Chapter-191

I'm already doing the Dark side of Jay-jay but it seems like
it's starting to look like a comedy... Hahahahaha. I don't think it's going to go away.
Guys! Let's dedicate together. Just wait. Thank you.


Brother


Jay-jay's POV
It's the end of me!----The first thing that came to my mind. The smell of burnt
tires and a bit of smoke. I was so surprised when the car appeared
that I almost couldn't move.
I was sitting on the road almost next to the front of the car. I couldn't
move in shock, I felt like my system was shaking because of
what happened. I felt the same way when a gun was pointed at my head.
My situation was different now.
"Shit!" I heard someone shout. "...Are you okay?!"
I looked up at the person who spoke. He was now in front of me and looking at me worriedly
. My body still didn't want to move but even so,
I still recognized the person in front of me.
"P-percy?"
He sat up slightly so I could catch my breath. He looked at me all over.
I didn't know which one would be more shocked, from what I found out earlier, from
the incident where I almost got run over or from Percy who was
now in front of me.
He's back...
What he said was true. Will he really come back, will he face me and answer
my questions. I suddenly felt a lump in
my throat. I started to cry again.
"W-why? Does something hurt? I'll take you to the hospital!" He
said in a panic.
I held him by both arms. Even though
my tears continued to fall, I tried to speak properly.
"Get me away from here!" I said pleadingly.
I couldn't stay in this place any longer. I knew they had been following
me earlier and they would see me at any moment.
"S-okay." Percy replied and helped me stand up.
He also helped me get into his car. I was still
crying, my eyes were hurting so much I wanted to stop.
He got in and immediately started the car. He kept looking at me and then
turned his gaze back to the road.
"Does something hurt? We're at the hospital." He said.
I shook my head while trying to wipe my cheek. "I-I don't want to."
"Huh? Maybe----."
"JUST TAKE ME TO A QUIET PLACE!" I shouted,
startling him.
"O-yes... E-here it is..."
The car sped up even faster. I didn't know where we were going.
I want to go away, far away. Far from Mama, far from
Aries, far from the Stupid Cobras and far from their King.
I used you...
Those words slapped me. Those sweet words
he said to me. Those days when we were together and held hands.
If only he could tell me that he loved me.
I love you until scientists find the end of the universe.
LIAR! It's not true! He fooled me! They fooled me!
I'm the fool they believed. I'm so stupid. Why didn't I
even think of that? I wish when Aries had just said it, I would have believed it.
That's why he accused me like that. Because he knew they would get back at him.
He knew he was at fault and that Animal Keifer would come back at him
.
He was the one to blame! This shouldn't have happened to me now.
I shouldn't have been played with by those Animals. I shouldn't have....
Falling into him and his trap!
"Jay..." Percy called to me while continuing to drive. "...
did something happen? Why are you crying like that?"
I didn't answer. I kept looking outside. I savored
every incident earlier. Their reactions and everything
they said.
Family?!
I'm the only one who looks at them like that. I'm the only one who thinks
we're friends. I'm the only one who thinks I'm one of
them. It's just me, just me.
I should have had my doubts. Who would accept someone like me?
Who would want to be my friend? Even back then, they said they'd be friends
but would leave when there was nothing useful to me.
No one wants to be with someone like me!
My brain and body are so tired from what happened.
My heart is so broken. My chest tightens every time I replay
what happened.
But there's nothing that could hurt more than what Keifer said to me. I wish
he had just hurt me physically, I would have accepted it better, than this.
When will I be sure that I love him. When will I gradually become
dependent on him. When will I feel like I can't bear to
lose him?
When....I've gambled everything.
I can't get his eyes out of my mind while he's telling me that.
Of course it's part of my plan.
My chest tightened even more at those words. I punched my chest
a few times in a bid to ease the pain but to no
avail.
It was so powerful!
I looked outside when I noticed that we were no longer moving.
We had stopped near the seashore. I looked at Percy but
he was no longer in the driver's seat. I immediately opened the door and got out.
A strong wind greeted me. I forcefully wiped the
tears from my eyes. The pain was still swirling in my system but
the search for Percy overcame me.
Has he left again?!
"Are you done?"
I looked behind me. He was carrying a bottled water as he approached
me. He looked serious and I couldn't tell if he was angry or annoyed
.
I swallowed and took a deep breath. "S-sorry... I-I didn't know
we were stopping."
He handed me the bottle which I took. "Yes, of course...
You obviously don't want to be disturbed."
I bowed my head because of what he said. I didn't notice what was happening
around me because I was thinking about them.
"Oh." He said while handing me a handkerchief. "...
your nose is blowing up from the cold. You're disgusting."
Huh?! Nose from the cold?
