Chapter-215


Saving you


Jay-jay's POV


Sometimes with all the chaos going on in our lives, it feels good
to bang your head against the wall. The loudest and most likely you'll
just fall asleep and never wake up.
Bang yourself! I support you!
But sometimes it feels better to bang the head of the person who's messing up everything in
your life. And that's what I want to do here in front of me.
"You can't do that! You can't move on and forget everything that we've
done!" He said angrily while poking me with Snorlax's hand.
He was still wearing the mascot and only the head he had removed earlier.
I was speechless. It felt like my tongue was retracting and my body didn't want to function anymore
.
I don't understand this person! This Dimunyung Gagong Impact
Pesteng Kumag King of Snakes!
I was confused by what he was doing. And why was he inside the
Snorlax mascot? Where was Clefford we were talking to earlier?
My expression was full of surprise.
"Hey! Listen to me!" He said and waved Snorlax's hands in
front of me.
Instead of letting him speak, I turned my back on him and quickly walked away
from him. Where was I going? I didn't know.
"Jay! I'm not done talking to you! Get back here!" The Pesteng
King said.
I looked behind me and saw him chasing me but
because of what he was wearing he couldn't even walk properly.
Good for you! Suffer, you idiot!
I ran even faster and I also squeezed through the children who were playing
. I jumped into the pool full of plastic balls of different
colors.
I looked like I didn't know how to swim even though there was no water. As long as
I could get away from that Dimunyung.
Just swim, just swim!
When I got there, I saw the kids making a fuss over him.
He almost cursed loudly just to get away from him.
I continued to move away from him. I approached the inflatable slide and
climbed up. It was hard to move because the slide was not stable.
I was already at the top when I realized that the water buffalo was waiting below.
"We need to talk!" He shouted at me.
I shook my head and was about to go down but I looked at the kid behind
me. He was frowning and was about to push me away.
I had no choice but to slide down. I knew he was waiting
That's why I stretched out my leg and hit
him with all my strength. He fell into the pool covered in balls and couldn't move.
"Damn it! Remove this thing from me!" He shouted.
You're welcome!
I just laughed as I ran away from him. This is
what should happen. I was so confused by him. I didn't understand what
he wanted to happen. But there's only one thing I'm sure of, I shouldn't listen
to him anymore.
"Jay-jay." Someone called me while holding my elbow.
My eyebrows met while looking at him. "Do you need it?"
Why did his face look so dull?
"Can we talk? Please..." He said, full of pleading.
I was about to interrupt him with 'You're already talking' but
I stopped when I saw his eyes. I could see that he was sincere in his conversation
.
This is really the routine of being a best friend. After I
was visited by one, the other would follow. I really can't get
their trip in life.
Road trip? Bad trip? Field trip?
I nodded at him shyly and he took his hand off my arm.
He motioned me closer to the fire exit. We went inside and moved a little
away so we could talk properly.
"What do you need?" I asked and my voice immediately echoed
throughout the fire exit.
He seemed to notice that. He opened the nearest
door and ushered me in. A large ballroom opened up before us.
The lights were only in the corner so it was a bit dark.
"Jay... Please. Let me explain." He asked again.
I didn't want to listen but I was already here. It would have been a waste of my walking if
I hadn't ignored him.
"Ge! Explain." I said without any desire.
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Yuri's POV
I'm so thankful right now. I don't know what's wrong but
I'm thankful that Jay-jay is ready to listen to
my explanation.
Honestly, I really don't plan on talking to Jay-jay right now. I know
what happened to him and Keifer at the gotohan a few days ago. It was still fresh in
his mind and it would have been like a slap in the face if I had suddenly talked to him about
this.
But earlier....
When I saw Keifer looking restlessly at his mascot
Snorlax, I felt different.
His jealousy was eating away at him again.
And jealousy was eating away at me too.
"Letting go, but here you are searching for your next victim."
I told him.
He gave me his usual death glare. I just shrugged and continued looking
around. Ci-N's party is for children and not for teenagers like us.
What do I expect from Ci-N Peralta?
"Found you! Son of a b!tch!" Keifer said angrily and chased after the one
wearing the mascot.
I just shook my head. Why does Keifer seem to be infected with Ci-N? It
should be the other way around. But it doesn't seem like that's happening.
I release a heavy sigh and look around again. I saw Jay-jay with Rakki and
Mica. She still look pretty, even though she cut her hair. But at least I can
see her smiling again.
I miss you Jay.
Now that Keifer has let you go, I can do something.
I can act without hurting you. If I need to stop the
engagement, I will. Just be happy again.
That's what I was thinking at that time but everything changed when
I heard them. I didn't know, Keifer wore the costume thing for mascot. So
I was so surprised by what he did. And things went worst when I heard what
he said.
