What If?

Nora shut the door to her chambers with more force than necessary, the echo ringing through the quiet room. The moment she was alone, she let out a slow, shuddering breath, her hands trembling at her sides.

She had been clinging—desperately—to the hope that the book had been wrong. That her own knowledge of this story had been twisted, unreliable. That somehow, Caspian would not make the same choices he had made in those ink-stained pages.

But there was no denying it now.

He had left her at the ball.

He had gone home to Lacey.

And now, she was once again the one left behind.

She turned toward the vanity, her reflection flickering in the dim candlelight. Her face was pale, her lips pressed into a tight line, but her eyes—her eyes held something darker. A glimmer of something sharp and unreadable.

Her gaze drifted to the book.

It sat where she had left it, resting on the vanity like an unspoken challenge. The pages that had once revealed the entire story to her were now cruelly selective, giving her only pieces—only the parts meant to hurt.

With hesitant fingers, she reached for it.

The pages flipped easily, stopping at the place they always did.

She recognized the words instantly.

Chapter Fifteen

"A Night of Freedom"

She swallowed hard, her heart pounding as she read.

Caspian, Lacey, and their child, hidden beneath simple garments, slipping out into the city under the cover of darkness. Lacey laughing at something Caspian whispered in her ear, their hands brushing in the way of old lovers—instinctual, effortless.

The child, wide-eyed with wonder at the world beyond the manor walls, clinging to Caspian's hand as if he were the safest place in existence.

And Caspian—her husband—watching them both with a look of quiet contentment. A look of belonging.

Nora's fingers tightened around the book's edges.

She read it again. And again.

Until the words were burned into her mind. Until she could hear the echo of Lacey's laughter, see the glint of warmth in Caspian's gaze.

She had imagined this moment before. Had imagined what it would be like to confront this reality—to see the man she had loved choose another, to watch as history repeated itself.

But imagining it had done nothing to prepare her for this.

The nausea rose so quickly she had to press a hand against her stomach, her breath coming in shallow gasps.

"Why?"

She didn't know if the question was for Caspian, for herself, or for the damned book that continued to unravel her world piece by piece.

With a sharp, tearful exhale, she snapped it shut, as if that could banish the truth it held.

But the truth was already inside her. Lodged deep beneath her ribs, poisoning her from within.

She wiped at her face with trembling hands, her breath uneven.

Then, slowly, her thoughts shifted.

Not to Caspian.

Not to Lacey.

But to Lucien. He had known.

Not just about Caspian leaving. Not just about Lacey. But everything.

Far more than he should have known.

The way he had looked at her at the ball, smirking like a man who had been waiting for her to catch up. The way he had spoken, carefully chosen words laced with hidden meanings, with certainty.

What if—

What if she wasn't the only one with a book?

What if Lucien had something like hers?

A different version of the story? A different reality?

Was that how he always knew more than he should? How he seemed to anticipate every move, every betrayal, every shift in power before it even happened?

If that was true, then—

She needed to see him again.

Now.

Nora pushed herself up from the vanity, her decision made in an instant.

Lucien was dangerous, yes. He was cruel, calculating, and utterly untrustworthy.

But he knew things she did not.

And right now, she was at a disadvantage.

That was something she could no longer afford.

She would find Lucien Draco and she would make him tell her everything he knew.

The last thing Nora remembered was the overwhelming sickness, the rush of heat beneath her skin, the way the world tilted violently as she tried to push herself toward the door. But her body had failed her, just as it always did, and the sensation of falling was the final thing she could recall before everything faded to black and darkness swallowed her whole.

When she opened her eyes, she was no longer on the floor.

She was in her bed.

The canopy above her swayed ever so slightly from the movement of the breeze filtering through the curtains, the soft glow of morning spilling into the room. Her limbs felt heavy, her head throbbing with a dull ache.

"Your Grace?" The voice was soft, cautious.

She turned her head slightly to the side, her gaze falling on the two women standing by her bedside.

Ruth and Lillian, her maids.

"You collapsed," Ruth said gently, placing a cool cloth against Nora's forehead. "We found you on the floor last night."

"Collapsed?" Nora echoed, her voice hoarse.

Her fingers clenched weakly into the sheets.

Of course, she had collapsed.

Again.