I immediately took the handkerchief and wiped my nose. I was
suddenly filled with shame because of that. Of course I was crying, probably catching a cold too.
I hadn't thought about my appearance since earlier.
So embarrassing! Disgusting...
I looked at Percy when I noticed him walking closer to the
beach. I looked around. There was a store near where
we parked. There was no one on the beach except for the children
playing in the distance.
It was quiet and the sound of the ocean waves was nice.
I took off my shoes and socks and left them next to the car.
I immediately followed Percy who continued walking.
"You're thin..." He said as I joined him in walking.
"...Are you eating well?"
"O-yes..." I hesitated.
This was what I had been waiting for, to be able to face him but
my body and mind didn't feel like asking anything. It was also important
to me that I was facing him again now. I just hoped he wouldn't leave.
I drank the water he gave me. I quickly finished it because
of thirst, I felt like I was dehydrated from crying.
My eyes were also sore because of that and they hurt even more when the wind
rom the sea hit me.
"Do you really not want to be sent to the hospital?" He asked and
I immediately shook my head. "...You have scratches and bruises."
I looked at my thigh and arm. "T-this was yesterday."
He stopped for a moment and looked at me. "What happened yesterday?"
Honestly, I didn't feel like telling him so
I just shook my head again. He failed to return to walking. I just followed while watching
the fine sand at our feet.
This feeling was annoying. I had so many questions when
he wasn't there but I couldn't say anything now. I wanted
to know so many things but if I was having this much trouble, I'd probably just
ask one thing first.
"W-how's P-papa?" I asked almost in a whisper.
He stopped walking and looked in the other direction.
"They're still in New York..."
"When will he be back?"
He took a deep breath. "I don't know yet."
Why did he seem to avoid talking about it? He was right in front of me but it seemed like
he was moving away. I couldn't understand! He also didn't want to face me
as if he didn't want to reveal something.
Tears started to form in my eyes again. They threatened
to fall at any moment. He went back to walking but I didn't
ollow. I chose to sit on the sand and watch the sea.
What if I just drowned myself? So that all of this would be over!
Because it's just that! Do we really have to do it one after the other? Can't the next
one be next month? Should it be right away? Do I feel good about making people cry
so it has to be one after another? And why does
this stupid Percy have to be added? I
guess it's my karma. Because I've been naughty. I haven't been
a good Grandson to Grandma. I'm a pain in the ass at school and Guidance has become
my hangout. My classmates hate me because they say
I have bad manners.
They're turning on me now. When did I try
to change myself? When did I start to sober up----at least.
Now they're blaming me.
"I'm struggling like this." Percy said who was now next to me.
"...Mind telling me what happened?"
What happened?!
Instead of answering him with words, tears came out
of me first. Tangina! Everything that happened to me was flashing back.
Starting from the night Keifer got angry because of what David did. Even the
day he pushed me away in front of Aries. Kingina! Another thing I found out was
that we were siblings. And now....That they all just fooled me
.
"Please... Say anything." Percy asked.
I looked at him and almost bit my lip to stop
myself from crying.
"S-Keifer..." I took a deep breath. "...he tricked me.
He just used me." I complained like a child.
He suddenly hugged me causing my head to fall on
his chest. Instead of pushing him away, I just let him.
That made me cry even louder. It
was so strong that I could not even
stand up, I was not even allowed to fight or defend myself
.
I was so weak! I was weak!
"I feel like everyone close to me is just fooling me."
I said.
"Ssshhh... Don't think like that."
How could I not think like that? I learned one truth after another
. Maybe there was more? I wish it had come out earlier.
"A-aries, he's my brother." I started crying again
loudly.
He was my brother but he was also the reason for all this.
HIS FAULT!
I was momentarily stunned when I remembered something. I pulled away from
Percy's embrace and looked at him. He knew Aries was my brother and
he also knew Keifer's plan. I couldn't....
I clenched my fist and gave him a strong punch.
I immediately stood up and moved slightly away from him. I could see how he was
taking my punch. He was still closing his eyes while shaking.
"You know..." I said while pointing at him. "...You know
Aries is my brother and you also know Keifer's plan."
He stood up even though he was clearly dizzy. My punch hit him in the jaw
because that was what he was holding.
"...Tell me! Are you also an accomplice to Keifer's nonsense?!" I asked angrily
.
"Damn it!" He suddenly shouted. "...you hurt to punch!
Are you a woman?"
I felt annoyed by what he said. I don't know if he was being presumptuous
and didn't want to answer my question right away.
"Answer me!" I ordered.
He took a deep breath. "I know Aries is your brother because of
your Papa. I found out about Keifer's plan because of David."
He explained. "...Believe me, I tried to get home right away to
save you from Keifer. If I hadn't gotten into trouble,
I might have shown everyone by now."
Shit!
