now, I stands up with full confident wanting to force the meds now, but he was more fast grabbing my arm and pulling it down to him, since I was in the phase of balancing my body because I was on my knee, that pull he made had me lose my own balance, to the point I was about to crush him with my own body on that sofa, lucky I used my hand to hold my weight looking down at how he got caged under me leaning against that sofa, but that crazy had the opportunity to wrap his both arms around my neck looking at me in the eyes speaking…

"This is my dream, you are not allowed to leave. I was dead worried about you I worked over time to stay near you"

Saying that his face was getting closer and closer even his eyes wasn't focused on my eyes anymore, they turned their focused on my lips, and god knows how much I hated that action, yet my curiosity was winning the battle inside of me

"I deserve to reward myself just a little no?"

And after those words his lips were 1 centimeter away from my own, my heart was screaming to push myself away, but my brain was telling me to stay-put and see how it feels, that how I ended up not moving but waiting for him to make the move!

Yet all what he did was provoking me, he reached my lips to only barely touch it with his own, feeling that slight of a second contact then how he pulled away with a pout commenting

"Even in my dreams I don't want you to be sick"

SICK! IN A DREAM!! I felt frustrated, I hated it, I didn't like it, but most importantly after that small contact in between our lips, I wanted it to happen, whatever I was holding in the last 5 years…I wanted that kiss to happen, I wanted to see how it feels, how it taste!

That is why I initiated it

I saw him leaning back to the sofa and I went down after him, kissing him, and what I didn't realize is that I didn't stop till I was out of breath.

I was shocked of my own actions I pulled myself away looking at how he was smiling slowly closing his eyes…I stand up straight fast feeling my heart racing, my body shaking and even my brain was freezing.

Because I liked it!

I never thought I would say that to myself out loud after Fourth's death but I really did like it, to the point I wanted more, and if he wasn't sick I would have eaten him alive even if it against his will. At that moment I knew he sealed the beast I was keeping inside all those years, that unfinished piece Fourth left it felt like it been founded today.

But how I wanted him now, it was unfair to Fourth who lost his life because of me…

I made a sigh, going back to him but this time I carried him to the bed, giving him the medication. I thought that maybe I should leave, but I sat there looking at his face sleeping till I got interrupted after by Orthrus call who I informed that Dr. Lex was sick and won't be able to come to the hospital.

i ended up leaving after I felt his fever start getting down, I couldn't find my concentration again that day even in my work I kept reading the same line multi times. So I decided to go and take care of the car in the river myself hoping his mask is still in it.

The next day I had a guest, it was David, Aunt Rhea's son, and he rarely came to the country since he is permanently living aboard.

"You don't look normal"

Even David asked me that question, yes I don't look normal because I don't feel normal, it is like making a big mistake yet enjoying it and want to do it again! Seeing how I was not active this time, he asked to have a ride on town because driving can make me relax.

Relax? How can I even relax because that driving ended up by me meeting 'him' and he ended up not remembering at all, I spend the whole day thinking about it while he who let out the beast was NOT REMEMBERING!!

I got frustrated and left him going back to David table, I didn't like it. I mean at least I didn't force him to anything, he from his words looks interested in me 'taking care of me when I was sick' To think about it he was taking my side since day one! Back at Wesvil he even gave me the fragment back even if he knows how much it cost if he sold it to the Hellhounds. He even cried when he thought I wanted Dena!

I had my inner thoughts fighting to just not be mad at him since he forgot everything, he was sick after all! So I thought that "maybe I should talk to him later!" to just get my jaw drop by that 'later'

He came in looking like him!

The tattoo, the shocker, the hair, the movements, even that ring…that ring! I had a huge realization that the ring was belonging to Fourth! That ring I had since the masquerade! how could i forgot about it! Seeing him like that acting like he is the other, I swear I wished he would be him.

"Yohan was doomed to be dead anyway by father, he just made the process faster"

The words Second said had me shocked, how can a father use his own son as a machine to recreate something, I hated the Hellhound leader before but now I abhor him, I wish to kill him with my own hands and I definitely will. After the tensed play they seems to ended up with a solution to keep Lex looks hidden, while the 2nd Hellhound won't bother at their business, it was a fair deal after the whole conversation I heard, both sides will be losing something big if Yojong know about him!

Seeing the Hellhounds leaving, David finally had his memory back remembering where he met Fourth before, yet Lex reaction was kind of exaggerated, I saw him rolling his eyes on David at the doors before, but does he know him? is it possible that even such a small meeting Fourth did tell to First?

"did i? I don't remember"

"he was!"

"then I should not disturb your date now"

But Lex denied, he denied that he met him, yet his annoyed expression was telling everything, he doesn't like the guy and why he wouldn't like someone he just met! Unless he is jealous…

That's why I decide to follow him…