The dead widow.

JUNE 1,2003,

The Peterson children sat at the dinner table quietly eating their peas and mashed potatoes and beef gravy.The had to be quiet before someone gets swated like a fly.It had been nearly 2 and a half months since Emma and she was right.Veronica did move onto Kast but it didn't work.Kast seemed to have lost his loving self over the months .He spoke only to Austin,Brianna, Scott and Fiona often and the other siblings.. once in a while . Everything went back to normal.Ferdinand looked around then at Claire before getting up to leave .He wanted to go to bed earlier which Father ( the priest) permitted always.He wasn't stupidly restrictive like Papa.

Ferdinand Peterson,

I seem to be the only one bothered by the fact that we would never see Emma ,and papa's ugly character.I may never speak but that doesn't mean I do not care,they are my family one way or another, I just have other things on my hands.I sit on my bed and take off my coat lazily.Michael's murder broke me but it seemed everyone only cared about Carl.It upset me when Austin only fought about Carl's birthday and not Michael's.I guess I as the only one who loved Michael in any way.

I lay back and closed my eyes rubbing my temples.I wasn't going to let my mind go back to that day or the days that followed.i got up and took my shirt off ,sat on my desk and took out my journal.I didn't know what to write about.I was blank so I stared at the sketch Emma and I did of Michael after he died .None of us had pictures taken of ourselves at that age.

I smile at the thought of the day we stole the girls first set of bras.I remember how shy they were to walk around us .I remember how we were whooped that day,we cried and laughed so hard we fell sick the next day and father banned whooping because of it.

There was a knock on the door,it was Claire.Claire was soft spoken and gentle.She had a soft voice and a gentle touch to everything.She locked the door and walked to me, wrapping her arms around me from behind me lightly." I know today is hard for you,but I'm here for you,I always have and always will be ! Ok!?" She said taking out a pen from her pocket.It was Michael's birthday today and nobody did or said anything about it.She put the pen on my journal and kissed the top of my head.But it was also my birthday and only she remembered.The pen was a journaling pen.Such pens weren't easy to find around here but she went all the way.I could see why Emma said she would marry Claire is she were a man." Thank you" is all I manage to say .All this remembering made my throat lumpy ,I wanted to cry so badly but not on Claire.She gets stressed too easily.She pat's my head and leaves .

I was starting to hate this.This tradition of losing every single person I cared about.If Claire was taken away from me, I'd kill myself.

April 26th 2003(2 weeks after Brianna met Madame Martin).

The children were assembled to the church burial ground where miss Higgins head was buried in as well.There was a new casket, anew dead nun,who was to blame this time,.

Brianna stood at the front with a rose in her hand ,unaware of who was in the casket.She was ushered to walk to the casket and place the flower on the nun's chest.She walked toward the casket simply but froze once she saw the nun.She dropped the flower and dropped to her knees screaming.Covering her ears .Scott and Fiona ran to her and peeked into the casket too.Holy shit!

It can't be her! Why her?.Fiona turned to Kast as a year poured down her cheek.He knew immediately! And so did Austin.They had all suspected.