Her own body—the thing that was supposed to be hers to command—had betrayed her once more, just as it always did. Just as it had since she was a child, fragile and sickly, watching the world move on without her while she lay in bed, helpless and weak.

An irritated heat flared beneath her ribs.

Even now, even here, she couldn't rely on herself.

She swallowed the frustration burning in her throat and forced her voice to remain steady. "How long have I been unconscious?"

"Only a few hours," Lillian said. "You gave us quite a fright, my lady."

Nora exhaled slowly, pressing her fingers against her temple.

She felt raw.

The weight of last night pressed down on her like a boulder, the memory of Caspian's absence, of Lucien's knowing smirk, of the book's cruel words circling in her mind.

Caspian.

A bitter thought curled in her mind before she could stop it.

Had he even come?

Had he even noticed?

Or was he too busy playing happy family with Lacey and their child, basking in the warmth of the life he had hidden from her?

Her lips curled into something between a sneer and a grimace as she turned her head slightly toward Ruth. "Where is he?"

Ruth hesitated for just a moment before answering. "His Grace was with you all night and this morning. He only just stepped out."

Nora blinked.

She hadn't expected that.

"He was here?" she asked, voice lined with disbelief.

"Yes," Ruth said gently, exchanging a brief glance with Lillian. "The moment he heard what happened, he didn't leave your side."

Nora opened her mouth but found no immediate words to say.

Caspian had stayed?

Why?

A sharp knock at the door made all three of them turn their heads.

It swung open a second later, and there he was.

Caspian.

His dark hair was slightly disheveled, his eyes sharp with concern as they landed on her. He stepped into the room quickly, his expression shifting between relief and worry as he crossed the space between them.

"Nora," he breathed, his voice softer than she had expected.

She watched as he lowered himself onto the edge of the bed, his hand hovering near hers, like he wanted to take it but wasn't sure if he should.

"You scared me," he admitted, his brow furrowing. "Why didn't you tell me you weren't feeling well?"

Nora swallowed.

This was the moment she had prepared for—the moment she had expected to feel anger, to sneer at his concern, to throw his betrayal in his face.

And yet...

The look in his eyes.

The way his jaw was tight, his fingers curled slightly like he was trying to hold himself together. He looked genuinely worried. Like he had truly spent the night at her bedside. Like he cared.

But he doesn't, she told herself firmly. Not really. Still, she couldn't seem to meet his gaze for too long.

"I didn't know I was going to collapse," she muttered instead, turning her eyes to the blanket pooled in her lap.

Caspian exhaled sharply, dragging a hand through his hair.

"This is my fault," he said, his voice edged with frustration. "I thought you left the ball before me. I would never have—" He cut himself off, jaw clenching. "I should have checked."

Ah.

So that was what he thought.

That she was cold toward him because she believed he had abandoned her at the ball.

That it was just a simple misunderstanding.

Nora let out a small, breathy laugh—one that held no real amusement.

"Yes," she said, voice cool. "You should have."

Caspian flinched slightly, as if her words had been a physical blow. He thought he knew why she was upset. But he had no idea. He had no idea that she knew exactly where he had gone after the ball.

That she had seen it all unfold before it even happened. That she had memorized the words of his betrayal as if they were written just for her.

She forced herself to exhale, to keep her expression unreadable. She couldn't afford to let him see her fury. Not yet.

Not when she still wasn't sure what her next move would be.

After a moment, she shifted beneath the covers, schooling her expression into something neutral. "You're here now," she said, forcing a note of mildness into her tone. "I suppose that counts for something."

Caspian studied her carefully. He looked like he wanted to say more. But after a moment, he only sighed and nodded. "Yes," he murmured. "I'm here now."

For a brief moment, there was only silence between them.

And then, in the quiet of the room, Nora found herself grappling with a question she hadn't expected to ask.

What if—

What if Caspian really did care? What if there were things the book hadn't written? What if there were moments—like this one—that had never been recorded? Moments that might mean something?

She shoved the thought aside as quickly as it had come. It didn't matter.

Even if some part of Caspian still cared, it didn't change the truth. It didn't change what she had read. It didn't change Lacey.

And it didn't change the fact that Lucien Draco still knew far too much.

Nora pressed a hand against her forehead, closing her eyes briefly. She would play the part Caspian expected. She would let him think her coldness was because of the ball. And when the time came..

She would find Lucien again. She would get the answers she needed.