Chapter 190 - Open Ears

Jay-Jay's POV

I wanted to leave the room. I wanted to open the door and step my foot out. I wanted it because I was hungry.

I couldn't have dinner anymore because of what I found out. I thought my hunger would go away because of what happened but my stomach doesn't want to sympathize with the drama of my life.

But I'm afraid, I'm afraid that when I open the door I will find out another secret.

Maybe I have a twin that I don't know about?!

I looked at the time on the wall clock, 11:39pm. I'm sure the people at home are asleep but even so I'm still scared.

My stomach rumbled loudly. As if shouting 'Kingina! Feed me!". I can't sleep this hunger, I didn't eat properly this afternoon.

Even against my heart, I turned the doorknob and slowly pulled it closer to me. I peeked outside for a moment, the lights were off. I took my phone and used its light to serve as a beacon on my way.

Deep in the torch!

Every step I take is slow----wait! I look like a thief in what I do! I sped up and went straight to the kitchen. I even saw some of the maids entering their rooms.

I turned on the light when I got to the kitchen. It's still a long way off but I'll see my income that will give me life. The one who will cure the pain I feel. The one who will make my sad heart happy.

The refrigerator!

This is a portal that will take me to a strange paradise. I opened the refrigerator door and I was appalled by what I saw. There are a lot of leftover dishes and there is more cake!

I first took a dish and heated it in the microwave. While waiting, I looked for something to eat. I even saw Chuckie that made me laugh a little.

Pffttt... Bata!

I know whose Chuckie that is. It's Kuya Angelo's, he often drinks it when he's stressed. I keep thinking if I can take it because Kuya might get angry. But he won't know who.

My smile became wide. I took one and shook it. I was about to remove the straw stuck to the back when I looked at the kitchen door. Aries was looking at me with crossed arms while there was no reaction.

I quickly returned the Chuckie to the fridge and closed it. I went back to the microwave to look at what I was heating. I heard his footsteps approaching my place.

I was nervous for a reason I couldn't understand. I couldn't move and felt like I was going to pass out. I just felt his presence behind me so I closed my eyes.

I waited for him to say or do something. When I realized there was nothing, I opened my eyes again and saw his finger closed to the microwave. He pressed something and his inside lit up at the same time as it hummed.

The fool! I forgot to press the choices.

I scratched my head and looked at him. He is no longer behind me. He took a cup and made coffee. I looked back at the microwave when it rang. First I got a plate to sift it.

I thought he was going to leave after making coffee but he still stayed there, near the sink. After getting what I needed I started eating. I look like I don't know because I glance at him with every bite.

He doesn't look at me so I don't know if he noticed me. While continuing to eat, what happened earlier played over and over again in my mind. It feels strange.

But I'm just wondering about something. His age and mine are the same. I'm sure we're not twins because my older brother is a year older than me. I was confused.

"Stop looking at me." He said that made me stop thinking.

"S-sorry..." I almost whispered. "...Ari----what else should I call you?"

I want to slap myself for asking. Seriously?! He raised an eyebrow causing me to bow.

"Nothing will change." He said emphatically.

Okay.... Still Aries. Aries the horoscope! How is Taurus?

I can't really forget our age. I don't want to discuss such things with him because everything is still fresh, but I can't help but ask.

"Aries... W-why are we the same age?"

He raised an eyebrow again. At the same time looking at me intently while drinking from the cup. I even overcame raising an eyebrow. He just needed to shave his to make it straight.

He lowered the cup he was holding and sighed. His eyes were lifeless when he looked at me.

"I'm a year older than you. I was told that we're the same age so you don't think I'm your Big Brother." He explained it.

I just nodded suddenly accepting what he said. That's why he used to laugh at me when I wished him on his birthday, because the age I was saying was wrong.

I felt sad. Even then, he really didn't want to let me know. I don't know the story of why he was adopted. Our relatives say that it is for the good of both of us.

But it was not good.

I didn't speak anymore. He finished drinking coffee and left. I was left alone staring at the food in front of me.

This is annoying! I know he hates me. A big part of me is sad because we can't get along despite what we went through but I also have a grudge against him. I think of him as a cousin that's why I just let him go and answer when I have the chance.

But now that I know the truth, I wanted the two of us to get along. Even if it's not like before, at least we know that we're okay. I don't even know him as a brother, that's fine with me.

