Meeting

Cecil's POV continues

I learnt this morning that Cain is coming today to help the workers with demonstration of new skills and tasks. How great. I'm sure to surprise him, as I dressed up in my work clothes in front of the mirror. Lily came and frowned.

"Do you really have to do that?" She asked.

"What do you mean?" I asked her in return.

"Don't pretend you don't know, Cecil. You've been using your gift everyday and have been deceiving everyone since the day we got here! Even in front of the Alpha, you didn't hesitate to use it. It was a miracle he didn't notice you were using your gift. I was so nervous, you know that. Do you really have to do this?"

I smiled as I replied, "Oh come on, I've already explained this many times. Yes it's necessary. It helps me, and will help me out big time today."

"What?! Is Cain coming today?" Her eyes were wide. She was clearly shocked.

I hummed nonchalantly as a reply, as I once again activated the power of my gift.

"Ta-da! Do I look good sweet Lil' ?" I asked her with a wide grin. I once called her sweet Lil when a grandma from Rosewood told her she was the sweetest little one. Lily liked it so it stuck with me. And even though we've grown older she doesn't seem to mind.

She just shook her head slowly as she smiled and said, "You always look good Cecil, whether as a guy or as a girl."

That warmed my heart. Yes my gift allows me to turn into a male version of myself. It's pretty unique, and I never thought how useful it'd be. Here in Blue Moon only Lily knows about it. To everyone else I'm male.

Even as a male, I got similar traits and looks pretty much as my normal body. White hair, green eyes, pale skin, only that my hair is shorter as a male and I'm a few inches taller as well. The little perks are enjoyable enough.

As we finished preparing, Lily and I went towards the field meant for the briefing. There were several people already. One of the pack council members arrived and told us about different areas to work on. We were divided in pairs and groups. Although it was more like -

Okay choose people you would like to work together with.

And then we all grouped as per our own choice. It made me happy because even though the others were kind to me, I didn't want to be separated from Lily.

And maybe she also had the same thought. After all, anyone who tried to get close to us, probably for the grouping, with all their wide smiles; would just skittishly walk away when Lily glared at them.

She was extremely friendly when she talked to them, at any given time. But she behaved like that suddenly. I sure hoped it didn't have anything to do with me.

The morning briefing ended so we were all just chatting around with each other. Noon would arrive soon, and that meant he was, too. It was going to be the first impression he would have of me, so I definitely couldn't screw it up. If I could talk to him, even just a few words, it would be splendid. But I had to stay distant at the same time.

He's known to be incredibly shallow and clueless at times, so I must never make him think he has leverage on me.

I started growing nervous with every passing second. This wasn't right. I was always confident, from that very day seven months ago. I didn't understand the anticipation I was feeling. I knew I definitely could not bail. It was my chance. It was then that Lily grabbed my hands.

I looked at her in the eyes, searching for an answer. She whispered softly, "Talk to your wolf."

That was it! All the breathlessness, fear, hope, every single other little thing.. It must have been because of my wolf. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.

Talk to me

"Yes Cecil, I'm here."

What's going on? What's with all the build-up?

"I'm sorry Cecil. I was just anticipating about meeting his wolf, my mate."

Do not call him that. Nor his wolf!

"Why are you being so cruel? You wouldn't even give them a chance?"

Did you already forget how he talked about us? We are nothing to him. He doesn't love us.

"You. Not us. Or even if he doesn't, maybe his wolf cares about us."

Don't be ridiculous. A werewolf and his wolf wouldn't be so different. They're basically the same existence.

"You know nothing, do you, Cecil? I'm just hoping for what's best. You're going to be in so much pain."

That includes you, too.... Sigh, I'm sorry for being so selfish. I know the consequences of rejecting a mate.

"It's okay. I will always be in your side. So if you decide to end it all and break the bond, I will understand. The pain that will come from it, I don't mind. All I want is for you to be happy."

Thank you. The Moon Goddess will show us kindness, and we might be given a better mate next time.

"Stay safe Cecil. If you need my help, don't ever hesitate to call for me. I will protect you."

That last sentence from her made me realise just how long I haven't turned into a wolf. Even as a werewolf, you have your own physical body and a wolf form. And your wolf could take control over both forms, although it would mostly be the wolf form. My wolf, has she ever forcefully taken over? I don't remember at all.

I felt much calmer, much more composed. I was then as ready as ever. Surely he would come to me. It's airy enough for him to detect my scent. I wondered if he would control himself until after his assignment, or be all helpless before it even started. It turned out to be the latter.

It went so very well. The petrified and confused look plastered on his face as he met my gaze, I almost smirked victoriously. It even seemed like he'd just seen a ghost as he muttered out the question about me being actually a male. It made me feel so triumphant when I delivered the blow and made him run away.

Well he wasn't exactly running but he might as well be doing so. Like a little lost pup with his tail between his legs, helplessly running for a place to feel safe. And there I was, still thinking if I was harsh enough.

The other workers shared confused looks regarding Cain's behaviour while Lily sent me a nervous smile with a thumbs up. I finally smirked at my little victory. My first win, with many more to come.

Just you wait Cain. The party's only just begun. Although, it doesn't mean that I'll be going in hot. Like a small cut sliced to his heart, to his highly inflated ego. Giving a little time to recover as if the pain will stop, as if it's going to be alright. And I'll be opening up the wound again. Why not add salt too while I'm at it?

But the bond pull also became a bit stronger especially since I took in much of his scent of chamomile tea and sandalwood. Why did it need to be so fragrant? Couldn't it have been a scent that I'd hate?

This might be even harder than I thought. What if he actually hated me for that though, the fact that I would appear as a mistake made by destiny itself to him. He would probably see it firsthand as a trouble with me being a guy to him, but I intend to keep it that way. It's safer too. Let his confusion eat him up.

What if he's actually okay with it though? Eh.. No way. Ugh, okay. That's enough thinking about him today. Is the bond responsibile for this fuzziness inside? I talked to him, for the first time. Sigh, fine. I'll keep thinking about him so much that I'd want to throw up at the mere sight of him! I guess I have to hurry or put a steady pace to the process, for my goal is still the same since day one.

Break his heart and top off the pain by rejecting him and the bond. Cut off all ties and leave Blue Moon once and for all with Lily. First things first, how to torment him next? I need to make a good long list. Haha.

Lily and I walked home to our little hut where we stayed for the time being, after completing all our tasks for the day. I made her favourite soup for dinner to celebrate the day's victory.

We talked about our prefered tasks to handle so that we could do them efficiently together. After deciding the activities for the next day we went to bed for the night.