Fire Dance
Jay-jay's POV
I don't want to remember anything from my past. I'm not clear about what really happened, but I know that the content of that memory is what Mama's ex-husbands did to me. Every time I think about it, something grabs my stomach and I just want to cry. Once I heard from my Aunts some of the things they did to me. I immediately tried to forget them because even I, myself, couldn't accept that they happened. They were disgusting, angry, and nauseating. But no matter how much I refused to remember them, they would come back to me on their own. And for the ï¬rst time, I wanted to know what happened in the last memory that came back to me. "That was Mama." I said without thinking. "Jay." Yuri called out to me while holding both my hands. "Maybe it's about time you visit a psychiatrist." I immediately shook my head while looking at him in fear. Besides Keiâ€"kwanan, he also knew my situation. "I-I don't want to. I don't want to â€"." He held both my cheeks. "I have to, Jayâ€"." "â€"I don't want to. I don't want toâ€"." "â€"They will help you remember your past." "â€"I don't want to." My tears fell on their own accord. He quickly hugged me, making me cry. "I don't want to." I said while crying. "Okay. No more. I won't force you anymore." He let me cry on his chest while he kept rubbing my back. He also combed my hair from time to time . Don't get hung up. I only stopped crying when the door opened and Kei â€"kwanan came in with a glass of water. I broke away from Yuri to wipe my tears and tried to hand him the glass but he just looked at my hand. "This is not yours." He said. Oh, how rude! I looked at him with a wicked look and his silly smile immediately flashed before he handed me the glass of water he was holding. "Just kidding." "You're a stupid Cobra." I whispered that Yuri could still hear. He laughed softly while I drank the water. I didn't notice that I had ï¬nished it right away. I handed it back to the King of Cobras. He accepted it and set it down on the table near the door. "Are you done with your heart to heart talk?" He asked Yuri. My eyebrows raised at them especially when Yuri glared at him before standing up rom the seat next to me. The plump Keiâ€"kwanan took over. "Jay... Yuri isâ€"." "Are you going to force me too?" I immediately cut him off but he shook his head. "He's dumb." "What?" Yuri asked in surprise. "Forcing Jay-jay to remember her past is like forcing her to jump out of the window." The King of Snakes explained. "Of your house." He added while pointing at Yuri. The height of his house. "Since when did you become an expert in Jay's problem?" The SLC President asked irritably. "Since the day that I planned my future with her." The plump Keiâ€"kwanan replied with a wink. Yuri and I were just embarrassed by him. This snake knows so much . That's why it slips on the rocks. Shunga. "Why are you here? You don't watch your pets outside ." "I'm watching you. Yuri might do something to you." My palm immediately flew up to slap him but he quickly caught my arm. I knew Yuri was here to say hello. What I said earlier that he didn't believe my answer came true . I understand why he was worried.But what I don't understand is this little guy's whining. "We're feeling the same way." Yuri said annoyed. "It's not my job to kiss you in sleep." I looked at him in surprise and turned to the King of Cobras. He didn't react and even managed to smile at me before answering what Yuri said. "Who's kissing you in sleep?" He asked innocently. "Do you want me to remind you what you did to Jay while he was unconscious in the clinic?" I seemed to remember that. "That's when I was angry and then I suddenly lost consciousness?" I asked. Yuri nodded in response. I immediately glared at the little guy who was lying. He was dead malicious as if he didn't know what we were saying. "What did you do?" I asked him annoyed. "What did I do?" He asked back. I immediately slapped him on the arm which he didn't expect. He couldn't avoid or stop my hand. He simply fell over. "I'll stomp on your wound!" I threatened. He looked at Yuri and me with his head in his hands. You're so cute! I just want to know what you did. "W-what... While you're unconscious, I paid you a visit." His introduction was something I was really waiting for. "Then Iâ€"." He coughed slightly. "I... I... I k-kissed you." My eyes slowly widened. He robbed me of a kiss. And at that time, I was still very angry with