Chapter 35 - Mica and Calix 4.0

Mica's POV

*Continuation of Flashback...*

He didn't come. How many times like this? We talked about meeting at our meeting place but he didn't come.

I don't know what he is doing. He also does not answer my calls and texts. There are also rumors that he has another woman.

But I don't believe it. That's a different Calix. There are many Calix in our school, but I only have one Calix and he is not the Calix they say.

"Mica..." I looked at the person who called me. It's Ella.

She smiled at me so I did that. That's how we are, no need to talk, just look and smile is enough.

"How are you? Why are you the only one here?" She asked while looking around the room.

"Calix didn't come." I answered.

Ella looked away. I feel she has something to say. Maybe, I will talk to her.

"Let's have lunch together." said her.

I smiled and nodded. I miss her too. My attention has always been on Calix lately. Maybe because of the rumors going around the school.

Ella and I ate in silence. It's a bit awkward but it's okay. I don't want to talk about that issue either.

"You know... Keifer confessed to me." She said.

I stopped and looked at her

"S-seriously?"

She nodded at me. "It's okay, it's been a long time but she's a mess so this just cleared everything up."

"Do you like him?"

She bent down and bit his lip. "Yes."

"Why are you sad?"

It's like the depth of his thoughts.

"Yuri also confessed to me. That's the reason why the two don't talk."

I stopped. If my situation is difficult, Ella's is even more difficult. Two men are fighting because of her.

"What are you planning?"

Ella's face fell. "I don't know. I like Keifer but I don't want to hurt Yuri."

That is difficult. You don't want to be hurt but you don't want them to get hurt too.

I hope my problem is the same.

"Isn't there anything else?! That's the dish again?" Calix complained while pushing away the baunan.

"But this is your favorite, right?"

"Back then, of course I would get bored quickly if that was always the dish."

I put the bag away. "I'll buy you.."

"Don't stop! That's just a cost!"

"But you need to eat."

"Tsk! I'm still full. Let it go!" He answered me and walked away.

In the past, whenever we met, he was always hot-headed. I don't even call him Baby anymore. There is another rumor about him.

I don't know where it came from but they are not true. I looked under the table. The letter I left for him is still there.

When we get confused, I just leave a letter for him and I'll text him where it's written.

I have a strong feeling that he doesn't read my letters anymore. I just sat on the bench.

What is happening to him?

His behavior seems to have changed. I no longer accompany him home when I see him at the gate.

I don't know what to do.

"One... Two... Three... Four..."

Calix counted the money in his hand. We are now at their house. He has already broken his habit. He said he was going to buy shoes.

"Tsk! It's still not enough." He said.

"How much less?" I asked.

"About 3k more... Maybe it won't reach my birthday."

I was about to take money from my wallet but he stopped me immediately.

"Don't continue... Whatever you're thinking." He said.

I pouted. I really want him to help me buy his shoes.

"That's it.. I'll just buy your shoes. My present for your birthday."

He would have refused but I took the lead.

"It's a gift... So don't think about it."

He smiled at me and hugged me. "Thank you Baby..."

he's still my Calix. I know it's still him.

Calix and I are already monthsary. I just organized a simple celebration here at our meeting place. I bought a small cake, and prepared a carbonara. Because it's his favorite.

I also made a new Love Letter. I'm sitting and waiting for him. Maybe he will be late for a few minutes.

20minutes....

Maybe they just did something for a while.

30 minutes....

I texted him to tell him that I'm here at our meeting place.

40minutes.....

He is still not there so I called him. That's why he doesn't answer.

50minutes.....

The bell rang, but he was still not there. Maybe I won't go in first. I will still wait for him.

1hour.....

Still nothing. But I know he will come. Maybe he just has a lot

doing.

3hours....

Just one subject to go home. Maybe he will attend class first.

4hours....

Go home. Maybe he's on his way here.

4hours & 30 minutes.....

Maybe Ms. just cleaned them. Smith of the room.

5hours....

I called him again but he didn't answer. where is that

6hours....

It's getting dark outside.

7hours....

He will not come. Obviously not anymore. I'm just the naughty one who insists that he go.

Am I stupid?

I put away what I prepared. I don't want to cry but I can't help it.

Why is he doing this to me? It would have been okay if he was doing something, but Ella texted me. Calix is said to just go in and out of the room.

He seems to be back home. I didn't even text him or say hello. I didn't congratulate him either.

I love Calix, but it hurts too much.

Tomorrow.....

I texted Calix to meet at our meeting place. He agreed. I brought the love letter that I was supposed to give to him yesterday.

I must have been walking around the room for a few minutes when I heard things moving.

I would have gone out to look but there was no need. From the dilapidated window, I saw him----them.

Calix, with another girl and they kiss.

It's like someone stabbed me in the heart. I can't breathe and I have something in my stomach. My knees and arms became soft.

I fell to my knees and let go of my grip. My tears fell on their own. Why? Why Calix?

It hurts so much. No words can explain how much pain I feel. I just want to cry and cry.

Ella is right. I should have listened to him for the first time. I should have avoided Calix. I shouldn't have to rely on him alone and not look for anyone else.

I was wrong! I'm smart but I've been stupid here. Too much pain! I just want to die so it's over.

I feel them stop. I forced myself to stand up and settle down. I composed myself and turned my back to the door where Calix entered.

"M-mica... Have you been there for a while?" He asked me.

I took a deep breath first. "Calix... Let's break."

"H-huh? W-what are you saying there?"

I heard his footsteps coming closer to me.

"Stay there! Don't come near me!"

"What's going on with you?" He followed the height of my voice.

"I don't want to... I'm fed up." I almost whispered the pronunciation.

I can't seem to...

"Did something happen?! Let's talk about it first."

"W-nothing... I want to finish this."

My tears are starting to fall again.

"Mica... Why?"

I took a deep breath. It hurts me but it hurts more if I continue.

"I-I don't love you anymore."

I quickly walked out. I bumped into him but I just kept going.

I don't want to anymore. I don't want to love him.

Passing their building, I ran quickly. I don't want to go in. I don't want them to see me like this.

I went straight home. The letters that I was planning to give him, are still scattered in my room.

I tore it all up. At the same time, my tears were obviously not going to stop falling.

Why is he still?

What is it with him and he is the one I loved? I just admired him before. I didn't ask him to give me attention.

I just want to be close to him. I would not have given that love letter.

It shouldn't have come to this.