Making a Decision

The journey back to Station 47 was a haze. My body hurt, my head whirled, and the adrenaline that had previously surged through my veins like flames had now faded, leaving me weary and empty. The truck's sirens had long stopped blaring, yet my mind kept racing on. I couldn't ignore the sensation that this day had altered everything.

I had entered the fire, both literally and metaphorically, and emerged from it alive. The smoke still lingered on my clothes, and its scent clung to my skin, yet there was another feeling present—a sense of achievement. I accomplished something genuine.

The truck arrived at the station, and we parked with a deep sigh. The doors opened wide, and the team hurriedly exited. While we stood side by side in front of the truck, perspiration trickling down our faces and grime marking our clothes, Chief Ryan approached. His gaze glanced across us, and his mouth formed a slight yet approving smile.

"Alright, everyone. Good work today," he said. "Let's get back to the grind. Mr. Fox, come with me. We'll get you settled in with the team."

I nodded, sensing the gravity of the moment enveloping me. As Ryan guided me to the exit, the rest of the team moved by, some patting my back, while others offered a slight nod of approval. I was still absorbing everything—the blaze, the rescue, my new existence—and now I needed to meet the other members of the team.

Inside, the station was alive with movement. The sound of boots on the concrete, the buzzing of the engine bays, the sharp noise of gear being inspected, and the hushed chatter of firefighters talking about the fire's aftermath. To them, it was just routine, but for me, it seemed like something from a dream.

Ryan guided me to a little conference room where the other team members were assembled. He cleared his throat, and all eyes turned to us. Their faces exhibited a mix of curiosity and in difference, yet one aspect united them all—respect.

"This is Mr. Fox," Ryan said, his tone serious. He's our new recruit. Today's his first real test, and he passed it with flying colors."

I wasn't anticipating applause, yet there was a shared acknowledgment from the team. I sensed the gaze of the others upon me, assessing, judging. I held my head high, but a anxious flutter stirred in my chest.

Ryan went on, "Now, Mr. Fox, you've witnessed some of the pressure we handle here. We lack time for weakness, and we won't guide you. However, we look after our own. That's the type of team we represent."

While he was talking, I locked eyes with every firefighter present. I was astonished—none of them asked why I had on the fox mask. It was not brought up, no uncomfortable looks, no lifted brows. They were indifferent. Their only concern was the work.

"Okay," Ryan remarked, refocusing my attention on him. "We'll begin by introducing you to the fundamentals." You will conduct equipment inspections, maintain the vehicles, and assist as necessary. That's the task for today. Keep in mind that you are now a member of this family."

I nodded, my heart filled with both pride and doubt. The mask's weight seemed somewhat heavier now, but it was of no consequence. I was going to remain here.

As the team dispersed to get back to work, Ryan motioned for me to follow him outside. My heart rate quickened as we stepped into the cool air, the scent of smoke still lingering on the edges of the station. Ryan led me to a quieter corner near the back of the building, away from the others.

"You did well today," he said, his voice lower now. "But I have a question for you. Something I want you to think about."

I blinked, caught off guard. "What kind of question?"

Ryan's eyes locked onto mine, steady and unflinching. "What are your values, Mr. Fox?"

The question hit me like a punch to the gut. Values? I didn't have an immediate answer. The word felt too big, too abstract. What was I supposed to say? What did it even mean in the context of being a firefighter?

As if reading my confusion through the mask, Ryan rephrased the question. "Let me put it another way. If you're out there, and you come across someone in danger, but rescuing them would be high risk—do you save them?"

I thought hard about it. My mind flashed back to Sienna's words—her warning, her plea. "I don't want you to do anything that risks your life. So, no reckless stunts and no 'I'll handle this alone' nonsense. Got it?"

Her words rang in my thoughts, and at that instant, I understood what my response needed to be.

"I wouldn't take the gamble," I replied firmly. "I have a person waiting for me at home. I won't waste my life for just a possibility."

Ryan's gaze became gentler, yet a smile lingered at the edges of his mouth. "That's a strong response," he remarked. "I was really hoping you'd mention that. Many newcomers become fixated on the notion of being a hero, believing they can rescue everyone. However, the reality is that if you lack a distinct plan in your mind, if you're uncertain about your actions in that situation, you'll become paralyzed. You will choose incorrectly. It's wise to understand your boundaries prior to finding yourself in that circumstance."

I nodded, feeling a burden lift from my shoulders. I anticipated he would feel disappointed or frustrated, but instead, he appeared... content. I felt reassured to learn that my choice was considered correct by him.

"Great," Ryan remarked. "Now, it's time to start working. You will be occupied for the remainder of the day assisting with equipment inspections. It's a quieter day following a fire, but that doesn't imply we can relax our vigilance. Let's move."

We spent the next few hours checking over the fire trucks, ensuring all the gear was ready for the next call. I kept myself busy, not wanting to waste the day. As I worked, I copied Ryan's skill—Thermal Perception (Lv. 1)—the ability to sense temperature variations through walls and debris. It was an essential skill for a firefighter, and one I knew I'd need in the future.

When my shift concluded, I felt exhausted both mentally and physically. However, I didn't want to return to a vacant apartment nor did I wish to consider the tasks that remained before me. I simply wanted to be alongside Sienna.

I drove home through a haze, the burden of the day still lingering on me. When I neared the front entrance, I looked to ensure there was no one nearby. The last thing I desired was for anyone to find a basis to link Mr. Fox and Reynard. Although the likelihood of someone seeing me was slim, I wasn't willing to take the chance of an accident occurring.

I entered and took off the mask immediately after crossing the threshold. As soon as it was removed, I experienced a feeling of relief, as if I was peeling away another layer of skin. I was able to breathe once more.

Sienna was on the couch, as usual, resting with her eyes closed. She didn't stir when I entered, but I knew she had to have heard me.

"I'm home," I said softly.

Her eyes fluttered open, and she smiled. "Welcome back. How was it?"

I took a deep breath, running a hand through my hair. "Tough. But... I made it through."

She nodded, then leaned back against the couch. "No evaluator came by, so everything's still moving nicely. We're doing well, Reynard. Don't worry."

We sat together in comfortable silence, letting the day slip away. We ate dinner quietly, enjoying the rare calm.

That night, while I was in bed, I heard a gentle knock on the door. It was Sienna, her tone soft.

"Can I spend the night with you?" she asked, her voice soft yet brimming with unexpressed longing.

I quickly pulled back the blankets and created space for her. She nestled beside me, her body conforming perfectly to mine. I embraced her by wrapping my arm around her, drawing her near, and we both relaxed into the warmth.

While I rested, attuned to the gentle rhythm of her breathing, my thoughts repeatedly drifted back to Ryan's question. If I had chosen correctly... I reconsidered the matter, evaluating the choice. But then I gazed at Sienna, her serene face nestled against my chest, and I realized—without question—that my choice had been the correct one.

I couldn't afford to lose her. Not for any reason.

And in that moment, everything felt right.