The night air was thick with tension as Elena stepped outside, her pulse still racing from what had just transpired. The world around her felt different, as if reality itself had shifted under her feet. She had gone back to him, confronted him, and for a moment—just a moment—she had thought he would give in.
But he hadn't.
Nathaniel Pierce had held himself back. Again.
Her heart ached with frustration as she walked through the nearly empty campus, the echoes of her footsteps the only sound breaking the silence. It wasn't just about wanting him anymore. It was about the way he made her feel—like she was standing on the edge of something dangerous, something exhilarating, something that could consume her whole. And she was tired of pretending that she didn't want to fall.
Sophie's dorm wasn't far, and Elena knew she needed to talk to someone before she went home and lost herself in restless thoughts. When she reached the door, she knocked twice before pushing it open.
Sophie was sprawled on her bed, phone in hand, but the moment she saw Elena's face, she sat up. "Oh, no. What happened now?"
Elena hesitated, then sighed, dropping onto the edge of the bed. "I went back."
Sophie's eyes widened. "To him?"
Elena nodded.
"And?"
"And nothing." Elena ran a hand through her hair, exhaling sharply. "I told him I couldn't keep pretending there wasn't something between us. That I know he feels it too."
Sophie whistled. "Damn. And what did Professor Iceberg say to that?"
Elena bit her lip. "He almost… he almost broke. I could see it. He even grabbed my wrist like he couldn't help himself. But then he stepped back. Again. Told me it couldn't happen."
Sophie groaned. "Of course he did. He's still clinging to that whole 'I'm your professor, this is forbidden' thing, isn't he?"
Elena nodded, staring at her hands. "But Sophie… the way he looked at me. The way he touched me, even for just a second. It was like he was fighting himself."
Sophie studied her for a moment before sighing. "You're in deep, aren't you?"
Elena laughed dryly. "Way too deep."
Sophie leaned back against the pillows. "So, what now? You gonna give up?"
Elena's stomach twisted. "I don't know."
Because the truth was, she didn't want to give up.
Nathaniel sat at his desk long after Elena had left, his fingers pressed to his temples. His whole body was tense, rigid, as if he was physically holding himself together.
She had been right there. So close. Her voice, her scent, the fire in her eyes—it had taken every ounce of control he had to step back. To not give in.
And yet, he still felt her.
His fingers itched with the memory of her wrist beneath his touch. The warmth of her skin, the way her breath had hitched when he'd said her name.
If I let myself have you, I won't be able to stop.
The words had left his mouth before he could think them through. And they were the truth.
He had spent weeks trying to deny this thing between them, convincing himself that he could stay professional, that he could resist. But with every encounter, every conversation, every stolen glance, he felt himself slipping further.
And tonight, he had nearly lost.
Nathaniel exhaled sharply, pushing back from his desk. He needed air. He needed to clear his head.
But even as he stepped outside, the cool night doing little to soothe his frayed nerves, he knew one thing with absolute certainty.
This wasn't over.
Not even close.
The next morning, Elena walked into class with her heart in her throat. She hadn't seen Nathaniel since last night, and she wasn't sure what to expect. Would he avoid her? Pretend nothing had happened? Or would the tension between them be even worse?
She took her usual seat, and Sophie leaned in. "You ready for this?"
Elena swallowed. "Not really."
Sophie smirked. "Let's see if he can look you in the eyes today."
As if on cue, the door opened, and Nathaniel strode in. His usual commanding presence filled the room, but Elena noticed the slight tension in his shoulders, the way his jaw was locked tighter than usual.
For the first half of the lecture, he didn't look at her once.
But then, when he asked a question and she answered, his gaze finally met hers.
It was fleeting. A fraction of a second. But in that moment, Elena saw everything.
The restraint. The frustration. The storm raging inside him.
And she knew—knew in her bones—that this wasn't the end.
The weight of unspoken words hung between them like a charged storm cloud. Elena's hands clenched into fists beneath her desk as Nathaniel continued the lecture, his voice steady, controlled—but she saw through it now. She saw the tension in the way he gripped the edge of the podium, the way he avoided her gaze except for those brief, stolen moments when he faltered.
The air between them was unbearable. Every glance, every movement felt like a battle neither of them could win.
Sophie nudged Elena lightly. "He's struggling."
"I know," Elena whispered back, her pulse hammering.
Nathaniel's voice remained composed, but there was something clipped about the way he spoke, as if he were forcing himself to remain indifferent. His usual fluidity was gone, replaced by rigid precision. The lines he had drawn between them were beginning to blur, and they both knew it.
When the lecture finally ended, Elena didn't move. She waited, watching as students gathered their things and filed out. Sophie hesitated beside her. "Are you going to talk to him?"
Elena nodded slowly. "I have to."
Sophie squeezed her hand. "Good luck."
As the last student left, Nathaniel busied himself at his desk, flipping through papers he wasn't really reading. Elena knew he was aware of her presence—knew he was bracing for what was coming.
She stepped forward, her heartbeat an erratic drum in her chest. "Professor Pierce."
His fingers stilled on the papers. For a moment, he didn't move. Then, slowly, he straightened and met her gaze.
"Elena." His voice was quieter now, lacking the authority it usually carried in the lecture hall.
She swallowed. "We need to talk."
His jaw tensed. "There's nothing to talk about."
"Don't do that." Her voice wavered, but she refused to back down. "Don't pretend last night didn't happen. Don't pretend you don't feel this."
Nathaniel exhaled sharply, raking a hand through his hair. "It doesn't matter what I feel."
Elena took a step closer. "It matters to me."
His eyes burned with something she couldn't quite name. "Elena…"
"Tell me you don't want me," she challenged. "Tell me that last night, when I stood in front of you, you didn't want to—"
"Enough." His voice was rough, strained, but it wasn't anger. It was something else.
Something deeper.
Something dangerous.
Elena's chest rose and fell with uneven breaths. "You can keep pushing me away, but it won't change the truth."
He closed his eyes for a fraction of a second as if gathering himself. When he opened them again, they were filled with torment.
"I am your professor," he said quietly. "And this—this thing between us—it cannot happen."
Elena's stomach twisted. "Why? Because of rules? Because you're afraid?"
Nathaniel's expression darkened. "Because I can't afford to lose control."
The words sent a shiver through her. He was standing so close now, close enough that she could see the way his hands trembled slightly at his sides.
She took another step forward. "Maybe you already have."
His breathing turned shallow. "Elena, you don't understand—"
"Then make me understand."
For a moment, he looked as if he might—might finally give in, might finally let himself want her the way she wanted him.
But then, just as quickly as the moment arrived, it was gone.
Nathaniel took a deliberate step back, his expression hardening. "Go home, Elena."
A lump formed in her throat. "That's it? You're just going to keep pretending?"
His jaw tightened. "This conversation is over."
Elena's hands trembled at her sides. She had come here hoping for something—anything—but all she got was more walls.
She turned on her heel, her heart pounding as she stormed toward the door. But just before she stepped out, she heard him exhale, barely above a whisper—
"Elena."
She froze.
For a long second, she didn't move.
Then, without looking back, she walked away.
But deep down, she knew this wasn't over.
Not yet.
Not even close.