My decision alone

At half past seven o'clock in the evening, I met with Cha Xiaoqing at the "Xiangshan International Yacht Marina", she drove the previous favorite Paramela, after parking the car, she walked slowly to my side, and when she approached a little bit, I found that her state was not very good.

 I asked her with concern, "Are you sick?" It feels like you're very unmotivated. "

 "Well, it's a little low-grade fever, I've already taken my medicine, it's fine."

 I looked at her again, she also wore a pair of gloves on her hands, in fact, even in winter, Xiamen is not the kind of cold that is close to the internal organs, she is so afraid of cold, it is a typical symptom of fever, I am a little reluctant not to go, but also a little distressed... I felt that this was a trouble I gave her, and she could have chosen to refuse, and she could come, which shows that she cares too much.

 In this mood, I took off my coat, and then gently draped it over her, and said softly, "Have a casual meal later, and then go back to rest." "

 "I'm fine... Look, is that Zhao Lin and Yu Lei? "

 I looked to the left hand side that Cha Xiaoqing was pointing to, it was really Zhao Lin and Yu Lei, and Lao Yu was also following behind them, this seemed to be a family party, and it was really just my mother.

 In order to facilitate talking, we specially asked for a private room, I sat with Cha Xiaoqing, Zhao Lin and Yu Lei sat on one side, although Lao Yu was sandwiched in the middle, but there were vacant seats on both sides, and he looked lonely, but he didn't care, and tried to liven up the atmosphere, but because Yu Lei didn't wait to see him, he didn't talk to him several times, so he fell silent.

 Speaking of the relationship between Lao Yu and Yu Lei, it is even more difficult to explain... Yu Lei felt that everyone owed him, and Lao Yu was really sorry for everyone, so the relationship with Yu Lei was very stiff, when the two of them quarreled badly, Yu Lei really scolded Lao Yu for "waste" in person, and Lao Yu slapped him for this, and he remembered this slap for five years... That was what happened the night before he went to college, because Lao Yu couldn't pay his tuition, and the two had a fierce quarrel, and since then, he hasn't called Lao Yu "Dad" again...

 And Yu Lei and I are not as close as other brothers... We usually hardly keep in touch, let alone talk about our hearts, so tonight's dinner is supported by Zhao Lin alone.

 Zhao Lin first poured hot water for Lao Yu, me, and Cha Xiaoqing in turn, and then said with a smile: "You all look at the menu, whatever you want to eat, order whatever you want." "

 Yu Lei opened his mouth at this time, he said: "Isn't there a package for five to six people on Meituan, I think it's quite cost-effective..."

 "It's the first time we went to Xiamen to invite the eldest brother and the little sister to dinner, how rude it is to order a set meal... Give me the menu, I'll order it... Big brother, little Qing sister, you don't have any taboos, right? "

 I replied, "Just order a set meal, it's all your own family, you don't have to see it so much." "

 ...

 Saying that, I looked at Cha Xiaoqing, and she also smiled at Zhao Lin: "When a family eats together, the most important thing is the atmosphere, you can eat anything." "

 "Then I'll listen to you."

 While waiting for the food to be served, I took the initiative to ask Zhao Lin, "You said that there is something to discuss with us, what is the matter?" "

 Zhao Lin looked at Yu Lei beside him, and then said to me: "Big brother, Yu Lei and I want to develop in Xiamen, you know, compared with Zhangzhou, Xiamen has more opportunities... I am a public relations servicer, there are almost no decent public relations companies in Zhangzhou, Xiamen has a strong tourism industry, and there are many listed companies, so the quantity and quality of public relations companies are not comparable to Zhangzhou... I want to take a step forward while I'm still young..."

 I thought for a moment and replied, "I think that's a good thing, but you're married, and you're definitely going to have children in the future... You have to think clearly, once you move your career to Xiamen, you have to think about surviving here and buying a house, this pressure is really not something that ordinary people can bear, especially after having children, the pressure will only get bigger and bigger. "

 "Yu Lei and I are still young, and we don't plan to have children in the past few years... What we're worried about now is our mother... She may not understand our choice... That's why I'm here to discuss with you. "

 Before I could speak, Lao Yu smiled, and he said: "Your mother tried every possible way to keep you in Zhangzhou, but she was afraid that you would be uncomfortable, so she drove me to Xiamen alone, but I didn't expect you to come to Xiamen in a hurry... In the end, she became alone in Zhangzhou... People, you still can't be too calculating, you can calculate again, can you count the God? "

 I feel embarrassed inexplicably, Lao Yu is the terminator of the topic, but I can also see that he has complaints about his coming to Xiamen...

 After the embarrassment, I felt a sense of powerlessness in my heart because of this state of detachment and detachment, what kind of messy family relationship is this?

