Lost Memories

**WARNING- This chapter contains heavy drug use.**

Year 0 – Month Three – 9 Months Pre-Apocalypse

Daria's POV

I licked my lips and smiled brightly at Chris as he handed me a bag filled with white powder and ran his other hand through his light brown hair. I had spent the last three weeks buying from him and was so close to being on top of their cluster of silver dots that it was hard to avoid rubbing my hands together in excitement.

Adam turned on my charm, and Chris' blue eyes went cloudy as the liquid film popped with its bright green colour. He has the highest mental ability I have ever seen. My body is building and shaking with anticipation of having him in my world. He is trustworthy, and I have no idea why he is a dealer.

"Thanks, Chris," I giggled coyly, biting my lip and shoving the bag into the back pocket of my jeans.

I lifted my head to see he had taken a step closer to me, but he was hesitating.

"There's a party this weekend. Can you come and see me?" he murmured with a dopey smile.

He's sweet, but I pushed down the pang of guilt that crawled through me. He's too good of a person to be in my horde and easily swayed by me at the drop of a hat. After a few weeks, it's clear he has a big heart; bless him. His "brother" - no blood relation, however, is a scourge on the earth, and my girls don't trust him as fast as they could snort the drugs he brought for them.

Callum hasn't met me before, but he knows who Rain is.

"I'd love to come!" I clapped excitedly and hopped forward with my hands clasped together.

He stepped back instinctively, and the cloudy milk swimming in his eyes disappeared, and he shook his head.

"I'll text you," he mumbled, turning on his heel with his cheeks burning red to disappear down the road.

I sighed and shook my body out as he turned the corner.

"You should have done drama in school," Nexus snickered, slinking from the shadows of the alleyway, wrapping his arm around my waist and pulling me into him.

"I did, but when it came to choosing, the family put their foot down," I shrugged, tracing shapes on his chest as we walked in the opposite direction.

"Orion and I will come with you to the party. Devon isn't sure whether he's known."

I raised a questioning eyebrow at him and smirked. Naughty Devon. When we got back home, the house was filled with people, and a part of me was freaking out at my home being invaded.

"Daria? I have the list of supplies, most of which have reached the 200,000 threshold. I wanted to go to this one to check what is there. It's not written down," Cara stepped up with a frown on her beautiful face and a green nailed finger pointing at the specialised warehouse.

I blinked and put a soft smile on my face, reaching for her slowly and moving a strand of dark brown hair behind her ear.

"Don't panic, Cara. That one is special," I winked at her and had a finger against my mouth.

Her dark brown eyes sparkled, and she nodded quickly and ran to Devon in the kitchen to chat about the food storage and hired chefs. I smiled and went straight up to my study with Nexus, locking the door and turning to him with a bite of my lip.

"Are you ready to play with my brothers?" Nexus asked as he trapped me against the door and licked around my ear.

I shuddered and moaned, slipping down the door and grinding into him.

"Devon's first," I moaned back, "that mind-reading skill will be interesting to get around."

His hand slipped under my top, his fingers trailing up my skin and leaving a burning heat. I opened my mouth to moan, and he slipped his tongue into my mouth and swallowed the sounds. Instead of slipping under my bra, his hand reached around and unclicked it, to my gasp of surprise.

"How did it happen?" he murmured between kisses.

"He went down on me on the desk," I groaned, his hand cupped my breast and squeezed, "I was at the climbing centre with Orion. How will we?"

"Don't worry, we will go with the girls and take Devon to keep an eye out."

"You've been thinking about this a lot. Does that mean I can have you inside me now?"

"So eager, mmm," he grabbed my waist and guided me across the desk, pulling my top over my head and slipping my bra from my shoulders, "Trust me, when you remember, you'll be happy about this," he looked directly into my eyes, and I could see the assurance.

I hate that there are blank spots I can't see. Devon tried to search for them, but it was as if they were gone and never happened. They did happen because Nexus had them, and Devon had seen them. He's been a little distant from me since, and I'm not sure if I did something wrong. 

