Chapter 8 Internal conflicts

" Hey come over to this side Ethan. You surely would love these pretty ducks.!" She yelled over to Ethan who was busy with the flowers, and athan himself came running over. " Yes mum!" Soon she took all about the lake, and they had fun with the ducks, and the lake in general. " Mumu, I never thought this would be fun you know, I still don't understand why you did not like this place in the first place." He said, as he chased a butterfly around the mat where he lay with his mother. Selena sighed, and she could not help but hold him, and draw him closer to her. " Hey boy. Ethan you should understand that you are a very special child. Special to me at least, and I know that may be just too hard for you to understand, but then you need not to get scared or anything like that, I am only trying as much as I can to keep you protected okay, I just need you to be dear to me, and obey everything that I say still, cause I know what is just right for you okay? As long as I am with you, you need not get worried of whatever thing comes your way my son, I can only scold you from dangerous places I will not be with you. Cause no other person knows how much of a precious gem you are." She smiled at him, and added, " to me especially." She held his face in her palms and she smiled at him.He soon shove her hand away, " all right I have heard you, but I want to go try out the frisbees! They are really fun, and my mates at school won't stop talking about it all the time you know, I need to experience it mum! Please don't say no to this one request. I know you always say no, but please don't say no to this one request of mine. Please I beg of you mum. Please!" Ethan pleaded, almost on his knees, and could not help but draw attention from the others who where not really far from where they lay. The man in particular smiled at them, " madsme he really seems to have a knick for things like that, I guess you should let go have some fun, you know he is of the age actually, I do t think it will be any nice to have him hindered of the fun his mates will be having." The man shrugged with a smile, and winked at Ethan." Such a lovely and healthy kid!" He added, and waved at Ethan who did not wave back, but turned dto look at his mother, and immediately hugged her. " Aww, he wants his mother first, he does not have an idea on what this bald stranger is talking about. Such a good and caring boy you know, they don't come this good these days you know, such a nice and admirable son you've got right there I just say, you should actually hold on to him really tight Madame if you ask me, cause I know for sure damn well there might be a lot of temptations along the way, but then this is a rare gem." Selena could not help but smile, and occasionally chuckle at the man's kind remarks, until she soon became on her guard , and even suspicious of the man. " What does he mean gem? He really is now saying more than usual, hmm! I really need dto end this. I don't think I lien where this is heading.He may soon request for a friend ship with my son, and I don't think I would want any one at all asides Miriam who just had to be, to know much about my son, or I myself.Even Miriam knows very little about us, I cannot risk letting another person whom I have no idea of. To have an idea of us. Not even possible.I need to end this right away." She thought to herself, and she immediately stood up, holding Ethan by the hands. By now, the man had made gestures of an open arm to welcome the boy in a hug, but just before he could get down from her laps to meet him, she had gotten up, and she held his hands. She chuckled nervously, " uhm.. yeah but I guess it's time to go for some frisbee throws, he really needs it I now understand what you mean.Thank you for your intervention, I really appreciate, and he also appreciates." She smiled at the man, and she immediately made to walk away with her son, leaving the man with his arms still open." Oh, my bad ,so soon, I thought I could get to introduce myself to my little friend here at least for the littlest time even, but then it is all right if you are against it, I mean.. you are the parent aren't you? You just have enough custody of him, and I understand that totally, so it is all right if you are against it.But I can wave him off at least." The man smiled, as he waved to Ethan who smiled and waved back at him. Selena felt really bitter deep down within her heart.She felt like a villain or something of that nature. She chuckled, " yeah that's right, Ethan this way, let's get going son!" She held him by the hands, and took him towards the direction of the kids throwing the discs.As they walked along, she could not help but feel the whole weight of all of her actions. She was feeling guilty of being quite hostile to the friendly seeming stranger just a view minutes ago, but then she tried to justify her actions.She thought to herself." Yeah I know fully well that this is the particular forest that leads to the moon crest territory. I am quite aware of that, and I am not sure it will be of a wise opinion to still take the risk of not being careful around this area. Yeah these people may be more of innocent humans, but at the end of the day, no one really knows who is who, and what the other person can be capable of. I just need to be really careful in my dealings here." She nodded her head, but there were still conflicting thoughts in her head." But hell nah, come on you are just subjecting the boy into loneliness you see, he will have no choice other than to be deeply reserved, and may even find it hard to open up to anyone it is, and yeah he may find it hard to express himself for anything.This is just not advisable, it is not the best way to go around these things in all honesty, this is not just advisable of any one to try. This is doing Ethan more harm than good, and it will be nicer if you actually tried to give him the space he well needs to be able to express himself properly without any fears of humans or whatever." She sighed, and shook her head. " Hell no way I will take the risk, I will just wait till he gets older, and by then I will be sure that he can actually fight all of his battles on his own, and then, there will be no problems with whatever it is he does, at least he would have been wise enough to know his left from his right, but as for now, his safety is my top priority, and I will not be risking anything whatsoever on him. I must take good care of him, and make sure no single one of his dangerous and wicked people have an idea of who is, or his whereabouts." She was lost in her thoughts obviously, and she was caught unawares by a voice calling out to her.