I held back the tears that were coming to my eyes. I finished the meal immediately and washed the food. I also washed what Aries drank.

I turned off the light and quickly returned to my room. I cleaned my body first before finally lying on the bed. My mind was blank until I fell asleep.

I woke up to a loud knock in my room. It's like I have an enemy looking for me. No one spoke, just knocking.

Nice to wake up!

"Wake up!" I screamed so annoyed that the knocking stopped.

Sweetie! In the morning, that lintik will turn yellow. Knock like there's no tomorrow. I jumped up. The first thing I looked at was my cellphone, wondering.

I felt sad. My breath became deep. Until now he still does not answer my texts. His cell phone is turned off when I called.

Shit! Keifer...

I stood up and went straight to the bathroom. I'm ready to have breakfast. When I left the room, Aries also came out of his room. I looked at him blankly before walking away.

Before, when I looked at him like that, I just made him suffered. But now it's like it's heavy inside.

When it comes to Dining, Mama's voice dominates the laughter and storytelling.

"Good morning Jay!" She greeted me with a smile.

Nothing good in my morning!

"Good morning too." I answered before sitting down.

My opposite is Aries who starts eating. It's like he doesn't care about the people around him. The mouthful is bent and one after the other.

I also started eating and acting indifferent to those around me. But I still listened to their conversations.

"They'll be okay too... That's it." Mom said.

"I don't think so. Look at them." Grandma said and I could feel them looking at us.

Aries and I looked up at the same time and our eyes met. I immediately avoided looking at Grandma.

"W-why?" I asked out of spite.

They just smiled at me. They really have the power to fool. Obviously we are their topic. They feel that Aries and I will be okay because I know the truth.

But they just feel that.

Aries finished eating first. We almost followed each other that's why we also walked back to our rooms.

We were a few steps closer to his room but suddenly he stopped. I looked at him curiously but I didn't face him.

"Stop it." He said that made me wonder. "...Don't expect anything like them. We will never get along."

He didn't wait for my answer. He quickly walked and entered his room. I was tied there while looking somewhere.

Don't I hope?

I shook my head before walking back to my room. I took a quick shower and got dressed. I can still see the scars I got from yesterday's accident. Every muscle in my body aches but I'm used to it.

Benefits of always getting into fights!

I was walking to the living room when I heard Kuya's angry voice and Aries complaining.

"I don't want to!" Aries said annoyed.

"Follow my orders, if you don't want me to take your car back from you!" Kuya Angelo answered.

Kuya looked at me when he saw me.

"Go with Aries." Kuya ordered me.

"Ha?"

"Come with him. You'll go in together again and if possible even go home."

I see Aries messing with his hair. He couldn't do anything so he quickly walked out straight to the garage.

"Why? What for?" I asked Kuya to make sure Aries was out.

"Maybe what happened to you yesterday will happen again. It's good that you're safe." He answered and walked away.

Safe! Ulowl... Who did you fool?

They just make a way for us to be close and get along. They are just wasting effort. I walked out, intending to just run away from Kuya's orders.

My heart is already heavy because of my problem with Section E. Then it got worse when I found out the truth. Whatever they are planning, they should stop. I'm just having a hard time.

I stopped at the gate of the house when I saw Aries' car stopped. The window on the driver's seat door went down and his scowling face appeared.

"Ride." His order.

"Don't... I have something else to go through." I had no answer and started walking.

I hadn't gone far when I heard the loud horn of his car. When I looked, his car was behind me. He is tightly clinging to the steering wheel and is obviously irritated.

"Ride!" He screamed in annoyance.

My breath became deep. I approached the door of the back seat and opened it. I immediately got in and closed the door..

I know he doesn't want me to be in his car so I chose to sit in the back seat. I could feel his irritation with me but I chose to look at the road.

He started the car and the only noise that could be heard was the two of us breathing.

Annoying!

He doesn't do anything but it hurts me. Or maybe I'm hurt because he doesn't do anything. I'm used to him yelling at me in anger and annoyance but now he's quiet....

Kingina! I feel so worthless.

Aries' car stopped, a corner before reaching the school. He didn't say anything but I knew what he meant. I willingly got out of his car and let him go to school first.

