Chapter 5

SAM:

I woke up feeling heavy in my head, but then I felt

something warm around my waist, and behind me, I

looked down and found a pair of hands around me, I

freaked out and trued to escape but then I felt the

person sleeping behind me, so I gently turned around

to see who was with me, I met a sleeping face of Alex

and I was both astounded and happy, a kind of joy I

never experienced before, I squealed inside, Alex just

slept by my side, how? But then I remembered that he

came yesterday and I passed out on seeing him, I'm

glad he didn't leave, this made me love him even more,

my gaze EBT towards his lips, and I felt the sudden urge

to kiss them, but I decided not to, as I was busyadmiring him, he woke up, startling me in the process,

to the point I kissed him, I was shocked and I moved

away, I saw him smiling, and I wondered I he liked the

kiss,

"Good morning, Sam"

, he said, I smiled and

replied him, He let go of me and I felt empty, I wanted

him to hold me again, but this time, we would be

cuddling each other, disappointed I stood up making

way for him to also do thesame,

"Where's mom and

dad?"

, I asked, noticing the house being awfully quiet,

"They actually went to meet my horse, and spend some

time with him, I nodded, we went to see them but

realized they weren't there, I looked up at Alex worried,

but he smiled,

"Maybe they took it out on a stroll"

, he

said but I knew he was also worried, he made me feel

relaxed even when he was worried, I don't know how he

does it, but I love that about him. Just then, it dawned

on me that it was just the two of us that are going to be

in the house, alone, I was both anxious and excited, he

seemed to be too, so he held me, and took me inside

the house saying that I should rest, I told him I was fine

and he left me,

"So, now what?"

, I asked looking at him,

he was looking towards the hills, and I didn't think he

would be more cute, but then he looked at me and our

eyes locked,

"I don't know, you?"

, I didn't know what to

respond, I was feeling a weird movement in my insides,

just by looking at his eyes, but then, he moved closer, I

was starting to freak out, so I slowly retraced my steps

until I hit a pole, he kept coming closer, I saw his eyes

move from my eyes to my lips, and I froze, was he going

to kiss me?, he stopped when our faces were only

inches apart, I didn't know what was wrong with me,

wasn't this what I wanted?, I thought to myself as heleaned in to kiss me, I pushed him away, and he seemed

to recover himself, I felt stupid just for doing that, now

he is going to hate me,

"I'm sorry, I guess I went too far"

,

I hated myself for not kissing him,

"Alex..." I tried to say,

but he cut me off,

"It's okay, Sam I made a mistake"

, he

turned to leave but I held him back, if I let him leave,

there's apart of me that's scared he won't ever come

back, so as I held his hand I thought he would turn back,

but he just stood, not saying anything. Just then, spirit

was heard at a distance, and I knew that he was going

to leave soon, as I was about to say something, he said,

"I came here for two things, but I guess I'll only do one,

Chelsea wanted to come over with me, but I didn't let

her, I told her I would tell you to come see her, her

birthday is a few days from now, and I wanted you to

come see her as her birthday gift, that is..."

, he looked

back smiling,

"...if you want"

, I felt him hold my hand

tighter, just before he left it,

"I would love to"

, my

parents were getting closer and Alex was moving

farther away from me,

"Alex..." I called and ran to him,

he smiled and looked back,

"Bye Sam, see you on

Chelsea's birthday. I'll come by to pick you up so we

can go"

, I was sad he left I knew he smiled but he was

hurt inside, I made him feel that way, I feel so stupid

that I just couldn't move, I just watched him, greet my

parents, got on his horse and went home. I ran inside

thinking of how to make it up to him, cause I feel that

my actions today might ruin my chance to be with Alex,

I had to fix this, but how?, and then it hit me, Chelsea's

birthday party, I'll make it up to him then, I smiled and

the weird movement in my stomach started, my

parents came and asked me how the day wentALEX:

'I feel so stupid, how could I take advantage of her

when she was vulnerable, she pushed me away so now

she thinks I'm trying to play her, I don't want her to

think that of me, maybe she hates me now, I knew I was

going to mess this up before it even started'

, I thought

to myself as I rode home, I couldn't stop thinking about

her, I was just waiting for Chelsea's birthday to arrive,

so that I can tell her how I feel.

I reached home, Chelsea was already outside, she ran

to me on seeing me,

"So, is she coming?"

, she asked her

face beaming, I smiled and nodded, she squealed and

jumped, danced and yelled yes, I'm glad she didn't ask

me when sam was coming. I took spirit to the stable

and went with Chelsea to the house, Chelsea told my

parents the good news, they looked at me, and I just

nodded, but I knew what those looks were about, I

thought of telling Sam about my feelings but the

thought that she'd reject me like she did at her house,

just the thought made me shiver, so I thought it would

be best if I ignored her and forget all this ever happened,

I'm only going to her house because of Chelsea, I

managed to convince my mind, but how long would it

take before the truth reveals itself.