Chapter 63: Self

"How could I have become like this?"

Lin Xing stared blankly at Su Ru, who was weeping like a pear - blossom in the rain. All his desires vanished in an instant.

On the noble - looking breasts still remained the marks of his sucking, and Su Ru's cherry - red lips were smeared with his saliva. He, a noble and gentle beauty, had he really forced himself upon her?

No! That wasn't the point!!

Lin Xing shook his head vigorously, trying to sort out his thoughts.

His mind was clear, but it seemed that something was subtly changing him, making him more and more wicked, more and more rough, crazy, and possessive...

What on earth was going on?

How could he be interested in a married woman?

Since when?

Lin Xing was no lecher. At least in the Naruto world and on Earth, he was a dedicated person —— even when he first arrived in the Zhu Xian world, his mind was solely focused on cultivation.

When did he ever have the idea of building a harem?

And with married women? And even trying to woo them!?

Even not long ago, he only had Ping'er and his beloved goddess, Bi Yao. He was a proper, traditional good man!

And he had slept with Tian Ling'er before?

No, that was because he was drunk.

No, that's not right!!

Lin Xing pinched his head hard. What had he done before getting drunk?

Could his past self have done such things?

And what about Wen Min? What were his feelings for her? Just a brother - sister relationship? Definitely not!

How could he have changed like this? All of a sudden? Without the slightest, not even a hint of warning?

Was he being controlled by someone?

Impossible!

He was completely sober and clear - minded. He remembered every change of these days clearly!! And Lin Xing believed that no one could do such a thing. Not even Dao Xuan!

But, how could he have become like this!!?

For a person's personality to change so drastically without being aware of it? And even now, when Lin Xing thought about these things, he didn't feel that there was anything wrong.

So what if he seduced them? So what if he had a harem?

This was the most terrifying thing!!

Only by stringing together the changes before and after, analyzing them rationally without any emotions, could Lin Xing detect something abnormal! Otherwise, he would think it was all perfectly normal!

He had become someone he didn't even recognize!

He had become unlike himself!

Lin Xing even felt a tinge of fear!!!

If tomorrow's self was completely different from today's, with likes, dislikes, beliefs, dreams, habits... everything changed, what was the point of today's self?

It was as if a completely different person had replaced him. If so, what was the difference between himself and death!!

No! This couldn't be happening!!

It couldn't be happening!!!

If I die, what's the point?

If I kill yesterday's me, am I still me?

No!!!

Absolutely not!!!

I am who I am!!! No one can replace me!!!

No one! Can! Replace! Me!

Suddenly, spiritual energy surged out of Lin Xing's body like boiling water. The air twisted with scorching heat. Through it, the trees, the river, and the green grass all seemed distorted...

Golden, black, cyan, and blue lights flickered on Lin Xing's body surface like a revolving lantern. In Lin Xing's meridians, various energies were in chaos, squeezing, fighting, and seizing their own territories, like a civil war after losing a leader, getting out of control!

The drawbacks of the integration of various Daoist arts finally emerged at this moment!

Each Daoist art had its own mode of operation and unique laws; the spiritual energies of different Daoist arts had different natures. When integrated, they could complement each other and greatly increase their power! However, there were also places where they conflicted and suppressed each other!! Even with the Heavenly Book, which contained the origins of the three Daoist arts, it still couldn't completely reconcile them! Just as the nine sons of the dragon were all different, how could integration be so simple!?

And even more terrifying was the struggle between spiritual energy and chakra!

This was already completely irreconcilable!!!

The energies of the two worlds couldn't find the slightest point of compatibility! The conflicts among the three Daoist arts were just minor scuffles, while the struggle between spiritual energy and chakra was a life - and - death battle. Every part of Lin Xing's body was the battlefield where chakra and spiritual energy were engaged in a fierce struggle. After absorbing the Water Qilin, the amount of chakra had reached the level of a tailed beast, far exceeding the spiritual energy! And the three states of spiritual energy were far superior in terms of quality and attack forms!

Without Lin Xing's suppression, the struggle among the various energies in his body became fierce and violent! Lin Xing's body surface bulged from time to time, and there was chaos in his meridians! If it weren't for his strong physique, Lin Xing would already be dead by now!

The most eerie thing was that whenever one side was about to be defeated, a blood - red light would flash in Lin Xing's eyes, and the disadvantaged side would immediately recover and continue the deadly fight! This riot of energy seemed to be endless!!!

And Lin Xing was completely unaware!

Like a soulless person, he stood there blankly, muttering something continuously.

"This isn't me!"

"I'm still me!"

"I won't disappear!"

"I've always been here!"

"If everything changes, what's the point of my existence?"

"As long as I'm still conscious, I still exist!"

"..."

The heat on Lin Xing's body surface rose rapidly. His body faintly glowed red, his clothes gave off a scorched smell, and his body surface was uneven and constantly changing.

It seemed that in the next instant, Lin Xing would explode and die!

The riot of various energies had reached its most intense moment!

Su Ru, who was limp in Lin Xing's arms, suddenly felt that the surface of her body was extremely hot. The scorching heat finally made her wake up slowly.

The effect of the Hehuan Sect's secret technique was still there. Su Ru was still weak and could only lean closely against Lin Xing. Her pair of magnificent breasts pressed against Lin Xing's scalding body, feeling hot and somewhat comfortable.

"Xing'er ——" Su Ru looked up and suddenly saw Lin Xing's extremely red and distorted face, with a dull look in his eyes, like a soulless body.

"How could this be? Is this, is this a heart demon?"