him. "You animal!" I said indignantly and immediately picked up a pillow to hit him. His only response was loud laughter. Until I thought of poking his wound. He screamed loudly before falling to the floor. Yuri and I laughed at him. "Karma has been served." Yuri said, which made me laugh even more. The little guy slowly stood up. He forced a smile even though he was obviously still feeling the pain of what I had done. Try to scream. "Yuri." He called seriously to Yuri who was already standing next to me. "Please leave us." Yuri and I looked at each other because we were surprised by his behavior. "What for?" The SLC President asked him. "We're just going to ï¬x Caretaker." He replied, making my eyes widen. Oh, you idiot! I immediately went over to him and covered his mouth. Yuri looked at me innocently and was clearly waiting for an explanation. "Who?" "W-that's nothing. This little guy is just teasing." I forced a smile while poking his other cheek. "You should probably go out ï¬rst, we'll follow." He looked at Kei for a moment, before nodding and leaving the room. As soon as the door closed, I let go of the hug. I was about to punch him in the face when he suddenly hugged me tightly. I thought he was teasing me again but his hug was tight as if he was still worried about me. I thought he was just teasing. "It's okay, we're here for you. Whatever it is." He whispered to me and kissed my head. I don't know why but my arms wrapped around him on their own. I'm afraid of what will happen when everyone comes back to me. But when they remind me that they're only here, I feel like I can ace the past. "How could they do something to me that is unacceptable to my character? Will you still stay?" I asked. "Is there anything worse than dancing in the ï¬re while looking for a virgin to offer to the impact?" He asked back, making us laugh a little. He said to remind me. "I'm serious." I said. " I told you, whatever it is..." He turned to face me and brushed a few strands of hair behind my ear with one hand. "...our riends and me, will stay here for you." He held my chin to raise my face to face him. "Understand?" I nodded and he smiled. "Now kiss me." He commanded, making me flinch. Really! "I'll kick you there!" I threatened before pulling away from him. "Kiss me ï¬rst, before I kick you." He said and tried to pull me closer to him. He immediately pushed his face away while his lips were still pursed. I wanted to laugh but I didn't want him to think I was cringing. When I willingly kissed him, it just meant that I had forgiven him completely. That wasn't it. He was about to insist but for the banging of the bedroom door. "Are you done?! Let's go downstairs, let's have a barbecue!" Ci-N shouted from outside the door. "Next!" I replied. I heard his heavy footsteps away from the door. We followed as I said. As I went down the stairs , the King of Cobras's companion kept coming. Every time I looked at him, he would make a sign with one ï¬nger and snarl at me. I glared at him to threaten him but he just repeated the sign. Until we reached the living room. We met Kit who was putting on a top as she walked, obviously having just taken a shower. But I was stunned when I saw Mayo behind her. She didn't have a top yet as she was wiping her hair. Did they take a shower together? I was about to ask them but Eren suddenly entered and glared at them . "Why are you taking so long?" He asked annoyed. "Please?" Mayo replied curtly. "What? You're ashamed of the innocent people here!" "Your ass is innocent." Kit interrupted Eren. "We didn't do anything, I took a shower before he did. I just waited for him." Eren narrowed his eyes at them. The two obviously didn't want to accept the answer. Mayo would probably get angry if the other one didn't stop. I decided to interrupt their conversation. "Hey, what are you ï¬ghting about?" I asked casually. "This is Eren, you dirty mind." Mayo complained. "You're so obvious. Even though I'm not dirty minded, I know." Eren defended himself. "Why? What can they do?" I asked and they all looked at me. It was as if they couldn't believe my question. They almost tapped my head to make sure there was something inside. Kit shook his head. "Nothing Jay, nothing." They each looked away before leaving the house. I looked at Keiâ€"kwanan as if he had put his burden on me. Why? What can they do? "Why do you look like that?" "Nothing. Let's go outside." That's what he said. I just let