I combed my hair with my fingers. I was going crazy,
I was having a hard time trusting the people around me.
Because maybe they were just fooling me. Maybe he had a plan too!
"S-sorry... Sorry..." I couldn't finish what I was going to say. I started
sobbing loudly. "...B-maybe... Maybe----."
"Maybe I'll hurt you? Maybe I'll fool you? Maybe I'll make you cry like them?"
He continued what I was going to say.
Everything he said was right. The fear in me wouldn't go away. I was already having a hard time
trusting because I was already being preceded by suspicion.
"S-sorry..."
"Jay-jay..." I felt his hand on my head.
"...Let them hurt you. Let them make you cry.
Let them fool you..." I felt one of his hands
on my back and that's when I noticed that he was hugging me. "...Because
after that, I'll come to you and be with you. I'll be with you and
make you feel like you're not alone."
His words felt good to hold. I wanted to believe but
I was scared. I didn't want to gamble with trust.
"P-percy..."
"If you're scared, it's okay." I was
so scared...
If only you knew how much I wanted to believe what
you were saying. But if that would help me lose the weight on
my chest, I'm willing to give you a chance.
"...I'm willing to prove to you I'm trustworthy."
At this moment, my tears stopped on their own even though I didn't
do anything. The words he let go were like medicine for the wound.
He let go of me and looked at me, our eyes met and he smiled.
"W-who are you in my life?"
His smile widened and he laughed slightly. "I'm glad you asked that...
I'm the only one you have..." He put his hand on my face and
moved it slightly as if he had exploded a competti. "...conscience."
His whisper was impactful.
Oh, idiot!
It feels good to bang my head on the rocks right now. The conversation was serious and
I almost had enough strength to cry but here he is smiling as if
he had just done something stupid.
Should I cry again? Because I feel like besides the cheaters and
liars, the people close to me, I won't have anyone
sensible to talk to. I think they're all mentally unstable.
Jay is rambling. . .
"Should I be sad because there's another crazy person in
my life?" I innocently asked.
He laughed loudly while shaking his head. "Just kidding... I just wanted to
make you smile."
I shook my head and looked in the other direction. "Tsk! I want
to know who you are. I don't have time for your jokes."
His expression suddenly became serious. "I know you want
to know who I really am. But with what happened to you today , it's
better if it's next time."
I felt annoyed. Here he is again, leaving me
looking stupid in the air again. It would be nice if someone picked me up from the plane but there wasn't.
"What if there's no one next? What if you leave again?"
I almost softened as I asked that.
He shook his head. "I'm not leaving..."
I took a deep breath. My body was so tired even though
I didn't do anything.
I'm not leaving...
What if it's not true? What if he's just saying that to make
me trust him? What if he actually plans to leave again? What if....
"Just tell me, please..." I bowed my head and closed my eyes. "...
I'm so tired."
I felt his hand rest on my head. "If
you insist... Okay."
The hand that was resting on my head immediately grabbed my hand.
I opened my eyes and suddenly he pulled me. We were going back to his car.
He pressed something on the key and opened the door.
I looked at him but he didn't move. He was waiting for me
to get inside.
I took the shoes I left earlier and got in. He closed the
door and went to the other side to get in and sit in the driver's seat.
After closing the door, he turned on the engine to turn on the air conditioner.
It felt good but my eyes hurt.
Argh! Oh my! I think I'm going to go blind.
"I hope you're ready for this..." I heard him whisper.
He took a black bag from the back seat.
He pulled out a brown envelope from it.
My heart was beating fast. There was nothing to look forward to but
what he was doing was really worrying. I felt like I was waiting for a showing at the
cinema.
Despicable Me 3!
"Oh..." He said while handing me a photo.
Dad is in the picture with Mom and a Baby. The clothes
she was wearing looked like the clothes she was wearing in the picture of us in
ront of a church.
"Is this us?" I asked almost in a whisper.
"Yes, and that Baby with the face that looks like a pinup... That's you." She answered.
She handed me another picture. A beautiful and smooth woman
with a foreign man with blue eyes----her Dad! She was the one
I saw at Felix's house before. They also had a Baby with them.
"That's us... Our family picture. And that freak'n handsome Baby
is me." She explained.
Why is that?!
Why do I look like a Pinup in the Baby when he's freaking handsome? I don't
think that's fair. Before I could protest,
sh
e handed me another picture.
"And this is... Their family." Her voice was sad when she said
that.
Dad with Percy's Mom in the picture. They were dressed formally as
if they were attending a rich party. They weren't smiling
like in our family pictures. The only thing I didn't understand was
'their family'.
I looked at Percy to wait for what he would say next.
His eyes were sad looking at the pictures in my hand.
"We're the same..." He started. "...We're both illegitimate children."