I'm actually pretty average

I looked at Tang Ning, and suddenly felt embarrassed in my heart, saying that the two of us would go to the movies, but Cha Xiaoqing couldn't refuse anymore...

 You can't completely blame me for this, I didn't think that Cha Xiaoqing would be so active, because in my heart, Cha Xiaoqing is an existence of stars holding the moon, Tang Guo is still a goddess, let alone her; So, I seriously underestimated Cha Xiaoqing's enthusiasm, she didn't seem to be quite the same as I thought.

 After weighing the priorities, I finally said to Tang Ning beside me: "Let's go to the movies together another day, I suddenly remembered that there were other things." "

 I thought Tang Ning would be unhappy, but she didn't seem to take it to heart, she first smiled, and then made a "bye-bye" gesture to me, and said, "Then you go and get busy." "

 "What about you?"

 "I'll go around alone, and I'll be back in a while."

 "Okay, stay safe on your way."

 Tang Ning answered, and walked to the bus stop alone; The weather in Xiamen was a little cold, she tucked up her clothes, and looked up again, those passing cars stopped and stopped beside her, and her shadow was reflected on the billboard of the bus stop with the lights, looking a little lonely... But when she noticed that I was looking at her, she still gave me a very warm smile...

 It's so real and it feels familiar.

 I exhaled heavily, then shifted my gaze, and when I looked over again, Tang Ning had already followed the passing No. 56 bus. I lit a cigarette and smoked it as I stared at the tall buildings in the distance, and I seemed to hear the sound of whipping again...

 I don't know when this kind of voice was regarded as a symbol of loneliness by me, and I remembered the weekend when I slept alone until the evening, that is, on that weekend, Cha Xiaoqing broke into my life for the first time...

 At about half past seven, I met with Cha Xiaoqing near the music square, she wore a blue and white coat, which made me feel comfortable, because in Xiamen, my favorite is these two colors, blue symbolizes the sea, white symbolizes seagulls, are the most inseparable feelings in the hearts of men.

 However, as we stood in front of a nearby fancy restaurant, I didn't know how to talk to her, and I couldn't concentrate at all; Supposedly, I must have invited her to dinner, but I was very weak-hearted, because I had no money in my pocket, I had never been to such a restaurant, and I didn't know how much it would cost to eat such a simple meal.

 With such emotions, it is difficult to have a relaxed feeling in the process of getting along.

 "Hmm."

 Entering the restaurant, I sat down on both sides of the table face to face with Cha Xiaoqing, and the waiter brought us two menus... Originally, this was a Western restaurant for foreigners and high-end people...

 The waiter had been waiting for me to order, and I coughed subconsciously...

 Cha Xiaoqing really looked up to me, she didn't know my cultural knowledge and consumption level, which made me feel uncomfortable, I moved again, and then pretended to look at it...

 Over there, Cha Xiaoqing had already ordered, and after she reported a few dish names, she returned the menu to the waiter; I had an idea and said to the waiter, "Give me a copy of what she ordered." "

 The waiter and Cha Xiaoqing looked at me with strange eyes at the same time, which made me feel embarrassed... I just looked at the waiter, not knowing what to say.

 "Are you sure you want the same portion, sir?"

 I snapped back and said, "I'm sure, I didn't make it clear. "

 "But this lady ordered a wellness package specifically for women... Men and women have different physiques, which may not be suitable for you! "

 I swear, I had never experienced such a scene before, because no one around me would take me to eat in such a place with so many rules, and I must have felt ashamed, but in addition to the shame, there was another indescribable emotion that made me feel uncomfortable; At this moment, my expression must be ugly!

 ...

 After a while, I handed the menu to the waiter, and then replied: "To be honest, it's the first time I've come to your restaurant to eat, and I can't understand the menu, but since I've already ordered it, you can give me an exact one... I have always felt that a large part of the conflict between men and women is caused by gender differences... If you want to completely eliminate this contradiction, you should try to understand the other person's living habits... So, let's start with what we eat. "

 The waiter smiled and said, "Yes, sir... Do you need anything else to drink? "

 "Is there boiled water?"

 "There's lemonade."

 "Then please give me a lemonade, thank you."