him go and just left the house. Everyone was outside and surrounding the bonï¬re they had made. This is where we're going to have a barbecue dinner. Yes... Barbecue. "Here Jay-jay!" Ci called to me while waving. I ran to them. Felix and David were arranging the ï¬rewood so that the ï¬re wouldn't be too strong or too weak. Eman was busy arranging the meats with Denzel and Blaster helping, who obviously couldn't wait. Josh was busy holding a guitar that I don't know where they got it from. Calix was next to him, teaching him how to use it. Edrix and Rory looked like they were ï¬ghting. "I'll report you to Freâ€"friend!" Rory threatened. "You're a fool! I'm really not going to tell you who I like! You're teasing me!" Edrix replied sharply. Drew immediately stepped between them. Eren was still teasing Mayo and Kit but the two ignored him. Yuri was busy with drinks. I thought I noticed some alcohol but I'm not sure because he immediately closed the cooler. "Is it starting?" I asked Eman before sitting next to Ci-N. "It's almost timeâ€"Blaster! I'll stab you with a barbecue stick!" He threatened, annoyed by Blas's play with the meat. "It's been a while! I'm hungry!" "Shut up!" Denzel ordered. Blaster stood up with a frown and approached Josh. Even though his ass wasn't even warm enough on the seat, he started teasing Calix and Josh again. "Don't stop. I'll hit you with this." Josh threatened softly while pointing at the guitar. Scary. Blas immediately left and looked for something to do. Until our eyes met and the shameless one smiled faintly. He ran over to us and sat next to me. "How are you?" He asked teasingly. "Do you want to go home with a broken face?" I asked seriously and his teasing smile immediately disappeared. "That's right... Just saying hello." He said with a hint of sulking. "You're just teasing." "No." I narrowed my eyes at him. He raised his hand as if promising. I just accepted what he said and let him sit next to us. It was true that he wasn't teasing anymore, especially as our conversation got longer. Even what was happening with Keigan and his best friend's girlfriend. The woman had been avoiding him for a long time but he was worried so he still approached her. But I was surprised by what he said next. "Sometimes, he said, it felt like he was with someone else and it didn't seem like Keigan was his boyfriend." The concern for his best friend was obvious in his voice. I wanted to speak as calmly as possible, but I decided to just listen. I might say something I shouldn't. "If I'm followed, I want them to break up. I'm scared or him." He added. "Why?" He came closer to me to whisper. "Keifer just doesn't want to admit it but his brother really has something wrong with his brain." I bowed my head. I wanted to get angry at Blaster for what he said but what does he know. I just couldn't help but feel hurt. We have the same symptoms, Keifer said. If Keigan is crazy, then that means I'm crazy too. My breathing became heavy and it felt like something was stuck in my throat. I immediately said goodbye so I could leave. I approached the beach and watched the setting sun. There was almost no light left and darkness had taken over. I tried to shift my attention there, which was effective. "The sunset is really beautiful." Calix commented. "Next time I'll take Mica with me." So it's you! After watching the sunset, we went back to the bonï¬re to wait for the barbecue. The drunks were still singing and talking. "Who wants some?" Edrix offered, holding a bottle of alcohol. Alcohol of course!! Almost everyone raised their hands so Edrix quickly reached out to them. I also raised my hand. "Me too!" I said and they immediately froze while looking at me. I knew what they were thinking. I immediately glared at them. "You know, Jay." Rory said. "Water is good for the body. There's also buko juice." I pouted. "Just one bottle." Edrix handed me a bottle of cold water. I was referring to a bottle of alcohol but they handed me a different bottle. "No alcohol for you." David said. They laughed loudly. Until it turned into teasing. Suddenly, the others stood up and started dancing in front of the ï¬re. Ci-N even joined in, doing a chicken dance. Even though I was annoyed, I still couldn't help but laugh. I just let them tease me. Who would have thought that we would still be together on this small outing. Complete with food, teasing, and laughter. Most of allâ€"we are complete. But for how long?