Chapter 3

Nathan POV

The world a vast land of changes

The evergreen land, towering trees

Cerulean ocean, a mystery beneath

Cold breeze in the night

Suffocating warmth in the day

Seasons changing—

Nothing stays still

Gloomy days, is everything real?

Cretaures dying, why do humans kill?

To survive—

A cruel hierarchy.

Greedy grins upon their faces.

Grey snatches the places colour.

Thirsty for honor.

Unquenchable desire makes people die.

The laughter fading into darkness with a distance of mile.

This planet is flooded with misery.

Like a melting block of ice in the north—

They denies it's remedy.

I stretched my sore arms as I finally finished my assignment. I don't know if this is good, but who cares at least I'm done.

I looked at the time, it's 2 am.Nothing's new, it's always like this. Sleep at morning, then stay awake at night during the weekend.

I sigh.

Even if I want to sleep at night, I can't. I'm insomiac...

In the weekdays, I mostly force myself to sleep but it's usually a 2 hours sleep at best. Enough to stop myself from sleeping at class.

I don't like to take sleeping pills, I don't want to rely on medicine.

It's unhealthy, but I can't rely on anyone else. My parents are divorce...

My relationship with my step siblings is not good either.

My close friends will listen but I don't want to bother anyone. I feel guilty with overwhelming others with my unstable emotions. I'll just keep this to my self. I'm used to it.

I look at the night sky outside my window, it's dark. The moon is nowhere in sight.

I wonder if it was also afraid of the dark or maybe tired of being in the dark.

Must be tiring to light up the darkness of the sky...

I wonder, how does it feels when all it sees in it's arrival is the impending silence?

Does it feel alone? Does the moon feels like an outcast despite being the bigger lumine of the night?

Clearly, it was surrounded with stars that couldn't compete with it. Do they hate the moon for being different?

If so, I pity the moon. But I'm jealous of it.

I always read about the moon being the lover of the sun. What a tragic love story it is....

But I envy the moon.

To be loved by such warmth, a love with no darkness. Even with how rare they meet, only in eclipse... at least they are possible.

When will Love find me? A question I always asked. I yearn for love.

I shake my head, I shouldn't think about love.

Love like that, I'm unworthy of that. Maybe my parents were right. I'm unlovable.

And maybe that's why he never really make me feel loved.

Knock...

I look at the door when I heard a knock.

"Nathan, are you awake?" I heard the voice of Liam, we live together. My mom want me to live with him, hoping I could be like him.

Her complains about why I can't be as good as my cousin, still ring in my head. Her belittlement of my capabilities, how im the reason why dad left her. All of it etched in my mind. Never leaving me once.

"Nathan?..."

"I'm here, wait..." I said as I made my way toward the closed door. I twist the door knob, letting the cold air from the corridor of the house, flow in my warm bedroom.

I looked at Liam who's holding a glass of milk and a plate of pastries in his hand.

"Here, take this..." Offering the things in his hands to mine.

"What's this for...?" I asked with slight confusion visible in my face, as I grab both of the container with my hands.

"Oh...I can't sleep too, so I made this and I figure that you might want some...I thought it might help you a little bit with your condition"

This is why I can't hate him even with all the comparison my mother does between us. My cousin is too kind to me. He is one of the few people who show genuine care for me.

"Thank you... Liam" I said with gratitude laced in my voice. He just nodded with a smile.

"I will go to my room now, you should probably too after you finished eating your snacks....Night little cousin" He stated as he pats me in the head. I waited for him to enter his room which is just beside mine, before I closed the door of my room.

I headed toward my bed and puts the plate and glass on my bedside table. I ate it with relish as sweetness remains in my tounge. This does not really work for me, that's why I never bother to make one for myself.

After I finish eating, I set aside the dishes. I'll probably just wash it later after I wake up. Well...if I'm gonna have some sleep tonight.

I lay in my bed, I stared at the ceiling for a while, mind empty. I let myself relax in silence, I don't know for how long but it was only interrupted when I felt my phone vibrate.

I opened my device to see the message I received. It was from our group chat, Olius was the one who sent the message. Why is he awake this late? I curiously read the message he sent.

He only says that he'll introduce someone to us tomorrow. A person that lives in his neighborhood that he will assist tomorrow since that person will transfer to our school.

A transferee during the midterm of the semester. I don't know why but the thoughts about this transfer student beleaguers my mind. it's strange something in me is telling me to acknowledge that person.I wander through this thought for a moment.

Then,perhaps I'm too tired of thinking, my eyelid becomes heavy, I soon felt the rush of sleepiness.

My only thought before I succumb to my sleep is...

I hope that person is nice, I don't know why but I'm looking forward to meeting him.