EVEN IF IT'S FATE, WE CANT, MY BEAUTIFUL ANGEL

MIKO

Most love stories start when the other character enters the scene and locks eyes for the first time with the main interest.

For me, it started when I first saw Jude. It was through my cousin's phone, and I knew I had to know him. I was a fan before he went viral. When he was scouted and chosen to be part of us, I thought it was a joke.

But here he is, eyes sparkling even as Rin gives him hell.

I can't take my eyes off him, and when he finally turns those baby brown orbs towards me, I am glad I am wearing sunglasses, and he can't see my eyes.

My eyes widen at how captivating and absolutely beautiful he is. he looks like an angel; his soft features make him look almost feminine, but those eyes tell a different story. His black hair is almost covering them, which makes my finger itch to push them aside.

I knew he was captivating, not blaming the girls who were screaming in his comment sections. Seeing him standing right in front of me makes me see how it was understated.

He is not very tall, wearing blue jeans that are ripped at his knees hugging his small frame. The big white shirt, which is unbuttoned with a few of his top buttons, makes him look so cute and boyish. A trait that's so fitting and complementing on him.

This is dangerous, and I stop myself before I go any further about fantasizing about our new member. I cannot make it obvious that I know him or like him, otherwise, rin is going to give me hell.

"shut up, Rin," I stop my friend from giving the new boy any more hard time as I grab him and walk away. Rin needs food and to talk, then he will be good.

The way he doesn't speak, just giving me side glances, tells me that I might not have been as subtle as I had hoped.

"you two seem enamored already," he grumbles as we fasten our seatbelts in the car.

"I don't know what you are talking about." I get in the driver's seat and buckle my belt.

Rin gets on the passenger seat. "Really? Fine. But I don't feel good about this guy. His frail, innocent act isn't making me like him more."

I chuckle as I drive us to our favorite place to eat. "I knew you had problems with having a new member, but I didn't think it would turn personal."

"we started this band, me and you. We have been best friends since we were four. You can't tell me that you aren't bothered by the company deciding to add another person to our band! We have been good all these years!"

Ever since we were signed under a music label, no longer independent, most of the changes that happen are out of our control. We signed off most of the rights of being independent, now belonging to them.

We wanted the fame, the money, and the power of being idols. We aren't there yet, but it's been so good so far. I understand Rin. I felt the same way and still do when it comes to other things, but this is the life we signed up for.

I shrug, something that makes Rin sigh tiredly. "well, I saw his music. He is good." plus, if we are being honest, this is more than him joining us.

"Well, yes, I saw it too. He is good; he is going to complement Andre so well. We have been missing the sound he has in our music," Rin forgets he was supposed to be hating on the new member as he goes on and on about the production. "but that is beside the point!" he huffs, flustered at how he has contradicted himself.

"is it, though? I ask him as I chuckle.

"just don't mess with him."

I swivel my head on him so fast I get neck muscle pain. "what?!"

"he is now a member, and we don't want to have that kind of drama. Keep it in your pants," Rin goes on unperturbed.

"I am not… he isn't even gay. What the hell rin?"

"he will be, for you, with how he was watching you. Keep it in your pants, Miko. We have a lot on the line," Rin insists, and I blow air out of my mouth as I focus on driving.

I hate how right he is. Rin has seen men who swore they loved their girlfriends trip and fall on my feet, so I get where he is coming from.

But still. He should give me more credit.

"I know. I wouldn't do anything to mess us up."

Sure, I am attracted to Jude. I have wanted him since I first saw him, and now he is here with me; it's like fate, but despite the coincidences, I know that nothing can happen between us. Him joining MARS means that he is now part of us, and we have a rule of not messing or getting tangled up with our bandmates romantically.

If we could fall off due to romantic interests, it would affect all of us. We live in the same house and spend all of our time together 24/7. That would be awkward as hell.

Keeping in mind that it's illegal to be in a one-gender relationship in our country. Not to mention, in the contracts we signed, it was forbidden. An idol is all about the fans and fulfilling their visual fantasies apart from the music. Being rumored you are in a relationship would be the death of your career.

We may be signed under a label now preparing to debut, but that doesn't mean that we have as much free will as an ordinary person. Not that I am complaining. I have known that falling in love in this line of work is impossible. It comes with a lot that I am not ready for.

So even if I wanted to, I wouldn't.

My angel has come knocking on my door, yet the world we live in, the world he has now joined, can never let us be together.

Even if it's fated, it can never be.