I'm afraid I won't have a chance

At Yu Lei and Zhao Lin's wedding, my mother and Lao Yu seemed to deliberately avoid me, especially my mother, who never said a few words to me.

 It wasn't until Cha Xiaoqing and I were about to go back to Xiamen that she said a few words without pain; Only Zhao Lin strongly asked us to stay and finish dinner before leaving.

 I was worried about delaying Cha Xiaoqing's time, so I rejected Zhao Lin's kindness.

 On the way back, I chatted with Cha Xiaoqing again, and she took the initiative to ask me, "Has your relationship with your family always been so cold?" ... You didn't seem to say a word the whole time. "

 "I'll let you see the joke, but I've gotten used to it over the years... They usually only call me when they need money. "

 "Then you must be lonely wandering alone in Xiamen, right?"

 ...

 "I used to be lonely, but now it's okay... My dad moved in with me, and my dad was a funny guy when he wasn't messy. "

 Cha Xiaoqing asked a little puzzled, "Why did your father move in with you?" You're so inconvenient there! "

 I forced a smile and replied, "Do you believe it?" In order to let my brother get married smoothly, they sold the family's old house... My dad has bad living habits and is usually not very conscious, and my mother was afraid that he would affect the normal life of my brother and my younger siblings, so she drove him to me. "

 After being silent for a long time, Cha Xiaoqing asked, "Is there really such a selfish parent in this world?" "

 "You should watch more social news, the more ordinary the family, the more right and wrong... Anyway, there are only so few resources at home, and which one your parents like will naturally give them all... I'm not alone, am I... Anyway, they have cultivated me and made me self-reliant. "

 After a moment's pause, I added, "Sometimes, though, I feel like I'm alone... When you live alone, you are really cautious, and you don't even dare to get sick, because there is no one around you who can take care of yourself, I don't know if you have ever experienced that feeling, being alone in the hospital on drips, watching others have family members to eat and drink, that kind of feeling, it really feels like being abandoned by the whole world..."

 I was only halfway through my sentence and stopped... In fact, the most uncomfortable thing is to go to the bathroom, you have to hold the hanging bottle with one hand, and solve the urge to urinate with one hand, that feeling is the highest state of loneliness, but this kind of indecent thing is not convenient to talk to Cha Xiaoqing, so you can only experience it yourself.

 I have the habit of driving with one hand on the steering wheel, one hand on the gear knob, just the moment I said these words, Cha Xiaoqing gently held my right hand, she looked at me with a gentle look, as if to tell me that in the future, she is the person who loves me the most in the world.

 My heart was beating wildly, but when Cha Xiaoqing chose to be silent, I also chose to be silent... At this moment, I felt like I was back on that night.

 My hand seemed to give Cha Xiaoqing a sense of security, and after a while, she fell asleep; Seeing her snuggled up in the seat, I wanted to kiss her.

 It was only an hour's drive from Zhangzhou to Xiamen, so around three o'clock in the afternoon, I drove the car back to my accommodation, and it was only at this time that Cha Xiaoqing woke up, she took off my coat over her, and then looked out the window...

 I let out a light breath, and then took out the box that Zhao Lin gave me from my pocket, and said to Cha Xiaoqing: "You can take this back, it's too precious!" "

 With a surprised expression on her face, she asked me, "Isn't this a gift I gave to Zhao Lin?" How did it get to you? "

 "I was about to ask you, you decided to go back to Zhangzhou with me temporarily, how can you have time to prepare this gift?"

 Cha Xiaoqing smiled and replied: "I also borrowed flowers to offer Buddha, this bracelet was given to me by a friend of mine, and it has been kept in my bag, I thought that I couldn't go to their wedding empty-handed, so I gave it to Zhao Lin." "

 "You take it back, if you can go to the rescue, she'll be very happy..." After a pause, I said, "If you really want to give her a gift, you will have a chance to make it up to her in the future, but it must be a gift that she can afford... Zhao Lin is a very clear girl, don't put too much psychological pressure on her. "

 "I'm afraid I won't have a chance in the future... Give me your passport. "

 "What do you want my passport for?"

 "I'll help you get a visa to Germany... Let's go to Germany together... That's something we've said before. "

 I was almost stunned, just looking at Cha Xiaoqing, speechless for a long time; Tang Guo She seems to have really mistaken Cha Xiaoqing, after we cleared up the misunderstanding, she was no different from before at all.

 "Why don't you speak?"

 "Are you really going to Germany? ..."

 "Hmm... This blow was really, really big for me, and I always had nightmares... So, I want to change the environment and forget about these unpleasant things... Germany is a very good choice, I want to study there, I have already chosen a school... You'll come with me, okay? ... When you get there, whether you want to continue your studies or work, I will do my best to help you. "

 At this moment, I was like a dream... I've been suffering for so long, can I really completely change my fate because I know Cha Xiaoqing?

 Under the direct sunlight, I avoided Cha Xiaoqing's gaze and kept staring at the rusty street lamp outside the car window, but I held the steering wheel of the car tightly.

 I was woken up by the sudden ringing of my mobile phone, and I hurriedly took out my mobile phone from my pocket, which was from Tang Ning.

 As soon as I connected, she said to me in a very eager tone: "Yuwei, come and persuade my sister, she hasn't spoken for several hours, I'm really afraid that she won't be able to think about ...it."

 ...

 "My sister was out taking private orders, and was discovered by your former boss, not only has she lost her job now, but your previous boss also threatened to make her unable to stay in this industry... Come and persuade her, she has such a strong self-esteem, I'm afraid she won't be able to bear this blow. "

 I was silent for a long time before I asked Tang Ning, "Hasn't she been careful all the time?" How could it be discovered by Da Lao Zhang? "

 "Your boss has always suspected her of taking business outside without permission, so he deliberately set up a bureau for her, she was fooled and drove the car directly to your boss's friend's house, that is, your boss colluded with his friend and lied to my sister that she wanted to buy a second-hand car."

 I really didn't expect that such a thing would happen when I just left Xiamen for half a day. I told Tang Guo before that Da Lao Zhang is a very suspicious person, but she still chose to take a risk, this time, not to mention losing her job, I am afraid that she will really not be able to raise her head in this industry at all!

 I am also responsible, if I hadn't taken the 70,000 yuan, Tang Guo might not have chosen to take the risk, based on this guilt, I asked Tang Ning again: "Where is your sister now?" "

 "On the roof of the neighborhood where she lives, come here... I really don't know how to persuade her. "