I decided to push Ronan, Marco, and Orion to the back of my mind.
Just for today.
Ronan's absence was still a weight I felt pressing down on me, but I wouldn't let it consume me. I missed him. Yes, he was my best friend. My lover, protector. Ronan was everything.
Marco? He was a completely different situation. I cared about him- as a friend. I was an asshole for kissing him when I knew how he felt about me. When I knew I felt nothing for him at all.
I am such a douchebag.
And Orion… well, he was probably off in his own world, wrapped up in whatever twisted games he played. Or maybe he was deciding who's gonna die today. He is the angel of death, after all.
But the good news was that none of them were here, so there was no reason to waste my energy thinking about them.
I headed to the cafeteria, letting the familiar chatter and the smell of warm food settle over me like a snug little blanket.