why?

" noraki called yun to tell yun something important, so yun left immidiately "

Askin came towards me asking to accompany him as he was going to purchase items for making rethern potion ,the potion which give's you temporary power boost in magic .

As the potion was worthless for me ,but still i accompanied him as I have nothing to do for now .

While travelling I saw a small girl with her mother and father , after seeing them a unknown jealousy came to my mind .

why i can't have that life ? Why I don't remember single thing about past ?

Is that i was destined to kill king or there is any other thing waiting for me that will come soon but now I don't even have any hatred towards king because my all Focus is to protect my friends.

If I will remain in the group hatred and jealousy will all fade away , so i decided that after completing the tournament I am going to leave group and accompalish the goal.

and I started to wisper ( joining group is the reason for my weak ambition if that's the case than i will leave the group ) In my mind again and again .

But askin called me which helped me broke the inner thinking as he has now purchased

The items he wanted .

After that ,

while heading towards base i questioned askin

" What's your reason to live "

With a smile , askin said :- if you don't tell anyone than I'm going tell you my ambition .

But Without even listening to my answer that I will tell anyone or not .

askin started to narrate his story :-

" 5 years before when i was 15 ,

I have a small family :- little sister , mother ,father .

they given me everything that I desired without any questioning but they all were killed by a serial killer .

And i survived not because of my luck but because i wanted to see the festival but they denied the wish of mine which led me to leave the home without telling anyone .

But for whole life i regretted the decision to leave home at that moment and after i desired to execute the killer who killed my family .

For 2 whole years i searched for serial killer roaming on entire town ,

But after that incident serial killer was never ever seen inside town , I travell across the whole nation to find the serial killer .

The only thing I knew about serial killer that he has J mark on his forehead .

And the one who told me about serial killer was my little sister when she was in a brink of death .

After travelling whole nation I don't even have the clue who the hell is serial killer.

But after long 4 years i realised that:- sometime you can't achieve the goal that you desired and only option left is to change the past goal and move on .

And now my new goal is to remain like this with my group until end "

After hearing askin's past " tears were coming through my eyes as askin story was same as mine "

But difference was he gave up

is there any chances that I will gave up on my dream.

No I will not change my motive until I die ,my final decision will always be to kill king and I will never change my motive ever .

But I can make my last time with my group memorable ,

Now my bond with askin has became much more stronger than before .

"(5 hours has left before the Beginning of the S rank mission )"