'I won't let you move on. I won't let you fall out of love. I won't allow it.'
This can't be! She just said that she's letting go. That
she's letting Jay-jay go but what is this? Why is this happening? Why doesn't she want to let
Jay-jay forget her feelings for him?
I don't understand Keifer, she's not lying this time.
She's serious and doesn't seem to want to let Jay-jay go. I have to do the same thing.
Keifer should have been the first person I talked to but I changed my mind so
I looked for Jay-jay. I didn't fail and here she is now in
front of me.
"Jay... I'm really sorry for all the pain that I cause. It's true,
I've been an idiot too. You've known that since the beginning." I pause to let her speak.
She's the one who told me that Keifer and I both have Sapi. I know that
we didn't get along well but she brought me back to the way
I was.
The way I was.
She didn't say anything so I continued talking. "Keifer came up with
that plan, I was by his side. I was also one of the leaders because I was mad at
Aries but I admit I had my doubts." I took a deep breath.
"...That's why I stopped in the middle of the plan. I got close
to you and I saw what you did. When I realize that I'm
falling for you I try to think of a plan to save you."
"Save me?" He said almost in a whisper.
I had already explained this to him before, when we were in the forest and got lost.
"I'm trying to save you from Keifer. From his plan but I'm too late.
When you said you liked him, it was like I was stabbed by a
Katana. You fell for his plan and I was afraid I couldn't keep you
away from him."
That was the night that she admitted she likes Keifer. I'm worried and
heartbroken. I don't know what to do. I want to save her and I want her.
I fvcking love her.
"But I didn't give up. I still tried but of course I failed. I
'm desperate to save you and to have you. I don't want to get hurt again and
I don't want that to happen to you either."
"That's why you forced that stupid engagement?"
she said annoyed.
I bowed. "Y-yes."
She shook her head. "That's why you want to save me." She said sarcastically.
I try to move closer but she step back. I bowed and stopped
my plan. I compose myself to continue talking.
"I'm not putting all the blame to Keifer. Because I was there when
he planned it. I'm also guilty. I'm sorry Jay, I'm sorry for not
stopping him, I'm sorry for making decisions that will cross your
boundaries." I bowed and did something I never thought
I could do.
I kneeled down.
"Y-get up... Don't do that." She ordered.
But I didn't listen to her. I really want her forgiveness. If I have to
kneel until he can't forgive me, I will.
"I'm really sorry... Please Jay. I want you back."
I saw him take a step closer to me. I felt his gaze on me.
"We didn't talk about forgiving you." He said coldly.
"...We only talked about your explanation. Nothing else, nothing
more. So get up, it's a waste for you to kneel."
His words pierced me. It hurt so much and it felt like
my chest was being squeezed. I didn't know he could be so hard because of what happened.
Or was he just intentionally putting up with us.
I stood up slowly but he still remained bowed down. I couldn't
understand. Why could he put up with me like this when he could
put up with Keifer despite what he did to him?
"You really love Keifer, right?" I couldn't say it myself.
He gave me a sharp look. He almost cursed at me
so I could tell he was really angry with me.
"Because it's easy for you to forgive him even though he doesn't make an effort
to apologize to you." I said, stopping him.
I tried to lower my voice. I couldn't help but feel bad
for him. It felt so unfair to me.
"I haven't forgiven Keifer yet."
Not YET? But she will soon.
I couldn't help but feel annoyed. I laughed bitterly. It hurt.
So much.
"Why him? Why still him? After all the heartache that he gave to you.
You still love him."
Suddenly, a tear fell from one of his eyes. Watashi ga
naniwoshita? (What have I done?). I wanted to go over to him and hug him but
I knew he would push me away.
"It's not that easy!" He said angrily as he wiped
the tears from his cheeks. "...If you can't move on with me, I can't
move on with him! Do you think I still want what I feel?!"
He looked at me angrily. "...I don't want this! That Dimunyung is bothering me
, he'll say he doesn't like me but he'll show
motives! Since I have feelings for him,
I'll hope!"
I felt embarrassed by what I said. He was right. Because of the pain
I was feeling, I forgot that he was also hurting.
Maybe.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to----."
She cut me off. "Pvta! I'm so sorry! Are you a broken record?! You and
your best friend are the same! You're really stupid! You do it over and over again!"
She wiped her cheek again. "...I still don't know what to do!"
I approached her and this time I didn't hesitate anymore.
I grabbed one of her hands. She tried to push it away but
I tightened my grip.
"I know what you can do. Forget about my feelings
for Keifer. I'll help you." I said and brought her hand closer to
my face.
She fell silent for a moment, thinking. Please say Yes. I swear I'll do
anything to help you.
It hurts me so much to see her struggling because of him. That's why
I'll do everything to make your feelings for her go away. So that
you can be happy and not get hurt anymore.