Nexus leaned forward and sucked on my nipple while his other hand played with my other breast. I smiled lazily and moaned, my body lowering flat as he followed me.

"You did nothing wrong. He's feeling guilty for not helping you back then," Nexus sighed and blew on my chest, smiling as I shivered and smacked his back.

"Is it that bad?" I asked sadly.

"It's both bad and good," he replied with a frown, "There was nothing we could do about it. Never feel guilty; it's Craver's fault."

I sighed and ran my hand through his hair. His body lay on its side as he traced around my chest and down my stomach. He stopped at my jeans and popped the button with a sly smile. My breathing rose with the sound of the zipper falling, my hand freezing in his hair.

Nexus's hand flattened against my lower stomach, sliding into my red underwear and cupping against my hot mound. He used his free hand to pull my jeans down from the side, and his hand in my pants forced my underwear and jeans down to my knees. My head dropped against the desk, and I stared at the white coffered ceiling.

"No, look at me," he teased, pressing his hand lightly against my clit.

I gasped and lifted my head a little, but the intake of breath didn't stop, and Nexus froze, his eyes filling with worry as he stared at me, and I dropped my head back against the desk with a sharp crack.

"Daria!"

'Daria? Daria? Something is wrong. I can connect to the internet.'

I couldn't move, speak, or think, and my world snapped and fell into a black hole that turned everything into an endless dark space.

Lost Memory One

I was thrown into a white room, sliding across the floor and into the arms of a man I did not know. I held onto him, my nails digging into his skin as I sat there in his tanned, muscled arms, frazzled and too hot. I looked around the room, snapping my head lazily. A bed in the corner hung from the wall like one of those invisible shelves, and behind us was a wall with one long window mirror.

"They're watching us," I slurred, my head hitting his shoulder.

"Fuck, what did they give you?" he hissed, carrying me to the bed and laying me down on it.

"They give me a lot," I giggled, remembering the nurse and her tray of pretty coloured needles, "I'm so hot," I cried, pulling my patient issue top over my head and flinging it across the room.

The man turned bright red and turned away from me. Those bright green eyes were so familiar.

"You look like someone I used to know," I sighed, running my hand down his back, a sly smile gracing my lips as he shuddered beneath me, "Do you like that?" I giggled, turning on my side with some effort and shuffling closer to him.

I ran my hand down his back and slipped it around his waist. He stopped my hand before I slipped it into his boxers.

"They've drugged us. We won't be able to stop," he shook with his hand on mine, burning hotter than the sun.

"You're hot. Take it off," I ordered, using my free hand to pull his top up.

He pulled it off the rest of the way, breathed a sigh of relief, and stayed turned away from me.

"This isn't right," he grumbled, and I bit my lip and let go of him to pull my trousers off to sit there in my underwear, "they're watching us, D."

"Then we better give them a good show. Nexus I'm so wet, and I need help," I whimpered, my eyes were rolling, and I couldn't see him anymore.

I started panting, and the spikes of pleasure were hitting me in my most sensitive areas. I reached for him with both hands and forced him to move under my panties and cup my heat. I sighed as his finger brushed against my clit, and the hard swallow of his saliva made me smirk as his fingers moved in a slow circular motion.

"You remember me," he whispered, turning on the bed and swapping his one hand for his other, much colder hand.

"I do. We used to play together as kids. Now, we are adults. Shouldn't we play as adults do?" I smirked at the brilliant white room - these drugs are wild.

The brilliant white began to calm down as he lay down next to me, and I turned to him and blinked a few times. The effects of these drugs remind me of a memory from school. Nexus leaned into my neck and kissed me on the nape.

"A little closer to my ear," I moaned, shivering as he followed my instruction and sucked under my ear lobe.

I moaned into his hair and slowly turned onto my other side while grabbing his hand and guiding it to my breasts.

"This is my favourite position," he groaned, burying his face into my neck and pressing himself flush into the back of my body with a sigh.

"I don't have a favourite yet," I giggled with a low moan.