The Priece of Choice

As the Soldiers fleed from the Battlefield most of the Priests stayed. They fall down to their knees and prayed to their Lord. My Lord. I wanted to look down but then suddenly Plaga stood behind me. Her Hand on my Head and holding my eye lids open. "Watch Gerald. Where is their God now? Your God? Does he has mercy to them? Cant you see, what Fools they are? Praying to Something what doesnt exist. They could just flee Gerald. All what they would need to do is moving their little legs and go.

Still they could do their Prayers." I tried to look away put her grip was like Iron. I tried to speak but i couldnt. My inside was dying, as i needed to watch how my Brothers, some i even know got killed. Their Screams filled my Ears. My whole world collapsed now completly. As the outer Wall lay down in Ruins so my inner World too. Finally when the last one gave his live, she let down of the Grip on me. My Hands gone to my Ears, trying to silence the screams i still heard. Moments later my vision gone dark and i passed out.

Later i woke up by gentle touches on my Chest. The first Thing what i saw was Plagas concerned Face. "I m sorry Gerald that i did this to you. It was necessary that you saw how corrupted your Brothers was. What your Faith would have done to you, if i wouldnt had met you." I still felt like thousands of knives hitted my Chest. Unable to think or feel i just begun to cry. Plaga pressed me close on her Chest. Letting me feel the warmth of her Heart. It was enough to calm me. Put the Pain didnt faided away.

"You could have saved them. All you needed to do was not to murder them." Her Hand grabed my Throat fight. For some Moments i couldnt breath. "How dare you Gerald. Are you blind, dont you see. They choosed it on their own Free Will Gerald. They choosed it because they was Maggots, Slaves to their Belive in the Church. They rather died beliving in they will reach Heaven then to run away. No Gerald there was nothing what i could habe down. All they would have said then, that their God saved them.

Then the Church would use this Lie." Her grab on my throat weakened. I looked down sad, as the Realisation hitted me. She was Right, they had the Choice. Eberyone of them. "Plaga i dont understand why they choosed Death instead of going Home." She silenced me with an Finger on my Lip. "You need to Stop asking Gerald. Deep inside you know the Truth." She kissed my head gently. "Sometimes when we dare to ask all what we get is more Questions. Then we will fall deeper into our own Abyss.

It dares to swallow to consume us. So Gerald please stop now. I m here for you, bug trust me. If you choose this Path i will be nor able to safe you." Silently i nooded. Like an small boy i felt the urge to hug her. To press myself so close on her warmth. It filled my cold dead hearth woth hope and Warmth. Even when it was an twisted pleasure. I felt how her heart pounded for an moment. Something what never happened before. Then she putted her Arms on me and her Fingers digged deep into my Skin.

In this Moment i felt how much she hurted herself everyone Moment for the Things she did. I dont know why she choosed me. But she gave us Something what the King never did an choice. So i was willing to give her one. "Take what you need from me this Night plaga." Her dress dissolved into fog, and i felt her naked Breasts pressing against my Skin. "Hold your eyes Closed Gerald please, i beg you." She begun to kiss my face, my Throat, neck and shoulders. While her Fingernails begun to scratch painfully over my back.

Exploring my Body and marking me even more as hers. An twisted pleasure. Her Kisses was Healing the wounds she gave me. The Pain still neber gone away. "Gerald you nedx to know i dont want to do this to you. It's Something i need to do. If you would see me know you would understand, but you couldnt handle the Priece the Pain i pay for all this. I thank you Gerald for allowing me my darkest desires, to let my Rage my Hatred cool down on you. If i couldnt i it would swallow me soon.

Then everyone in this City would die. You included Gerald. I will heal your wounds afterwards of course." My own hands begun to move over on her Back. Comforting in her nedd to inflect Pain. "Shh Plaga its okay. I dont know why i feel all those Things. You know even when it hurts, i never felt so alive then now. So dont worry Plaga. Let your Monster your Dark Side out on me. I know you wouldnt harm me badly. Not as long you have control left. The Rage, that Fire in you. I feel it.

How it lurks to consume you. Take what you need." With that shd pressed me down on the Bed. Her kisses trailed all over my Body, while her fingers left red bloody lines. Each scratch was painful, hurtful, but at the same i felt Something. I felt admired, loved and hunted. Something what made me felt alive, what i never experienced before. This whas the Priece i payd for the Choice Plaga gave them. Letting my own Faith and belive die more and more, the longer i stayed with here. Barely already remembering the Man i was before.

For all the Things i already lost, i found for each one, a new Thing. So i was thankful and in this moment at Peace with myself.