 After a moment of silence, I finally said to Zhao Lin: "You don't have to discuss this matter with me, if you want to come to Xiamen, no one can stop you, but my mother will definitely be unhappy... After Yu Lei graduated from college, she opened her face completely, so she helped him find a job as a physical education teacher in the second elementary school... When you arrive in Xiamen, there is no such connection, how do you plan to solve Yu Lei's work? "

 Yu Lei was immediately unhappy, he glared at me and said, "You speak, why don't I like to listen so much... What do you mean that our mother has put her face out... I have a teaching certificate, so I don't need her to look for it, I can get a job myself! "

 I replied expressionlessly, "Then you can come to Xiamen to find one to try." "

 "Aftertaste, you squeeze me, whatever, I'm better than you as a seller of second-hand cars..."

 Before Yu Lei's words were finished, Zhao Lin said to him sharply: "Yu Lei, shut up for me... If it weren't for the big brother sponsoring you to go to college, wouldn't it be your turn to show off here? "

 "Don't talk about me about it... Do I have to keep my voice down when he sponsors me to go to school? ... I'll pay him back the money, plus interest... Okay, right? "

 If it weren't for Cha Xiaoqing by my side, I really wanted to slap Yu Lei, I couldn't help it, but there was an unprecedented coolness in my heart, I lit a cigarette and smoked silently...

 Suddenly, there was a burst of heat in my hand, it was Cha Xiaoqing under the table, quietly holding my hand, she looked at my eyes, a little distressed... But she is an outsider after all, and she can't interfere in my family affairs.

 Lao Yu sneered twice, and then said to Yu Lei: "If you are really so capable, you will return the money to Yuwei now... I'll calculate for you, for your four years of college, half of the tuition, food, drink, and Lazar are all given by the aftertaste... If you can put this money on the table where we eat, I not only have to look at you, but also have to say to you: Xiamen welcomes you... Come to Xiamen as soon as possible, and when you vacate the house in Zhangzhou, I will be able to go back to Zhangzhou to live... Save the aftertaste every day, live in the aftertaste! "

 Yu Lei looked angry, and said for a while: "This meal is really boring, it's all here to settle old accounts!" "

 ...

 This meal is really embarrassing, and Zhao Lin has tried her best, even if she is doing public service, she can't solve the family conflicts that have accumulated over time; Cha Xiaoqing barely spoke, the more she was like this, the more I cared about her feelings... At the same time, I also felt hopeless in my heart, I was carrying such a family on my back, and I really couldn't bear to harm her.

 Zhao Lin took the opportunity of Yu Lei to queue up to check out, called me aside, and then said to me apologetically: "Today really makes you laugh, you and Sister Xiaoqing don't take it to heart... Actually, there is another reason why I want to come to Xiamen for development... I just want to vacate the house so that my dad can go back to live there... We have a small place, and there is a lot of gossip... Our mother drove our father to Xiamen... Yu Lei and I are about to be told to die by others! "

 "There's nothing wrong with you coming to Xiamen, I'm worried about Yu Lei... He is too immature, and I am afraid that you will have more and more contradictions in the future. "

 "Big brother, don't worry... Since I choose to marry him, I will definitely adapt to him as a person... He's going to mature... Actually, he is the same person as our father, but he has a bad mouth, but he is still quite kind in his heart... So, what he just said to you, you must not take it to heart. "

 "Not so much... When are you going to come to Xiamen? "

 "I've quit my job, and Yu Lei has a little trouble there, but it can be solved... I guess it will take about two weeks. "

 "Hmm... When you arrive in Xiamen, you have to start all over again, you have to be fully mentally prepared, this road is not easy to walk! "

 Zhao Lin smiled and replied: "I have already found a good job, it is the largest public relations company in Xiamen, and the company has a rental subsidy, although there is economic pressure, but it can still persevere... It's up to Yu Lei later, if he can also find a decent job, we should be able to gain a foothold in Xiamen. "

 "I'm hanging!"

 "I still wanted to try it, and I didn't know the results until I tried it... Big brother, our mother's side, I also hope that you can help us do the work, we choose this, she must be very sad. "

 "That's an afterthought, tell me the truth... Coming to Xiamen for development, was it decided by you and Yu Lei, or was it your idea alone? "

 After a period of silence, Zhao Lin replied: "You should know that Yu Lei is a person who can get by... He had to be spurred on by someone behind him before he knew how to move forward... So, that's my decision alone... I am not willing to stay in Zhangzhou, I want to be the best one in the industry I am engaged in, and a small city will only wear down people's will... If I didn't really love Yu Lei, I'm afraid I really wouldn't have married so early... And before marriage, Yu Lei promised me that wherever I go in the future, he will follow him, although this is my own decision, but I am not forcing him. "