The first time she laughed without me, it shattered what was left of my heart—if ghosts could even have hearts. I could only watch, helpless, as she moved on without me. Though most of my life is a blur, I remember her—every detail, every moment. I remember how she made me feel alive, even as she stood there, alive without me.
My gaze clung to her beautiful face, her long dark hair, her honey-brown skin glowing in the sunlight. I remembered the way she used to tuck her hair behind her ear when she was nervous, the way she'd whisper my name like it was a secret only we shared. Now, she whispered his name instead, and it cut deeper than any blade ever could. Her smile could make the world feel bright, if only she was looking at me. But she wasn't. Not anymore.
Her laugh was like music, the kind that used to make my chest swell with pride because I was the one who put it there. Now, it was a melody I could only listen to from the shadows, a song that no longer belonged to me. She was no longer mine.
I finally looked at the man responsible. He was everything I wasn't—alive, warm, real. When he touched her hand, I felt a pang of something I couldn't name. Jealousy? Grief? Or maybe it was the final, crushing realization that I was truly gone. I expected her to grieve for me a bit longer. Perhaps I was being selfish, but that spot next to her was mine. It was supposed to be me.
I could only watch as she slowly moved on while I could not. I wanted to hate her. How could she move on from me? Did she not love me the same way I loved her? Was I simply not special enough? The perfect breeze and sunlight seemed to mock the deep guilt and sadness in my heart. The feelings swirled in my head, and I couldn't help but reach out—to pull her away from him, to bring her back to me. For a moment, I felt my hand wrap around her arm, and hope flickered in my chest. But then my fingers slipped through, intangible, as she moved toward her new lover.
The ache of it transported me back to another time, another place—to the night we danced in the rain. Her dress clung to her skin, her laughter echoing in the empty street. The way we swayed to non-existent music, her hand in mine, the warmth of her body mixing with mine to envelop us in warmth and love. 'Forever,' she'd said, and I'd believed her. But forever had an expiration date, and mine came far too soon.
For I am simply a ghost now. I can no longer be loved. And yet, I linger, bound to her by a love that even death couldn't erase.