Chapter 16 : Iskandar's POV #2

Iskandar's POV

She blinked, a low smile passing through her lips. "Would you like to hear a story?" She asked.

I nodded.

"When I was in high school, world seemed pretty fucked up to me. I was tired of everything. I didn't want to live anymore. So, one day I bunked school and went to my favourite place that was inside the woods near the fast-flowing river. You could hear nothing but the sound of flowing river and chirping birds. The trees were so long that I often look at the sky and wonder if someday, I'll be able to learn how to be happy? It was beautiful. The place was beautiful. It was kind of a place where you could go crying and after sometime, the mighty nature will heal your soul and you'll definitely come out smiling. That place used to be my secret rendezvous. But that day, I went there with something else in my mind. I sat at my usual spot and after taking a sharp breath, I decided to jump into the river to end my life. At that time, I just wanted to die and I had no idea that how scary it is to take your own life. The second I jumped into the river, I struggled to come out of it not because I didn't want to die but because all the pain, I've suffered in my life were nothing compared to the pain I was having while struggling for breath. Without each passing second, I regretted my decision but deep down I knew that it was too late. I never thought that suicide can be this scary. It was always that once you die, you're at peace but no one told me that there's a second before you die where you wish to live. I struggled to save myself but nothing happened. So, I closed my eyes and waited for some miracle to happen and you won't believe that something like that happened. A person saved me by jumping into the water and carrying me out of it. I was overweight at that time and I really don't know how he managed to carry me into his arms. I was half conscious but I was glad that I didn't die. That person then gave me CPR and I blushed. It was CPR but for me it was my first ever kiss from the person who was my saviour. Once I gained consciousness, I found a boy sitting on the rock facing the river. I went to him, trying my best to not look at the river because the water seemed scary now. As I sat next to him, facing the other side than river, I thought that he will scold me for trying to suicide or anything like that but he didn't say anything. We just sat in a plain, comfortable silence till he decided to break it. He told me to live no matter how hard it gets because death isn't the answer to all our questions. That even though I suffer everyday, I must wakeup and try to survive in order to live. And that's how I survived my life, that's how I lived because the boy made me realise the importance of one's life. I saved that child because I know that how valuable is even a single life. I didn't want to risk my life to save the child at all but I just wanted to save him and it was my reflex to push him aside and I didn't get a time to save myself."

I still at my place and everything came rushing to me like a truck. All of sudden, it became hard for me to breath. I looked at her face again and this time, I didn't see her as someone who killed Daisy but as someone who-

"Do you want to know what happened next?" She asked, her lips curving into a bigger smile.

I nodded, not being able to say anything.

"When that boy stood up to leave, my eyes fell on his arms. His arms were soaked in blood and the cut marks told me a different story. I knew that he has already tried to commit suicide. I held his wrist and creased his skin to feel how deep as if his reality was more fucked up than mine. I took out cotton napkin from my bag and wrapped it around his scars, telling him that no matter how hard life gets, he should try to live too. That even though his scars are deep, it isn't too late to start accepting them. He nodded trying to fake a smile but it didn't reach his eyes. You know, he was not that handsome and all. He was pale and his bone were peeping out of his body but he was beautiful in his own that I couldn't help but secretly wish for him to become my boyfriend. We both stared at each other before he cornered me to the nearest tree and kissed me as if his life was depend on me and so do I. It was one of the most perfect moments of my life. He gave me a new life and I'd always be thankful to him. When we parted our way, he said thank you to me and took a promise from me to never try to take my life away no matter how hard it gets. You see, Iskandar. I don't want to break his promise. I don't know what's wrong I've done to you but I just don't want to break his promise. No matter what you put me through, I'll wakeup to survive in order to live."

When she finished her sentence, she smiled looking straight into my eyes.

Unable to take all of this anymore, I rushed out of the room and felt my body shaking. Sweat beads formed over my face as I tried to calm myself down but nothing happened.

No.

Fuck, no. I can't do this anymore.