He's already let go of you and I won't let him change his mind again
. It's not possible!
"Y-yuri... I-I don't want to hurt you. It might just be a repeat of the old days,
I got involved and then Keifer too." She said and tears fell out
of her eyes.
"Is it still Keifer?" I slowly let go of his hand.
"...are you still hoping?"
He didn't answer. My chest tightened at the silence he was giving
me.
"But he's already let go of you." I said and he looked at me with surprise
. "...he's already forgiven."
"W-what are you saying?"
I don't know if I should tell this.
"About a week now, Keifer asked me to keep you safe. I asked why but he
didn't give me an answer." I looked at him in the eyes. "...He said, he's
letting you go."
I saw his hand shaking. Another tear fell from
his eyes. I immediately regretted what I had done. I tried to
apologize but he suddenly walked away.
I couldn't move and just kept looking at him as he slowly
walked away from me.
I shouldn't have said that. I'm so sorry.
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Jay-jay's POV
I don't know what cheap thing to say just to
ease the weight on my chest.
All kinds...Even Japanese and Korean.
I'm going crazy with what Yuri said. I've already let go of Keifer but what is
he doing? He's so strong that he can't stop.
Every step I take on the fire exit stairs is fast.
I'm going back to the rooftop and honestly my fist is getting hot landing on
that animal's face.
He's playing with me! It would be nice if Barbie and I had the same face,
I would have agreed, but no. I look more like a Bratz Doll. She
let me go after a while, and earlier, she said she wouldn't
let me move on. And why? Who is this animal? The situation,
I look like a fool who would rely on her when she only plays with me when
she trips.
I was almost at the door when it opened and spat out the Animal
I was looking for. She also stopped when she saw me but quickly walked towards me.
"We need to talk." She said authoritatively and grabbed my arm.
Get ready for me, you animal!
I let her pull me. We went out the fire exit door and
reached the last floor before the rooftop. She continued pulling
me until she and I stopped---because we didn't have one---in front of a
door.
She quickly pressed the keypad on the door. It opened
and she pulled me in. She let me go before turning on the light.
We were inside a unit.
But whose is this?!
Everything was clean and looked new. It was complete and almost as spacious as
Aunt Gema's house.
I looked around for a moment before my mind returned to the reason
why I came here.
"I will explain to you every----."
I didn't let him finish what he was saying. From behind me,
he was about to walk closer to the sofa but I met him with a strong slap
.
It was like there was a mosquito!
I knew he could feel my shivering.
I should have punched him but I hesitated so I just met
him with my palm.
His head was turned and it took a long time before he faced me. He didn't even
touch his face to feel the pain. All
I could see in him was shock and anger.
"Is it painful? Of course, just to be fair." I said annoyed.
His breathing became deep. It looked like he was trying to calm himself down.
"I deserve this." He said lifelessly.
I almost laughed. "It's a good thing you know because YOU TELLED ME!
I'M GOING TO SHOOT YOU SO MUCH! I want to break your bones."
He looked away before biting his lip. He walked over to me
to touch me but I quickly slapped his hands away.
"Don't touch me!"
"Let me explain." He said calmly.
"Explain what? Okay, let me hear another lie
from you." I challenged.
His fists clenched and he looked like he was about to be punched. I also saw
his Adam's apple rise and fall a few times.
"Jay..." His voice was filled with pleading. "...I understand that you're
mad but please listen to me."
"Just go! Just explain... Because I want to understand why
you're playing with me. Why you keep hurting me.
Why are you here again and bothering me." I gave him a
plastic smile. "...Just explain. Maybe it'll clear things up for me and
be a reason for me to forget my feelings
for you."
He suddenly punched the wall. I admit I was surprised but
I tried not to flinch. He was bowed down but his shoulders were still moving up and down as he took deep
breaths. His fists
were clenched . "I told you. I won't let you." He said firmly. I'm really angry! I'm so angry! "Who are you to stop
me? Why? Aren't you the reason I want to forget? And now you won't let me? YOUR FACE IS SO CUTE!" As I
screamed, my tears fell. "...I don't want it anymore. I don't want to love you anymore." "I can't." He said almost
in a whisper. "I don't want it anymore!" I screamed. "I can't." He whispered again. "Stop it! I can't love you
anymore!" "I can't." "That's enough! Stop making me suffer!" "Why do n't you let me?! Why?! WHY?!" "BECAUSE I
CAN'T LOSE YOU!" He screamed as if it reached the entire floor. I was stunned. We were both out of breath
because of the noise we made. My lips were trembling as I looked at him. I finally noticed that he had tears in
his left eye. He was looking at me with a look of resentment. "I can't bear to lose you. So, please... Don't move
on." +