Only car smoke was left in front of me when he left. Smoke is even better! Haaayyy...

I walked to school. I just looked at the students who were looking at me at the gate.

"She was really embarrassed!"

"She wasn't even defended."

"Poor thing."

The students murmured. I immediately got a clue why they were looking at me. Rumors spread like wildfire so I wouldn't be surprised.

With what happened to me yesterday, I'm not in the mood to understand them. What happened to me was too heavy. Just think if I listened to each of their comments that won't help me.

To be honest, I was afraid to go in. I am afraid because of Keifer's anger. I'm scared because I don't know how to deal with each of them.

I'm afraid....

Arriving at our building, I felt first. They were quiet and it looked like nothing was going wrong....but that's just what I thought.

"Tell me the truth!" David shouted.

I was next to the door when I heard that. I stopped and listened to what they were talking about for a while.

"Don't order Keifer!" Rory replied. "...He will say it too. All that is needed is the right time."

"I feel sorry for Jay-jay." Ci-N said which made my heart beat faster.

Did it?! Really?!

"It was said that that plan has been stopped!" Eman shouted angrily.

"It's as if you're one of the leaders of that sneaky plan!" Denzel replied.

Flat?!

What they say is mixed in my mind. I'm confused! I don't understand what they are talking about. About me, in a plan and they want me to know the truth because they feel sorry for me.

"Just say it properly and then we'll apologize." Blaster said.

"It's just that easy, what?" Drew said sarcastically.

"Jay-jay will never forgive us." Yuri said.

"We will request her." Rory said.

"It's not that easy." Edrix replied.

I am very confused by what they are saying. I want to know the truth, I don't want this anymore. Do the people around me always have something to hide?

I hit the moon when I stepped into the room. They all looked at me with shock. I tried to hide my emotions. My eyes fell on Keifer who didn't react.

"J-jay-jay...." They called me in a whisper.

They are all complete. Kit with a swollen face is also here.

"W-what's true? What's the plan?" I asked weakly.

I wanted to know the truth but I don't seem to wanted to either. There is the fear, the fear that I will be hurt again by what I will find out. My hunch is strange.

They all looked at Keifer. He had no emotion, crossed his arms while leaning straight in his chair.

"What's the plan? What's the truth?" I repeated the question while not taking my eyes off of him.

Speak up!

"Keifer... Speak now." Yuri please talk.

"Keifer! Say it!"

"Speak up!"

"What is that plan? What is true?" I repeated and this time my voice cracked.

Damn it! Say it!

He remained without reaction and looked at me. It's like he doesn't care about what's happening around him. It's like he doesn't care about me.

Tears start to form in my eyes. Every breath I took is deep because of the blockage in my throat. I feel like I'm being choked.

"Keifer! WHAT IS THAT PLAN?!" I screamed as my tears fell.

I couldn't control my emotions. I'm struggling with what he's doing just staring at me and not moving. It was obvious that the others were also shocked by my reaction but they chose to look away.

"You sure you want to hear it?" Keifer asked seriously.

I tried to hold back my tears and nodded to him. His smile became bitter as he shook his head. His mouth slowly opened but I didn't hear a voice or any noise from others. It was like I suddenly became deaf and there were a few seconds before what he said completely sank in.

"I used you."

I remained dumbfounded, waiting for what he would say next. A group of tears fell from my eyes again.

'...and the whole Section E knows it."

The feeling of beating my heart with no resistance. All I could do was cry and stare.

U-used?

Keifer stood up and slowly walked towards me. "I used you to get revenge on your cousin----oh wait! It's your brother."

I trembled at what he said. Does he also know about it? They all know too? how? How did that happen?! And why am I the last to know?

I shook my head while still staring at him. His facial expression did not change.

"I-I can't t-understand." My lips trembled.

Keifer stopped a few feet near me. Our eyes met and that's when I noticed his cold and dark eyes. If I looked at it now, it's the same as when we first met.

"Then I'll explain it to you." He said Calmly "... The moment Aries show up in front me, acting that he cares for you the plan started----to be exact? That was the time that we make fun of you at the gymnasium."

That's when they hit me with the ball. My nose bled and before my vision went dark, Aries came to stop me and ask me to go home.

"...We make sure we have your information----thanks to Rory here." I looked at Rory but he immediately ducked to avoid me. "...We found out that you and Aries are siblings."

