first sight

I still remember that day that was so cold out there and i was sobing like a elementary school kid who lost his pencil.Because i regretted getting into medical school I took medicine thinking that it would be fun but it turns out to be quite opposite.That day i cried an entire hour and again wept my eyes got all red and swollen.I thought i was gonna be alright but this shit is indeed tough i really tried so hard to get back my intrest on studies but i can't help it.It might sound as silly excuse but in that situation i really felt helpless then this gentleman entered into my life like an angel.He sat beside me then silence occupied between us. Slowly water drops from my eyes vanished. He started to kill the silence, he said "Hey.. are you alright??"

i remained silent he hesitated for a moment as started talking again " I don't have any idea what you are going through but sitting here and crying like is won't give any solution to your problem right? instead of sobing here like this why don't you just sort out your problem like work on what's botherong you i mean it's better to find some solution instead of doing nothing right? just give it a try , it's okay even if the progress is slow when you try hard. I'll count on you then" he compleated the talk and gave me a warm smile.then he left his leather jacker beside me .i held his jacket with my both hands tightly and keep staring at him as he began to proceed in his path. suddenly the cold atmosphere turned quite warm.The sensation of weight on head seems to have disappeared.this might sound funny but even though he said few words but those words really keep me at ease at that situation. My cheecks slightly turned red with blush and my heart started to beat faster than usual.

Next morning when i am about to enter into cafe i caught a sight of him.I'm not sure that he remembered my face cause previous day he gave me talk while looking at other direction he just glanced me while he smiled at me with those gentle eyes but from begining to end i didn't take off my eyes from him.Since that is evening i couldn't get a clear image of his face but damnn he got that sparkly brown eyes, sunlight making them even more attractive and his shiny silk hair god look at that jaw line and not gonna talk about height he is just soo perfect keeping looks aside he is such an warm hearted gentleman and his gentle and warm smile ,it can make people forgot about their problems. I fell for him again that day just like previous day.

i don't know why but starting that day i studied so hard like so hard like a freak till i it make it on top maybe because i just wanted to be in same level as him or maybe i just wanted to be with him i even secured a job where he works.This man is something he completely changed me , He don't have any idea that someone is litterally living with full of thoughts of him. godd i love him so crazily This man never fails to make my heart beat faster for him till today.

We did few surgeries togather but everytime i thought i couldn't make it cause how can i even concentrate when he is right infront my eyes. I always thought that i might mess up the surgeries but luckily i never messed up thanks to my mind for controlling itself.

I always wanted to talk to him but i never had courage to gather up my words but definitely i'll make a long convo next time, slowly after getting little closer i'll confess to him for real. getting the thought of talking to him makes me blush so hard.

But i'm just little afraid that he might reject me,Even if he reject my conffesion i'll try harder next time until i make him mine. It sounds super easy but practically applying it might take my soul out of my body.