Chapter -145

Mentally ill
Jay-jay's POV "...

The wound is only superficial. It doesn't need to be stitched up but I made sure the wound
was closed so it wouldn't bleed anymore." The maid explained to me. Sorry Yuri! She didn't call Keifer but she
called the maids to help me. I still feel guilty, bad trip! "S-thank you." I said and forced a smile at them. They
smiled at me too. "Please wait for Young Master here." They said and left. I was left alone in what looked like
their mini clinic. I was stunned and limp. I looked at my apron which was already covered in blood. It was
gone... I couldn't understand why this was only happening to fresh blood. What was really wrong with me?
There was a slight knock on the door so I looked over. Yuri, her eyes were sad. I was embarrassed by her. I
shouldn't have told her to call Keifer. "Are you okay with your wound?" She asked and came closer to me. I
nodded curtly in response. I also bowed my head because of embarrassment. "S-sorry... I shouldn't have said
that earlier." She pulled out a stool and sat in front of me. She also held both of my hands. "It's okay... But I
hope you can explain to me what happened earlier. I feel like I don't know anything about you." I bit my lower
lip. This was my fault. I should have told her a long time ago. What if we were married and she still didn't know
anything. "You know something about me... Not everything. I'm afraid to tell you---you. Because even I don't
understand what's happening to me." I explained. "It's not wrong to say. What you know, maybe I can help you
find out." He's right... I've been trying to figure out what this is for a long time but I've been unable to find
anything. Maybe he can help me. "Yuri because..." I started and took a deep breath. "...s-there's something
wrong with me." He looked me in the eyes and waited for me to say. "W-when I see blood, something strange
happens to me. At first I thought it was just a phobia of blood but as it went on... it was different." "...I lose
consciousness as I get older. But they say I'm moving, moving and... Starting to hurt others." I continued. I
could see Yuri's interest in listening to what I was saying. I didn't want to speak but I knew I had to tell him.
"...W-no matter how hard I tried, I can't remember hurting myself like that. Nothing..." My tears fell on their own
without me realizing it. "...I don't know where I got that. It just started happening when Aries's Dad kidnapped
us, then it continued when Cyrus and I fought and the last one... Ram's." "B-but Keifer said, you helped Ram."
Yuri said. I shook my head. "That's what we talked about that we'll tell you. But Kuya Angelo and Aries know
what happened. He said and pretended that they knew something... but they didn't." "Keifer knows? Is that why
you want me to call him?" I nodded in response. Yuri looked at my wounded hand . He also fell silent and
seemed to be thinking. "W-if you don't love me anymore because of that---" "No. No. Don't say that." He cut me
off from what I was going to say. "...I love you Jay. No matter what happens or what you do I will and still love
you." "But what if----" "Don't think anything. Don't think anything at all... Please." I was forced to nod at him. But
honestly, there were a lot of things playing in my mind. What if it happened again and I hurt him? What would I
do? He stood up and came closer to me. He held my chin and lifted it slightly so I could face him. "We will
figure this one out. You trust me, do you?" He asked. I nodded curtly. He smiled at me. "Now, can I kiss you?"
What? I couldn't answer. It was as if he was asking for permission, but his lips were already coming closer to
mine. That's okay! I had no reason to refuse. I just closed my eyes. I waited for his lips to touch mine. No one
moved, we barely even breathed before I stopped. I admit, I didn't want the time to end. I don't know why but
all I know is that I felt comfortable next to Yuri. His lips were still pressed against mine for a few seconds until
he slowly moved them. Here he is! Wait a minute... I tried to pull away from his kiss but he immediately
grabbed the back of my neck. I could only hold onto his chest but even that didn't stop him. Son of a... I
couldn't do anything but respond to those kisses. For some reason I couldn't understand. Even though he
wasn't kissing me violently, a part of me was telling me to stop. He and Keifer weren't the same----of course
because they were different people. But after all, Yuri only kissed superficially. Sweet, gentle and full of
eelings. Something I couldn't feel with Keifer. But why was his kiss still all I could think about? I bravely pulled
my lips away from his. I immediately gasped for air and bowed. "Why?" Yuri asked. "S-sorry..." "Are you
uncomfortable? Did I surprise you? Don't you want this?" He asked one after another. I immediately shook my
head. I didn't want him to think that way. It wasn't because I didn't want to. "W-nothing... I just remembered
something." I answered. He immediately hugged me. "My timing must have been wrong. Sorry." Before I could
even speak to answer him. I was stunned, looking towards the door because of a young girl. She had full
bangs and a white hat. A ghost?! "Why are you eating Yuri-san's face?" He asked me. Yuri immediately pulled
away and looked at the girl in shock. "Yoichi!" Yuri shouted. The young Yoichi immediately ran out of the mini
clinic. Wait a minute ! Yoichi? Yuri's brother! "That's really ugly..." Yuri commented and turned to face me. "...I'll
go see Yoichi first. You can probably go to my room by yourself, right?" "Oh-oh..." That's it. Yuri smiled at me
and immediately went to Yoichi. I was left dumbfounded by the loss. This is the right one, Yuri should be
because I agreed to marry him. But there was still a part of me that said something wrong. When Keifer is
with me, my whole mind is against it and I scream wrong. But my body doesn't want to be with me. What am I
doing?! What should I do? I'm confused. It's too much! I took a deep breath and walked to Yuri's room. I'm not
sure where I was going. I still remember the other way but not all of it. As long as there were stairs up!