Come on! They know!

He suddenly smirked and suddenly his aura changed. I can't tell if he's angry or if he's planning to do something.

"...but the plan has no use. That asshole don't care about you and my revenge is useless." He said and laughed slightly.

It's like a different Keifer I'm facing now. The eyes are dark and full of anger.

"K-keifer... T-that's right." Yuri weaned.

My legs and feet were stiff from standing. I wanted to think that what he says is just a 'Joke'. But no, he doesn't joke and he doesn't like to joke.

My tears keep falling, so my cheeks are wet. I can't even wipe it off. It felt like something heavy was running through my chest.

"Y-you only used me? D-does that include making me love you?" My voice almost didn't come out because of what was happening.

I don't want to ask that question, I'm afraid of what he will answer but I still wanted to know the truth. I hope my mind is wrong.

He suddenly laughed as if I said something funny. He walked back to his table.

Maybe it's all just a joke. They must have tripped me up. Maybe he's just getting back at me.

Maybe after he laughs, he'll say the line I'm waiting for----Just kidding, you're funny because you're annoyed. And he will say that he couldn't do that because he loved me.

I hope everything I'm thinking is right because I know it's not. My heart completely broke when he spoke after laughing. And the words let go of what changed everything for me.

"Of course it's part of my plan."

Why!

I covered my mouth from crying loudly. I don't care about my appearance anymore. I also fell back due to knee tenderness and grabbed onto one of the tables.

GET OUT! THIS IS NOT A JOKE! HE BELIEVED IN ME THAT HE LIKES ME TOO! HE LET ME FALL ON HIM! HE UST USED ME! ARGH!

YOU'RE STUPID JAY! YOU ARE STUPID AND HE BELIEVED YOU!

"Jay..." Yuri called me and was about to approach me but I looked at him evilly.

"You know?" I stopped asking. "...You were part of the plan?"

Yuri stopped approaching me. His tongue seemed to retract and he could not speak. He couldn't even deny it with a simple shake. I cried a lot because of his reaction.

ALL OF THEM!

I looked at Ci-N. He is also crying while looking at me and seems to be pitying me.

"Are you an accomplice too?" My question softens.

He cried while trying to wipe away the tears. "I-I'm sorry, Jay."

That's why he apologized to me before, because of this. They are just starting to do something stupid to me. I can't believe the amount of trust I gave them.

I also looked at the others but they all looked away. David just stared at me for a long time. But even with him I have a grudge..

Did I do something wrong?! Why do I have to be played with like this?!

I looked back at Keifer who didn't have any expression. I don't even see a trace of pity or remorse for what he did.

"W-why Keifer? W-why?"

He didn't answer. I can't stand it any longer in front of him, in front of all of them. What's the point of me crying in front of them? Even though my knees were shaking, I forced myself to walk away.

"Jay! Wait!"

"Jay-jay."

"Come on! Jay!"

I was out the door when I felt someone grab my arm. I immediately shook it and looked at him evilly.

"What else do you need?!" I asked Yuri angrily.

"I-I'm sorry..." He took a deep breath. "...Please. Let me exp----.

"Don't even try!" I wiped my cheek. "...You two really are best friends! You're good at manipulating!"

"Jay... Believe me, we're sorry----."

"So you admitted it?! Because your conscience is eating you!"

I looked behind him when I noticed Ci-N following him. He is still crying. I wanted to pity his appearance, but I can't.

"You're another..." I shook my head. "...I considered you a brother and then you came out this."

"Jay... I'm sorry." He said.

I also saw others looking at us. I looked at them evilly until I stopped at Yuri.

"That's enough..." I almost whispered and immediately ran away.

I endured pain and muscle aches in my legs and thighs. But nothing seems to hurt more than what I feel. The word crushed is not enough to describe how painful it is.

I can hear Yuri arguing in the back. They seem to be trying to follow me but others are stopping me. I sped up, I was near the school gate when I saw Aries looking at me.

They wanted to get revenge on him...

I experienced all this, because of him. Because they want to retaliate. They used me to get revenge on him.

BUT BECAUSE OF HIM, I EXPERIENCED IT!

The pain I feel at the same time. My vision is blurring from tears. I don't know if I got out of the gate but a loud horn stopped me as a car approached.

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