Do you like me

Lao Yu took off his hat, he scratched his head, and then looked out the window for a while, I handed him back the watch, and said: "Even if I want to go to Germany, I have to get a visa before I can leave, what are you doing packing the box for me so early?" "

 "What is a visa?"

 "It's a voucher for you to go abroad, if there is no restriction on this, then not everyone can go abroad... And when applying for a visa, you will also have to check whether you are qualified to go abroad, and they will apply for a visa for you when you meet the standards... In the meantime, it will take almost half a month. "

 "It's going to take half a month... Then I'm a little anxious! "

 "Do you really think it's good for me to go to Germany?"

 "Little tea won't pit you... When you get there, develop with her... If you were promising, our family might not have so many contradictions. "

 I took a puff of my cigarette and said with a smile, "If you really think about this family, you won't gamble." "

 "I won't gamble anymore... Really don't gamble... If I can't get rid of this problem, you won't be able to go to Germany with peace of mind. "

 With a long breath, I patted Lao Yu's leg and said, "I'll tell you the truth, I didn't plan to go to Germany at all... She mentioned it to me, but I didn't promise her... I have my own things to do in Xiamen and don't want to re-adapt to a place. "

 "What about Xiaocha? Are you just going to let her go alone? "

 "Everyone has their own destiny and choices... We're not on the same path, so I'd better be pragmatic and don't want to end up with nothing. "

 "You're inferior, aren't you? ... You have a fate with Xiaocha, if you give up like this, it will be a pity! "

 I smiled bitterly and said, "What kind of fate do we have, she wrote me a phone number, and I can lose it... Otherwise, she wouldn't have found it. "

 "Anyway, I think it's nice for you two to be together."

 After a deep groan, I replied: "To put it bluntly, you asked me to go to Germany just to let me catch Cha Xiaoqing... But you have to think clearly, maybe we won't come back after staying in Germany, and you won't get any good with it. "

 "I didn't want to do anything good... You just have to live comfortably... If you don't come back, you won't come back. "

 I was really shocked, Lao Yu really seemed to have suddenly become another person, he was not as selfish as before, at least in his attitude towards this matter, he was not selfish... I don't know what prompted him to make such a big change... Could it be that it was really Yu Lei who broke his heart, he knew that the whole family was the only one who treated him with sincerity, so he was willing to sacrifice himself to fulfill me?

 If so, I can't go.

 At this time, Lao Yu said to me again: "I gave Xiaocha your phone number, she should call you, and then you can tell her that you are willing to go to Germany with her..."

 "Don't worry about this, I'll think it through myself."

 I put the contents of my suitcase back in the cupboard, and when I was about to wash up and go to bed, my phone rang... This is an unfamiliar number, what Lao Yu said before contacting, this eighty percent was called by Cha Xiaoqing.

 I took a deep breath before I connected...

 Sure enough, it was Cha Xiaoqing, and she asked me, "Are you home?" "

 "Hmm... I have to explain to you that today's incident really didn't happen on purpose, I lost the note you wrote to me, that's why I ... I have tried my best to remedy it, I called Jiang Xiaokai and asked Tang Guo, but the number they gave me was the one you don't use often... You're not going to be angry, are you? "

 Cha Xiaoqing smiled and replied, "If I'm angry, why would I go to your house to look for you... It's just a small thing for me... I know something must have gone wrong, and you're not going to ignore me... I don't want any more misunderstandings between us. "

 I breathed a sigh of relief, and then said, "If you haven't slept yet, I'll treat you to supper." "

 "I'm a little tired today and don't want to go out."

 "Okay, then you can rest early."

 Cha Xiaoqing ignored my proposal, and after a moment of silence, she asked again: "How did you think about going to Germany?" "

 I smiled and replied, "You know, during the time when I couldn't get in touch with you, I always had the same dream that I went to Germany with you... We sat on a grassy area surrounded by old-fashioned European buildings... I don't know why, this was supposed to be a good thing, but suddenly it turned into a nightmare... It was very unpleasant for some reason to quarrel between us... I've always felt that dreams are suggestive, so I took this dream very seriously, and then I figured out that it was because I still had something in my heart that I couldn't let go... There's no way I'm going to be there... With such a stateless me, you must be very unhappy too... So, after a long time, there will definitely be contradictions between the two people! "

 "Are you rejecting me?"

 I found it difficult to speak, but I didn't want to be a hesitant person, so I replied in a rather nonchalant tone: "Well, I can't go to Germany." "

 After I said this, I didn't know what Cha Xiaoqing on the other end of the phone was feeling, anyway, she fell into silence, and when I thought she would hang up the phone, she suddenly said to me: "I'm serious about asking you a question... Do you like me? "

 My breathing was a bit heavy because it was the first time in my life that a woman had asked such a question, and it was the woman I loved.

 My heart was very restless, and there was a numb feeling on my feet, and I finally opened my mouth and said to Cha Xiaoqing on the other end of the phone: "I like it... Every time I'm with you, I have an urge that I can't resist... But I know that's irrational..."

 "You don't have to say anything... I like you too..."

 Time seemed to stand still at this moment, and then I heard my own violent heartbeat, this feeling seemed to belong to me, but I was indeed experiencing, how should I respond to Cha Xiaoqing?

 I knew very well in my heart that I didn't want to go to Germany, not only because of Lao Yu, but also because of the two sisters, Tang Guo and Tang Ning, they are poor people, they are like me, they have no roots and leaves in this city, and I can't suddenly leave Xiamen after promising them to start a business together...

 More importantly: I am not optimistic about this relationship at all; If Cha Xiaoqing doesn't go to Germany, we may be able to try, if I go to Germany with her, it must be the most adventurous thing I have done in my life, I have to rely on her for food and drink, and it has been a long time... Who knows what horror it will become.

 But if you stay in Xiamen, you will be much more down-to-earth... At the very least, they are working towards their goals.

 ...

 After a long period of self-struggle, I decided to ask Cha Xiaoqing if she could give up the idea of going to Germany...