Because that's all I remember, I think I climbed every staircase I saw. I had already climbed four stairs when I
saw the right way to Yuri's room. Success! Nothing has changed in his room. Except for the curtain that used
to be closed. Now it's open and I can see his big balcony. It was my chance to take a look around his room. I
hadn't done it before, because he used to tease me. I approached his study table. I looked at the picture
rames.Just pictures of her and her family. There was also a class picture of them from Section E. This must
have been last year! I looked and the books immediately caught my attention. How diligent they were in
studying! There was internet but the kid was hunched over his books. Suddenly someone entered the room. I
thought it was Yuri but it was just their maids. They brought what Yuri and I cooked. They also brought a
pitcher of juice and utensils. Can I still eat this? They put it down on the coffee table near the glass door of the
room's balcony. When they were done, they turned to me and bowed before leaving me. Why do I feel like
Yuri's maids don't like me? "Hey..." Yuri called to me who was standing at the door with me. "...Are you bored?"
"No. Have you seen Yoichi?" "Yes... He's in the room." He answered me. I just nodded. We both fell silent. We
both just looked away and it was awkward. Pffttt... "W-do you want to eat?" He asked me while pointing at the
ood. "Okay..." He immediately approached the coffee table and served the food. I went back to his study
table. I also looked at his bookshelf. One book caught my attention. Photo Album. The one on it was even the
shape and color of an old book. "Can I look at this?" I asked Yuri. "Okay..." I took the book and the cover looked
like a design. When I opened it, it was just
It 's a picture.
This photo album is really cool!
I sat next to Yuri and opened it in front of her. It was a picture of Yuri when
she was a child that opened up to me.
"Hahahaha.. is this you?" I asked while pointing at the
crying child.
"Don't look at that. Skip!" She ordered.
That's why I was laughing because she looked annoyed and she
turned the page to the middle of the album.
"Epal... I'll look at it."
"You'll just see my shame." She said.
I couldn't do anything but look at the part she opened.
It was a picture of her in elementary school.
I turned it and a picture of her, Keifer, Percy and....
Aries appeared before me.
They looked happy in the picture except of course Keifer who had a serious
ace. Aries was also smiling while Percy was holding her arm.
I looked at the others. Some of them were riding bikes, while Keifer and Percy were riding
behind them.
Some of them were also wearing school uniforms. Most of them, the four of them, were smiling
and obviously happy. I even saw some of them wearing sacristan's uniforms.
"Did you serve at the church?" I asked.
"Yes, Angelo put us in as sacristan. Maybe
we'd matured." He explained while eating.
"What happened?"
"We were also immediately kicked out. Keifer punched the sacristan
mayor."
Pffftttt hahahaha...
"They're really crazy."
I looked at a picture. I saw Aries wearing a basketball uniform
. I know he used to play but he stopped for some
unknown reason.
There were also Percy and Keifer wearing baseball uniforms.
Wait a minute...
I remembered Keifer when they threw me a ball at the gym. The way he
threw it, that's why.
I turned the page. There was only one picture there. Alone and
unique.
Percy was holding a camera or cellphone. They were inside the car and
it looked like the one he used to use to pick up was resting in the front near the steering wheel.
Aries was driving. Keifer was asleep and only Yuri and Percy
were looking at the camera. But they weren't smiling.
This picture felt heavy.
"That was our last picture together."