Chapter 2: A Flicker in the Dark
I never thought love had a sound until I heard her laughter.
It wasn't the kind of laughter that echoed through the streets, loud and carefree. No, Sia's laughter was soft, like a whisper against the wind, like the first raindrop that hits the dry earth before the storm. It was the kind of sound that wrapped itself around my ribs and refused to let go.
I first noticed it that day in the village market. The sky had turned golden, swallowing the last traces of daylight, and the streets were alive with people—merchants yelling prices, children chasing one another barefoot, women balancing baskets on their heads with practiced ease.
I was there, standing in the midst of it all, surrounded by the town boys I had grown to pretend were my friends.
And then, there was her.
She wasn't doing anything extraordinary. Just standing there, her dark braid falling over her shoulder as she handed coins to an old vendor selling honey cakes. But something about the way she smiled at the vendor, the way her eyes softened, made my chest tighten.
For a second,
just a second, I forgot where I was. Forgot the boys next to me, the rough laughter in my ears, the pressure to belong .
All I saw was Sia.
And I knew then—I was in trouble.
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I didn't expect it to happen so soon.
Love.
I thought it was something that crept up on you slowly, something you barely noticed until it was too late. But with Sia, it was different. It was sudden, like a wound I hadn't seen coming.
Maybe it started that night I lay awake, staring at the ceiling, replaying that moment in the market over and over again. Maybe it started when I realized how my eyes searched for her without me telling them to. Maybe it started years ago, when we were just children, and I had simply been too blind to see it.
Whatever it was, it was there now, clawing at my ribs, demanding to be felt.
But I wasn't supposed to love her.
Not when my life smelled of alcohol and regret.
Not when my father was drowning himself in poison every night, while I sat in the corner, pretending I didn't hear the sounds of bottles shattering against the walls. Not when I had forced myself to walk beside boys who carved their cruelty into the weak just so I wouldn't be the next target.
Sia didn't belong in my world.
But I wanted her to.
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The next few days, I found myself noticing things I hadn't before. The way she tucked a loose strand of hair behind her ear when she was deep in thought. The way she bit her lip when she was about to say something sarcastic. The way she walked—like she belonged to herself and no one else.
I hated myself for it.
Hated how I was too much of a coward to do anything more than watch. Hated how I stood with the wrong people, laughed at the wrong jokes, while she walked past me without a second glance.
But it was better this way.
Because if Sia ever saw me for who I truly was, she would walk away.
And I couldn't bear that.
So, I did what I had always done.
I stayed silent.
And I watched.