THE TIME CAPSULE

JUDE 

"what's your name?"

I look at the camera in front of me with a bright smile. "my name is Jude Angel Silvers," I bow a little. "I am a 19-year-old who loves to sing. I love dancing as well, even though I am not very exceptionally good at it."

I am recording a time capsule of some sort, a thing every member has to do on their first day in the life of their idol years.

Woo laughs behind the cameras. "I have seen your dancing skills; I would say you are above average."

My eyes widen, a chuckle slipping out. "thank you. I feel wonderful that you haven't seen some of the older clips then."

"Before coming here, how was your life socially? Any love of your life you have left back home?"

I laugh lightly, crossing my legs as I look down momentarily before facing the camera once again.

 "I have had a girlfriend for two years. She was my first in a lot of things. But we were both young; she left for university in the States while I am here, pursuing my music career."

Woo nods before giving me a thumbs-up and an encouraging smile. None of this is scripted, meant to be truthful since the public will never see it. It's a momento for my future self so I can be honest and raw as much as I want to be.

"what's your greatest wish?"

"mmh," I cock my head to the side, taking a moment to think about it. "My greatest wish is to be a famous rockstar, fall in love with life, meet my soulmate, fall in love, and be in love with them for the rest of my life."

"Are you a romantic?" woo asks me, and I nod.

"Yes, I am a romantic at heart. I do believe in love, although the downside of that is I get easily jealous, and I can be protective of my lover. I don't like sharing," I chuckle, interlocking my fingers before pressing them on my crossed knee.

Woo chuckles at that, shrugging. "how does that show in your day-to-day life?"

"the jealousy?'

"no, being a romantic."

"I have dedicated my life to love. I love love; I am well aware I haven't experienced that earth-shattering love you see in the movies. But that doesn't stop me from believing in it.

"but to answer it on a day to day, I try to give my best even on days it feels like I can barely do anything. When life is hard, I am kind to myself, but that isn't something I remember most of the time," I chuckle, shaking my head as I look down.

"but I do try. I try to love every moment of my life. It's hard, but I try."

"tell me more about that."

"I chose to be more serious about my career and passions because the basis of it all is love. In my music, I express different forms of love. And that means I express everything in life, every emotion.

"you see, even hate is love. Hate is still love if you remove the element of fear in it. Everything is made of love. You and I are made of love. We tend to forget that and let other fear-based things drive us away from the truth. I try to remind myself a little through my passions and actions.

"I don't shy or run away from all other emotions, no matter how ugly or hard it is to acknowledge them. I have to remind myself that love is the answer to everything. That's my purpose, I guess."

Silence ensues in the large recording room, and I chuckle awkwardly. "did I just go on and on?"

Woo looks at me with a strange expression. "no. not at all, it was beautiful. I have never heard that before."

"you think so?" the anxiety that was on the horizon dissolving.

"yes, I would love to hear more about that for sure. It's something I never thought I could hear coming from you."

That makes me laugh. "how so?"

"yes, you look the romantic and hopeful part. But the deep side is a little surprising. You are very wise, hiding it all under the charming and playful persona you have going on," Woo waves his around towards me.

"thank you?" I raise my eyebrows, still laughing. "I don't know how to take that."

"take it as a compliment," Woo shifts in his seat. "so, do you believe in love at first sight?"

 "I do not believe in love at first sight."

"why?"

"There is more to a person than what you see. I do believe in lust at first sight, though," I shrug, and that earns me another round of laughter from Woo and the two cameramen with us.

"do you like people? And are you an extrovert, ambivert, or an introvert?"

"I do like people. I would say that I am an extrovert, although I tend to be more quiet when I am around my loved ones. So what does that make me?"

"I don't know," Woo responds. "so, where do you see yourself five years from now?"

"Five years from now? We have long debuted and are super famous; I think we each have done individual work and collaborated with other big artists. I think I am in love by then, and if not, oh well, that's a little sad. Am I too busy am I too jaded?" that makes me chuckle.

 "What's the reason? At least then I have lots of inspiration then. I can only hope that I will always remember to choose love because love is my muse. Life isn't worth living If there is no love in it, even a speck, even if it's from my pet."

"Are you a pet person? If yes, cat, dog, or what other preferred animal?"

"I am a dog person, but I don't think I can get one. I don't think I am mature enough to take care of another being, fully dependent on me."

"do you think you have a lot to lose now in this line of work?"

"I do have a lot to lose in this life. I have a lot to lose if I don't make it. But I am working on not letting that weigh me down as I move forward here."

"Have you worked on passion projects?"

"Yes, I have a lot of songs and albums, all were geared to make my dreams come true. I think it's working, I think I am doing well, but I feel like I can do more."

"what's your biggest insecurity?"

"The biggest insecurity is feeling like I am not enough like I am not doing enough. I don't know … its something that keeps me awake at night. Are we going to release this to the public? Can we cut that part out?"

Woo only shakes his head. "this is for you. Not for the public."

"Can I see the other members' videos?"

"no. Unless they show you themselves, it's not my place to show you; I just work here."