 After the waiter left, Cha Xiaoqing said to me in an apologetic tone: "I don't know if you can't read the English menu, so you won't come to this restaurant to eat next time." "

 "It's normal that you don't know, we haven't gotten along much in the first place, and you definitely won't know me very well... When we are exposed to the sun, we all manifest ourselves. After a pause, I added, "There aren't that many lucky things in this world... There's no reason why if you meet me, I'll be a handsome, righteous, and knowledgeable man... I'm actually quite ordinary, and I've always lived the life of an ordinary person... I'm really different from you. "

 ...

 After a deep groan, Cha Xiaoqing replied: "You don't need to be presumptuous, you answered the waiter's words just now, it is really decent... Most people simply don't have your ability to adapt on the spot! "

 "I used to be a salesman, so it's a professional skill."

 "I've never seen such eloquence in sales... I think you really have a spirit of neither humility nor arrogance, which is the most rare. "

 I smiled and replied, "I think you're the most perfect woman in the world... Let's not blow each other in business here, let's eat first, and go to the movies after eating. "

 After eating, I wanted to go to the checkout, but I was told by Cha Xiaoqing that this was a restaurant opened by a friend of hers, and this meal was invited to us by her friend... I couldn't verify it, but I still felt in my heart that she was taking care of my face.

 When I arrived at the cinema, I bought a movie package for two people, which included two movie tickets, a coke, and a popcorn.

 After waiting for ten minutes, the movie opened, and Cha Xiaoqing and I walked side by side to the hall...

 Suddenly, I heard someone behind me calling my name, and when I looked back, it was Tang Ning...

 She walked up to me, first looked at Cha Xiaoqing beside me, and then said to me, "Watching movies with friends?" "

 "Well, didn't you say go home and rest?"

 "When I used to open a bubble tea shop, I was busy at night, and I didn't have time to come out to watch movies... While the new bubble tea shop has not yet opened, I want to find a movie to watch, and I haven't been to the cinema for two years. "

 When Tang Ning said this, I felt even more unhappy, I didn't know that this leisure time was such a precious opportunity for her...

 This seems to be a strange circle, I don't know Tang Ning's spare time, just like Cha Xiaoqing doesn't understand me, and this is how the embarrassment between people comes, at this time, I am quite embarrassed.

 Seeing the three of them frozen in place like this, I finally squeezed out a smile and said to Tang Ning: "It's all touched, why don't you watch it together." "

 "I'm Hall Seven, what Hall are you?"

 I took out my movie ticket and looked at it, then replied, "Hall Six next door." "

 Tang Ning shrugged his shoulders and said, "My movie is about to start, I'll go in first." "

 I answered, and Tang Ning entered her No. 7 hall before me and Cha Xiaoqing... When I found out that she was alone, I felt even more unhappy in my heart, and she must have been very unhappy... Because of the same thing, I accompanied Cha Xiaoqing, but I rejected her.

 "Is she your friend?"

 I turned my head to look at Cha Xiaoqing, then nodded and replied, "Well, she is Tang Guo's cousin... It was the three of us who opened a bubble tea shop together. "

 "Yes, no wonder I think she is a bit like Tang Guo."

 In the process of watching the movie, I almost didn't communicate with Cha Xiaoqing, but I also encountered a bad movie, and I lost the desire to watch it after a while, Cha Xiaoqing probably too, halfway through it, she leaned on my shoulder, I turned my head to look, she was already asleep.

 I draped the coat I had taken off over her body, and then gently stroked her hair...

 At this moment, I am like a fisherman floating on the sea, the sea is very stormy, I desperately want to dock, but I feel unwilling, because this time I went to sea, I did not catch a single fish.

 Yes, of course I don't want to give up Cha Xiaoqing just like that, I also tried it, but when she said that Germany is a must-go, my mentality gradually changed, because in this matter, we are already two parallel lines that are destined not to intersect, and I don't want to let myself fall into it, so I will subconsciously avoid her.

 At this moment, I am more sober than ever, what I need most is not a love with an uncertain future, I want to make money, make money hard, I never like to complain about the unfairness of fate to myself, I will only look at the essence of these problems, and money is the most effective means, only it can solve all the troubles on me.

 Cha Xiaoqing should have woken up, she gently grabbed my arm, and then leaned on my shoulder... I quickly put down my hand that was touching her hair, but my heart throbbed for a long time.

 I suddenly wanted to go to the beach...

 Also, that "Fool's Wharf".